it took me this long to blog since i came back from malaysia on thursday night.
my current status: watching ocean's eleven and having very bad muscle aches in my thighs.
anyway.the malaysia trip with the hockers was just awesome.i miss royale bintang hotel.hahah.i still can't believe i spent 500+ rm in 5 days.and i didn't manage to finish my christmas shopping): anyway.here i am on christmas eve sitting on my grandmother's sofa watching tv alone and using the computer.just because my mom cut off the cable at home and thus i've got no more access to internet anymore.so i've got to come over to get some.how inconvinient.

im not in much mood to blog about the teensy wincy details of the trip, but maybe just some major points.genting.haunted adventure.freaked the hell outta everyone.theme parks.corkscrew, space shot and flying coaster is one that made me scream like hell.there wasn't much in the indoor theme park though.sunway's rides were almost on par, if not better.the water rides wasn't as thrilling as i thought, but still exhilarating.kl's shopping was not exactly successful, but i managed to get a pair of shoes, a bag and some other stuff i can't remember.but i do know i spent a tad too much on food.
ah..but training was horrible that day.although we spent most of it playing matches, oh yes.that reminds me.i totally missed a freaking open goal.it was such a damn stupid silliest thing i could ever do.but anyway, it was the after training fitness that killed us all.and i had to wake up freaking early in the morning after coming home so late the night before.
i wonder how boring my christmas is going to be this year.

merry christmas everyone

im have been a lethargic ass the past few days.especially after the crescent carnival.i shouldn't be to sad.but the thing is that my team didn't even get into the bloody quarter finals like wth.i didn't even do my warm up, and i just felt like some last-minute jinx.how i hate it.my life has never been complete.
and in 2 days time im going to be in malaysia, with the seniors and jing.i'll feel so extra.and i haven't even done anything for christmas.how bloody last minute can i be.and then there's the keller board to do up tmr.just hope we can finish it on time.

anyway, today went ice skating with christine and amelia.i didn't expect to fall this many times today.shouldn't have attemped to learn how to do the turns on ice.and ice-skating gives me bloody aching feet.hate those skates.wish i had my own.

keep on wishing

ok...just a little about my weekend before training and also while my fingers are blue.literally.

the SA match went quite well...with some of the seniors playing for SA so it was kinda interesting.but crescent still won.oh and we all went to melody's house for an early birthday party.quite fun.with enough food to feed the whole team.except that only half came.or make that 2/3 .i can't say the same for the match me and alicia played with nj.the british team was just. woah.they're like so BIG.seriously.and they were only 16. but they still beat the crap outta our team.just imagine the match for this year's C div' the first game of crescent vs. swiss cottage. just increase the skill level.and the nj team only had like 1 reserve left after one player was hit on the chin.ouch.so there i was running my ass off as midfielder, one position i haven't played for months.with the exception of friday's match.while the british team had dunno how many subs. no wonder they had all the stamina to run up and down. how bloody tired i was running after them.

then comes sunday. mom bought a new mp3 from the yearly creative fest. and she bought the player i wanted to buy with xiang yin a year ago.or half a year.bloody 5GB (: but my mom bought it so she could store her work and stuff inside so she didn't exactly buy it for me. rather like for me, her and my brother to share.but it's still with me (: and the colour's bloody army green. but what's there to complain.we got a webcam as well.and a prodikeys board for my uncle.and my brother got portable speakers. oh how i wish everything in the world was foc.

keep on dreaming.

can't believe im such a pig today.
4 episodes of anime.
3 movies.
i watched all that today.and didn't even exercise.oh god.im really getting FAT.

anyway.there's training tmr and im not going for it.gonna play in some friendly match against SA.
then comes sat where gha's asking me to play with NJ against some english team.i wonder how that'll work out.seriously...like coach said its all about teamwork..how am i gonna play with a completely different team.they're all strangers .it's just gonna be strange.really.

well the past week hasn't gone all that smoothly either.monday's training got me up all in the wrong places.which affected me till today.anyway..wed was also coach nordin's birthday.and i guess it was quite amusing as well.me and sheng went to toysrus and got him a hula hoop.think girly.and a pink skipping rope for goodness sake.i have no idea what i was thinking then.but i guess it wasn't so bad afterall i guess.
ta.

dammit i grew shorter.how is that even possible.
sheesh.i think its my knees.or ankles.damn them.

oh and im taking orders for christmas cookies and brownies(:

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[bite-size , regular]
extra large cookie : approx. 15-20cm in diameter = $3

brownies:
[walnut/chocolate chip/plain]
2x5cm each or 4x4cm = $1.50 for 4

7x5cm each = $0.60/p

will be fresh and ready for collection on 23 onwards.post-christmas orders are still welcome.
any enquiries please leave a contact with a tag on the tagboard.
appreciate orders by 11th december.
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thanks

i woke up this morning.it was a new day.and i felt like everything should have changed.
my room basically.it was terribly small and cramped.and i hate pink walls.orange would be nice.and all the junk in my room should just disappear.and nicer furniture please.i wanted to change the whole room.for a new look.and i designed everything.in my head.and it was perfect.and then i started thinking of my new house in the future.i would be 24.single.probably in a relationship.but i would be a workaholic.a business woman.successful one at that.with a nice big apartment all to myself.and i designed everything as well.some stuff would be bought at the jatuchak market in bangkok.most of the rest in ikea.and the Life shop.and a nice posh car .
but all that would have to wait.because it is impossible right now.i have to change my attitude and habits if i want such a life in the future.and get whatever i want.which would make me a twenty-plus successful woman stereotyped bitch.oh well.
i shall make my christmas wishlist tmr.those hoping to get me presents i doubt the list will be of any help.
ta.

'Fear has paralysed me emotionally for a number of years. I am well aware of that, and so I have created a life for myself, a life alone; this has always seemed so much safer. Brick by brick by brick I have erected a wall around myself, a wall built on the foundations of my business, my work and my career. I have done this in order to protect myself, to insulate myself from life; work has been my strong citadel for such a long time now, and it has given me exactly what I have needed these few years.'
-Everything to Gain written by Barbara Taylor Bradford.

I think that really describes me seriously.

i am messy yet i like and try to be neat.the clashes of the two worlds.how i wish everything will just fall into their own places.literally.

i think im missing out a phase in my growing years.you know the part where everyone would be obsessing over someone in the reel life.thinking how that person is so perfect and stuff.somehow the feeling never occured to me.maybe i'll like the actor, but not obsess over that person.but it'll fade away almost as soon as i start liking that actor.and it happened only once.or twice.i can't remember.sighs.

music calms me.or probably almost everybody as well.whether im angry.sad.bored.cheerful.damp.stone.yea...somehow the songs perk me up.or more like just make me forget about all my worries.and responsibilities.yes.responsibilities.how i wish i wasn't so responsible.and then people won't put the responsibility on me.but sometimes i do enjoy the responsibilities.yet sometimes i just hate it when i have too much.and then i won't be responsible for my own self.i should be glad yet im sad to leave crescent.a certain someone had to just rub it in all the way.first.hockey captain.that probably won't end till december.but im worried about the team spirit then.now to future-was-going-to-be-but-not-possible-now keller house captain.im leaving.so i don't really have to do anything about it.but polly just had to drag me into it cos me, lavania and siew hui are leaving for nj thus they're short handed.and thus we are called back to help by the house captain.sighs.

never thought not swimming for months can make me lose my touch.i used to take classes and can swim laps without getting tired.and now.how bad i've dropped.it was really nice to swim after so long.the scenery was perfect.not much sun.but the construction of regency suites just had to destroy the view.the jacuzzi was nice and warm.and bubbly.stayed in the pool till my fingers and toes were all wrinkled like crap.

to think i would have gone past with a very boring december i proved myself wrong.with so much damn stuff to do i don't think i can go to genting before finishing everything up.which leaves me exactly 2 weeks and a day left.i feel the pressure although no one is pressuring me.
i love to assume.oh yes.that is one aspect i hate of myself.like really really deep hatred.cos i do it unconsciously.and thus its so turn off-ish to myself.BLAH.
im falling asleep on my chair AGAIN.nights.ta.

my room's a big mess.and im a mess.
being both emotionally and physically strained.
nothing more please.

continuation from yesterday.no..14 hours post ago.
had class outing yesterday.the nj future class.i wouldn't say much .interesting.boring.embarressing.weird.all the different descriptions of it.
its those kind where you stone.and get to put names to faces.and watch chicken little.when i already have the dvd.so i just blew cash on a movie.

ok.then training.nordin's in malaysia with the under 16 team playing so wei zhen came in and sub. but jing's complaining it was too slack.as for me.my lungs were affected and thus i can't run for long and i had very long breaks on monday.wednesday wasn't so bad for me cause i was on the road to recovery but still can't run the full 5 rounds.i hope tmr's training i'll be in a better shape.
ta.

i am pissed at myself for all the too-much-logical-thinking.seriously. its like when someone makes some unknown-doesn't-seem-like-its-wrong-and-doesn't-really-matter-mistake in speech or somthing i'll try to correct the person.that person must be irritated by that...everyone will although sometimes it is mixed with sarcasm and humour.i just just can't seem to control it. and even i myself get irritated.ugh.
and then i have another tendancy.to make all my statements to a person whether it is to reply they're question or just to make a comment, it'll all seem very cold hearted and mean.and its like a sign that im barely tolerationg the person...or around there.another time would be when im having fun i like to be mean.somehow.its like nice to be mean.now i see why people turn to evil. more than good.

oh well.the week went past fine.with me having sorethroat, a little flu and bad cough.so my laziness and combined weakness made me stay away from the computer.
and since i am about to fall asleep right now and can't keep my eyes open and thus nodding off at my chair .ta.

i feel obliged to blog when something happens to me.although lesser and lesser details are input.soon it'll just be one blank entry and i'll totally stop.
hockey chalet was tiring.to my body.although we didn't do anything physically exhausting, staying up late for nights in a row can be.i guess i slept quite well last night compared to others.especially with limited resources.loyang was not bad.just a little detached from the redt of singapore.big place, adequate facilities.but the bbq.i think it just wasn't worth my effort just to be able to play with fire.
anyway.my head feels much lighter.literally.went to cut my hair with jing and yj at fareast today.like finally.it still needs a little getting used to.especially the amount of hair that i lost.together with my highlights.i think its approximately a year since i last cut it.and the shortest ever since kindergarten.at least i wont sweat like a pig that easily now.
that's all folks.too lazy to bother to input anything else.

this week is a shit week.from being accisent prone, to lacking sleep for consecutive nights, to favourite shirts being destroyed ,an example - my WHITE baggy shirt turned PINK. this is one hell busy week as well...from sleepovers, to chalet, to another chalet.now i know my body's limit.
no one is superman.

sharon : forget about the comment.i do not think of you as a sadist coz im suppose to be the one and not you.just forget about it and don't think of what i think of you.

today.streaming.my name wasn't there.my amusement was lost.
anyway...hockey training we had to run.and im surprised my 2.4 timing is such horrid.sighs.
but i went out for lunch with the s1 people today.no sijing, you're friends aren't retarted, they're acually quite amusing.and nicole won 50 bucks for a dare...eating and drinking some noodles and soup that the table mixed together.hahah..but i really can't believe anyone that would just give 50 bucks to a stranger like that.oh wells.
next week starting sunday's gonna be packed and so i doubt i'll be blogging.

oh right.harry potter.it was disappointing.it did no honour to the book.and harry potter's getting uglier.cedric wasn't so bad.voldermort was utterly horrible.and so was alastor moody.that's all i have to say.but to acctually include everything in the book, i bet the movie will last 5 hours at least?that would be nice.haha.

and gundam seed destiny was nice.it touched my heart.if i even have one.and tampering with genes is just plain wrong.

sharon : hope you don't mind me borrowing , im too bored for my own mind.
1. name: pamela
2. single or taken: happy single female
3. sex: female
4. birthday: 29 july 1991
5. siblings: two older brothers.
6. hair color: shades ranging from black to brown
7. eye color: dark brown
8. shoe size: us 7
9. height: 15210.
10.any tattoos or piercing: 3. two on right.

s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: like i'll ever.
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: pantene smooth and silky
3. what are you most scared of?: dark places, dots, confined spaces,my imagination.
4. who is the last person that called you?: leo
5. where do you want to get married?: beach?
6. how many buddies are online right now?: 40
7. what would you change about yourself?: height.and skin condition.

f a v o r i t e (s)
1. color: orange
2. food: pasta/ long john silver's fries.
3. boys names: never thought of it.
4. girls names: this either
5. subjects in school: pe, maths/science
6. animals: small cuddly ones that don't bite.
7. sports: hockey, tennis, swimming, badminton, captain's ball, handball, volleyball.most others.

h a v e y o u e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: nope.
2. smoked: i'd be caught dead doing that.
3. bungee jumped?: went close enough, but not YET.
4. made yourself throw up?: why should i? it's horrible.
5. skinny dipped?: should i?
6. ever been in love?: don't think so.
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: no.it'll ruin my reputation..
8. eaten a lemon in its entirety?: don't take lemon.
9. run away from home?: thought of.
10. cried when someone died?: once.but i think it was forced cause everyone else was and i wasn't.
11. lied? : like i haven't
12. fallen for your best friend?: im not a bisexual.
13. been rejected?: yes.
14. rejected someone?: yes.
15. used someone?: i guess so.don't have much guilt on me.
16. done something you regret?: tons.but i usually shrugg them off.

c u r r e n t
clothes: green sleeveless and black reebok cycling shorts.
music: some song which title i do not know of.
make up :no
Lip balm? : no
annoyance: hot weather.no aircon.
smell: me.hair of pantene though.
favorite group: none.
desktop picture: black, words/self-notes.
book youre reading: tuesdays with morrie
toenails: normal.

l a s t p e r s o n
you touched: my brother?or father.
hugged: can't remember.too long.
you instant messaged: sharon
you yelled at: hockers.
you kissed: no one.

a r e y o u
open-minded: very.
arrogant: can't tell myself.
insecure: sometimes
random: sometimes.
hungry: every 3 or 4 hours
moody: sometimes.
organized: yes.but not my room.
difficult: sometimes.
attractive: ask someone else.

R A N D O M
In the morning i am: aching
love is: someone you feel or connect with.
I dream about: my past present and future.

o p p o s i t e s e x
what do you notice first: face, then body.
makes you laugh the most: depends on the person's personality
makes you smile: sweet little gestures.

d o y o u e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: not that free.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: every month.
wish you were younger?: yes.definately.
cried because someone said something to you?: almost.but that hasn't happened for at least 4 years.

N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: i don't have a heart to break.
of hearts i have broken: i wouldn't know.
guys ive kissed: dreamed of.
girls ive kissed: saw others.but not myself.
of continents i have lived in: purely singaporean.
of cds i own: less than 5 myself.rest are shared.

F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s1.
do you like filling these out?: when i am just stoning yes.
2. gold or silver?: silver
3. what was the last movie you watched?: harry potter and the goblet of fire.disappointing.
4. favorite cartoon/anime?: bleach.gundam seed destiny.tsubasa chronicle.mai hime.blood +.
5. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: hard toasted bread with peanut butter. .
6. who would you love being locked in a room with?: myself. or a hunk would do.
7. could you live without your computer?: don't know.but possible.
8. would you color your hair?: already did.
9. could you ever get off the computer?: yes.when i get too bored.
10. habla espanol?: no idea
11. how many people are on your buddy list?: msn:162
12. Drink Alcohol?: mixed with cocktail yes.
13. Your name spelled backwards?: alemap
14. Where were your parents born?: singapore
15. Have you ever moved?: once, but its only less than hundred metres away.
16. What's your Favorite place to go?: a beach or the roof at night.but it hasn't happened.
17. Is your bed is a single, double, Queen or King?: single.i feel cramped.
18. What's your favorite sport to play?: hockey.
19. How many kids do you want?: 2-3
20. Type of music you dislike most?: rap/techno
21. Colour of your school bag?: black and white.
22. Do you have cable?: yes.
23. Favorite 80's song?: don't remember which times they're from, but michael buble and 'if we hold on together counted'?
24. Ever prank call anybody?: yep.
25. Ever get a parking ticket?: not in 7 years time.
26. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: both.
27. Furthest place you have ever been?: los angeles/san fransico
28. Ever bowl a 300?: not even past 120.
29. What's your favorite comic strip?: chew on it/baby blues
30. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: its in my mind's consciousness.
31. Bath or Shower?: bath.
32. Best movie you've seen in the past month?: out of harry potter and skyhigh, i can't choose.
33. Favorite pizza topping?: hawaiian-bacon,CHEESE,sausages.
34. Beer or ale?: never tried either
35. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? : is that even possible
36. Do you eat skin on chicken?: long time ago when i was considered skinny.
37. Apple juice or Orange?: both.
38. Favorite type of chocolate bar?: kinder bueno
39. Your favorite fruit?: apple/pear/mango/orange/banana
40. Your favorite vegetable?: xiao bai cai
41. Have you ever won a trophy?: yes.
42. Are you a good cook?: not bad.
43. Do you know how to pump your own gas?: underaged.
44. Bought something from an infomercial?: uh.i don't think so.
45. Is Oprah annoying or great?: neutral.but the show's good.
46. Ever flex in front of a mirror?: non-existant biceps yes.
47. Ever throw up in public?: no.
48. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?: both.
49. Do you believe in love at first sight?: not love.but lust?.
50. Ever call a 1-900 number?: yes.
51. Ever been stood up for a date?: no.
52. Biggest turn off of the opposite sex?: annoying brat.pretentious.and the list goes on.
53. Ever Been Cheated on?: not that i know of.
54. What are the names of all your pets dead and/or alive?: eve, bunny, hammie.
55. Can ex's be friends?: yes.

bah.its surprising to myself that even after an event, i don't blog straight away.like bangkok trip and the 2c1`05 chalet.i came back from bangkok yesterday and went online immediately.but apparently didn't blog about it.there's not much besides shopping, eating and utt was doing a photo shoot with 3 other pretty woman haha.then at the airport in bangkok before i came back, there was this scene of a movie being shoot, most probably a sappy love story.the guy was running into the airport with this BIG bouquet of flowers, chasing this girl, who was about to check in, so yea...the lovey kind where man-chases-woman-leaving-for-airplane-with-a-big-bouquet-of-flowers-to-say-he-loves-her.hahahaha.that's about it actually.

the class chalet:
we didn't do much actually, just the bbq, bowling , and playing mahjong.just wanna thank the people who organized it this year, and the people who made an effort to come.me, denise and xiang yin recieved a plate each autographed by the class, except 2 people (: oh wells.THAKS A BUNCH FOR THE PAST TWO MEMORABLE YEARS (: someone send me the photos!!!!
ah.
that's all for now.back to gundam seed destiny marathon thanks to crystal (:

woots.
im in bangkok now.and im blogging.wahahha.im even online.
oh well...two days of shopping so far has been proven successful.
got manymany presents and a nice fake adidas shirt (: toobad they didn't have black, but has orange stripes and words (:wahahha
but i can't find anything for the hockey team !! how how how
AHHH
i got 3 minutes left only.oh wells.gotta go for dinner soon anyway.i only paid for half an hour.so yea.
see ya guys monday.want anything msg me.i won't reply though

BANGKOK HERE I COME

well...the ip's going quite well so far, considering we don't have any official classes yet.
and so a class blog is up.and so is a class list and contacts.
but i'll still miss 2c1`05.and there's still the chalet tmr! can't wait although there's training, and i can only stay a night, then im leaving for bangkok on wednesday.so don't count on me blogging for the whole of next week.

yep...so im on hiatus for the next whole week.not till next monday! ciao.

ahhh..i haven't been blogging lately according to si jing. and so i shall explain WHY i couldn't.
monday - i had life science course in school.a freaking waste of time.went to christine's place after that to celebrate halloween, yea, and the park helped alot as the lights weren't on.so it was like pitch dark. amelia ran screaming out once.when a dog barked.but chrisitne led us to the sand pit area where we lit the many tea light candles i brought along.and then we tried to start a bon fire, with no success , but chris's siblings brought newspapers out later to burn.that's later.but there's not much else to talk about that night is there?oh...we burnt marshmallows.more like set it on fire to see what it would look like.but i had mastered the art of burning marshmallow over a candle!!! ahahahaha.fine.on to the next day.
stoned at home basically...slept the afternoon away while relatives played mahjong.and read potter and the goblet of fire.
TODAY.one thing basically..but much to talk about.the njc ip induction.
06ip01 - lignum
at least the house is orange.but what's up with the beaver? oh well.gha's my senior class.i actually sound enthu here don't i? but its the opposite.the more i feel like i belong, the more i miss crescent.seriously.what's up with my brain.ok..down to details.morning talk - boring.cept for the very interesting skit louisa and her group put up.hilarious.break.then mass dance.it was quite fun, but really squeezy and all.so yea.then lunch, bought uniform and stuff, before we go to the classroom to choose our classroom wall colours, which took a really long time.then the games.oh how i partly dread them now.but kinda fun.most of them included water.and i was wearing a white shirt for goodness sake.you could imagine.and it was that time of the month.oh well.oh right...my class.3 china people, 1 vietnamese, xiang yin , sharon, chenchel...then strangers that added up to 24.we weren't exactly really communicative, but by the end we all got to know each other i guess.i've somehow ran outta things to say.but i will do sooon.just tired.dinner was just scrumptous.and the concert waas great.so at the end of the day.........
TA. i shall leave you hanging.

"Rules of the game: Post 5 Weird and Random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this.
Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their blogs and tell them to read yours."

Five Wierd, Random Facts About Me
1. i play with fire [ literally]
2. i have a very imaginative brain, just not creative.
3. i don't buy cds.
4. i have fat thighs and a huge ass.[somewhere in the future]
5. i kick things when i sleep[according to my mom in the past]

Next In Line To Do This Quiz
1. bernette
2. sijing
3. polly
4. sharon
5. val/tessa

i want to cut my hair. it's all long and hott.but im afraid.of the cost.and the end product.what happens if my hair is ruined?
but i can't worry about that more than what happens today.

its the last day of school.last day of crescent girls' school 2c1 `05.and my last day in crescent.
it was so short.i barely wrote messages to half the class that comes together with my farewell gift.im so gonna miss them.i didn't even have time to make something for those not in my class.my hockey mates can receive them later.but not those random people who aren't in my class to name a few: rachael lau, bernette, sue wei, nicole etc. sighs.the importance of today dawned on me, as when we were leaving class, everyone started hugging and some went emotional.i want to be part of that, but i can never join in the stream of tears.even if im the one leaving everybody behind.i guess i do it unconsciously in my sleep.who knows.
sacrifices.oh how i hate that word.
so much to do , so little time.
but i wonder what lies ahead for me.in njc.i partly dread it yet slightly welcome it.no ones know what the future holds for me.all i can do is hope for the best.i don't even know what to expect or even strive to do in the future.

no one misses me.and it's not just materialistic.

im bored to death by coming home early today so just decided to blog since i haven''t been too committed.i've got haribo and kinder bueno beside me now so i'll be more focused (:
today was somewhat boring and unproductive.but then me and xiang yin started looking for ideas for work during the holidays.and so we made a really long list.some are just crap though, but then denise joined in, xiang yin had to tell me about the les sex scene in the current book i was reading and had no idea about, and they all started on the topic of boys/girls and the human anatomy.played stress and stoned in class...and that was about all for the day.oh wait.neo and yap came into class.but at least they took up only a short while.

a probable reason i haven't been blogging is the fact that my results sucked.and how my mum puts me down everytime i show her my results.nothing encouraging at all even if i did do well.
but at least she's letting me go for the genting trip..even when she heard that most probably no teacher's going.

there was a floorball match in our pathetic school hall yesterday, and i was kinda amusing.saw geraldine and peiwen, south cluster schools match.apparently the teacher's didn't let us play because we're in a sports group, and the floorball is only for those library, computer club...non-sports group.but we were kinda the only school that played by the rules...coz there were OBVIOUS hints that some students from other schools in sports CCAs.oh well.stayed back till around 6 for nothing.
and there's the freak weather the past two days rain and shine simultaneously.

suddenly i lost the mood to blog.and i crave to skate on ice.someone.bring me.

i have a feeling that i like stress.although its like a bad thing, people use the word stress abit too exageratingly.i mean like somehow i don't think i get stress, mostly piss-offed or just pressured.
when im like busy doing stuff and have deadlines, somehow i will actually put them off, or if i a lot of things to do, then i do it, in the end i'll feel so bored and empty.just coz i have nothing to do.all my responsibilities and stuff, they're actually the ones that make me responsible and actually efficient. i guess the saying that pressure brings out the best in people.

i dont' really have much else to say except about my results. i deproved terribly. like from 11th position in the mid years to 17th in my class.last year i was actually 4th for finals.i guess whoever said that my class is REALLY competitive is right.i mean they seriously studied hard just to get the good grades and i guess it's just my habit to not study for exams.this is the first time i actually felt lower than the rest of my class.sigh.my CA pulled my scores up if not i'll have no As at all.and actually have a D7 for chinese.it's all because of the compo.don't ask.

i intend to busy myself this whole holiday till i pass out due to exhaustion.well..that's what i always imagined when i felt weak.oh well.time to bang the piano.

i think i've had a tad too many moodswings the past few days.the happiness.the sadness.the frustration.the lonliness.the hyperactivity-ness.and the pissed-off-ness.
somehow my thumb hurts at the point where it joins to the rest of the palm.shitty crap.

yesterday and today were all unproductive.basically.school.eat.sleep.hockey.eat.sleep.read.tablet.
and a miricle that i survived not eating anything for recess today.
time flies.i hate it. and i think its the cause of my books.i read and zoom .hours gone by. and the 2 books im reading have basically the same plot.a married woman, who wants a divorce or already did.finds a hot guy .with ex-husband chasing her and she runs away.as she found some dirty truth about him.new hunky boyfriends help out and they live happily after in a nice town.
well..that's all i can dream of. no such thing in reality.that's why they're in books.

mr ho has no life. when he asks me to do something.he tells me at least twice or three times in school, then calls me at home to call the rest of the class.like im THAT free.and i don't even have the prper list of class numbers.wait.actually i do.but still.does he have to call? im so glad im not seeing him next year.

i so agree with val on her last entry.not that any of you will ever be able to see it except the royal highnesses in england.hah. but it really is.and i think we're like straying apart.everybody.and i can never be as emo as stacey's class.not in crescent.the class is just plain sad.and so is the hockey team.its as though hockey is just a cca to them.just go for training then go home and that's it.its so much deeper and yet they just can't seem to actually feel and be part of the team. shut up with that idiotic annoying selfishness of yours.and don't act so part of it if you don't want in.

i think im falling sick.not because we're getting our papers back tmr, but more of exhaustion, or just sleeping under the ceiling fan on the sofa today with only my blouse and fbts on.got a bloody blocked nose.and a sneezing fit.my bloody left side of the rib cage hurts.felt as though a bicycle hit me or i fell from the 2nd story on my left.the rest of my body just aches.and the spain cum everlasting injury in my left knee never stops.there was training yesterday.and so does tmr.

sad news is.my hopes died when nordin told me i couldn't play in b div' for under 21 next year coz im going to nj.i raised up my own hopes for nothing.so im still like stuck between tennis and hockey for next year.
and i think my mom's right.if i do too much or everything, i'll just be left with nothing in the end.how true can that be.it's always been the same with my ccas.take gym.i spent 6 freaking hard years in it and i din't even get anything back.p4 .i was at my best.but p5 i redid my compulsory and so i was pilled down.and from there on i plunged.and its almost the same here.hockey.sec 1.i learned fast.then now.everythings going down the drain.not only are my skills, but im cutting my own dream short by going to njc.its just not fated.i'll end up a lonely grey haired granny who's miserable with nothing.
and to think not so long ago, after a match with the australian hockey team, there was one player who asked for my age.i told her and she was like surprised and told me that i'll be a great hockey player in the future. what bull.

and yun hui told me never to look back on the past.i don't think i even can.im just afraid.of change.that's why im alone.i understand only myself.the big cowardly self.and i realized all my moodswings started when i knew i was going to njc.its changed me.one simple fact.changed me.

back to the real not - so - much sadness world.the class has a tradition.thanks to eunice.everyyear, after the exams be it mis years or finals, we would play stress in class.hope it lives on.which would never happen.

i just hope that more people would actually go for the genting trip.it would be my last outing with the crescent hockers when im still part of crescent.sad times.i better enoy while i can.

my posts are too long.they are never short anymore.
time record: 11.52 pm.go check the time i started the post.

i shall blog tmr
stupid ulcer

omg.i can't believe im actually listening to a techno song now.from some super old cd my mom bought eons ago.something's wrong with me.
somehow now that the exams are over.i have more time, but i don't blog ever-so-often now. and during the exams when i was supposedly 'studying', i have less time, but i blog almost everyday.the irony of it all.< now that's what lit. does to me.

went to the njc open house today.jing and polly kept me company while gha came now and then and showed us the nj life.[thanks]it made me think.a lot.my sacrifices, how i felt.my friends.my acheivements.my life. basically my future.
if i leave crescent, i'll be sacrificing
-role as hockey captain
-role of house captain from next year onwards [ which i just confirmed with polly today]
-my long record of CCA points [19 plus my cip hours]
-crescent itself
-the baggy uniform
-my friends there.[which aren't many.i won't miss my classmates.but the rest yes.]
-crescent hockey trainings and crapping times.
-the sec 4 prom
-the ups and downsin life of a crescentian.
-the normal secondary schoo life
-the stress of the oncoming future o levels.

and then i realize why i don't want to go to njc. its more of a personal habit. i detest work.especially when i have to work hard and its troublesome.and i am afraid of the work load and stress that may come with it.and then the principal today had to mention the mission and motto.and remind us how time wasting it is. ' serve with honour' and that is to the nation.but im not exactly 100% willing to. i don't want to be some politician.neither do i want to be a scholar.the word itself freaks me as the word comes with acheivements, expectations and good results...no excellent results. but i don't want all of that. im just a coward that only enjoys the good side of life and never will want to work for it.and then comes in friends. currently most of my closest friends don't even know the me deep inside.i don't think any of them do.i am a sociopath.one that keeps to myself.with a barrier of lies around me.just to make sure i am safe.my close friends are never near me.they mostly come from my primary school.i love them.the rest are just characters that form my life.and then new characters are introduced into the world of me. a bigger barrier is built. and i am alone.

back to the present.
i can't believe i left my gloves at the delta gym and not realize it till now.[i went on wednesday with natasha] i think i left it on the treadmill then i ran, and forgot about it.hope it's still at the gym and a kind soul will return it to me tmr.but th stupid gym wouldn't even pick up the phone when i called.this is reality. i never went for the tennis i was suppose to go for after i booked the court.i was alone.

went ice-skating the next day with fellow ball-whackers. i learnt to stop on ice.leaving with a few bruises and a friend that learnt somethin new.i wonder about figure skating.don't they feel the cold or are they really ice princesses?graceful and they just glide.something that i won't be doing for a long time.
wandered aimlessly after that.was too reluctant to go home.but i did eventually.and watched howl's moving castle. it was fabulous.it touched me.somehow i almost felt how sophie felt when she just cried her heart out into the rain.but as usual.i don't have tears to flow freely anytime i want them to.almost never.since ever.i think howl was hot. i guess i think of anime characters as hot and never reality guys.anime are drawn and animated to perfection.one that cannot just happen in reality.so i just fantasize.they'll never come true.and they can never hurt me.

school had to call for school.so up i came .and then films were printed and i had extra work to do, as well as impatient brats to deal with.but then maths had to occupy my concentration and make me think.the clock hands defined gravity and ticked vertical .i walked.with 4 other fellow walkers.to the incomplete vault of books that is insufficient. my eyes were strained.and wedges stuffed into my mouth as a reward.so was the hot chocolate.then a trip home on time proved worthy.for i watched quidam.

it was not awesome.just a little below expectations. if my 10 year old memory serves me right, saltimbanco just amazed me.probably due to little experiance to the world. but i can say that the atmosphere and the quality of audio and visuals were among the top. on the 'ceiling' , it portrayed the sky with clouds and a full moon at night. i definately wasn't magic, so there were suspension cable stand just above the stage that looked reliable and steady enough. the stage was rotatable so it produced a turn-table effect which was really creative.suddenly i feel deja vu. but i shall continue.it was pitch dark without any lights on.and the special effects were so good that they could even make the effect of lightning striking with thunder so realistic.the sound effects were good.and so was the sound system.it sounds as though it was played live there.or that the person was singing.but apparently not.
somehow the songs and the whole act made me think [ yes again- ] about gym.my past.how i missed the flexible days.like im missing out on something.the songs were good.the perfomances done were good. the human wheel guy gave this effect on me - somehow as though i haven't seen man or due to over-active imgaination, i missed the other gender.then came the china spinning top girls.fast, presise and accurate.as always.many had to be suspended from ropes, cloth and rings in the air too.not too interesting coz it seemed to common in circus so they got boring.there was muscleman and muslce woman.there was stand-up comedy with the audieince interaction as well.it was hilarious.but the plot/storyline of it was exactly the same , but unexpected things happen all the time.
- i dozed off.-
continueing.the only great things- the skipping ropes and how the actors were swung about a rope suspending only on one hand.the effect was great.i better finish this fast.that's about it actually.the merchandise was sellig really expensively.and i mask can cost up to 100 + although it was good.
my mom stopped by the market after that and i dozed off sitting upright in the chair! somehow i have a tendency to sleep in weird positions.

and came today.njc and did some shopping..saw a showflat for 'rivergate' as well.its was relly nice......i wigh i could stay in there.just a lil' problem.its not built yet, and i t is freaking expensive.

that's all for today's entry.i don't think even i myself can continue.ive'gotta rest too.
have a nice day.
ta.

bah.
it's over.
it's the end
of the exams (:

went to watch corpse bride with nikki.at plaza sing. there were surprisingly few yellows there.how cool.but i think corpse bride was so sad. for emily that is. she's so sweet.and i love the songs they play on the piano.it was sooo early when we got out. like it was only 1pm.so we ate a really full lunch at pasta mania.and to think we wanted to eat waffles after that.so we just walked ...and walked ...and walked around plaza sing.we went to places you most probably find secondary school students in.example :
kettler > sells training equiptment like treadmills, cycling machine , weights, dumbells and stuff. i want the boxing ball!!! it has gloves together with it.and it only cost 81 bucks.that's cheap lor.i want a treadmill!!
aussino > some towel and bedsheets and stuff.nikki wanted to buy a towel so we went in to look.nothing much so we left.
john little > there's no like toys section there or anything..mostly adults clothing so it was a bit inappropriate..but we went in anyway.it was so SMALL.
ohwells.
where else?
the rest were normal.music junction, world of sports, golden village, molecule [ omg..that place was so cool. i loved the bean bag chairs.then there's this set of spoons/picks, they were soo cute..but it cost a bomb.so did the hourglass - like - clock which we thought was a a. kitchen timer b. piano meter thingy.]
that's about all...walked around alot.then i found a present for my mom.more like i liked the cd cover then i saw the songs inside before buying it.HAH. bah

tmr and thursday there's no school.envy ME.
but i plant ogo to the gym, ice -skating, maybe visit polly's house to see her hamsters .that's so extra.bah.
oh wells.gotta find a job and get ready for trainings.
my batt's loww....gotta go.
haha.and sending voice clips over msn is so fun!
ta.

bah
today's history sucked
i didn't know how to prove ' how reliable is source D in president suharto adopting the confrontation......' something like that.how the hell should i know.
and then the d&t. they just have to give those that i didn't study.which is almost EVERYTHING.
and then school was over.
played hockey with sheng under the hot hot sun.my ball kept not going into the post.sigh. oh and good thing they FINALLY trimmed the trees behind the basketball court. its all clean and sunny now (: and i won't be afraid to pick the ball up anymore.haha.

oh and sheng!!! : the school's pe room has our hockey cones!! i saw them mixed with the rest of the school cones the last time! that's where all our comes disappeared.but im still wondering what happened to the yellow flat ones.did we keep it inside the old old cupboard while packing the last time?

njc open house on 15 oct. i've got to go there at 8.30 am for the stupid talk.and then treat yu sheng to cotton candy, and pass the shirt to yun hui. go find sharon, hmmm...something like that planned for that day.oh wells.

tomorrow's the LAST paper!! maths! hope it isn't too hard. if not i'll freak and fail.HAH. < alliteration
lit. still lingers in my brain.
im gonna watch corpse bride!!!WAHAHA.envy me people!!! oh wells. there's nothing to envy me about.

TA.

it's my mom's birthday to day.it doesn't feel like though.and i don't even know who's buying the cake.and last night's dinner.my mom paid for it. her OWN birthday dinner.well..my dad quit his jop coz of my aunt.and he's gonna try being an artist. i wonder how that'll turn out.

oh and there's a njc open house on 15 october. im suppose to go for the talk and school tour.oh wells.im gonna be sooo bored.somebody come with me!!!!

JING : you know the genting trip thing. i most prbably can go..asked my mom already.coz they're probably going TOO.around the same date. coz my brother has a taekwondo competition and he's gonna kick ass. hahaha.if we all happen to be there at the right time we ALL can go see my brother kick some ass.and face too.hahahhahaha..

although i somehow hot tired of piano lessons and quit after my third grade...i find the prospect of playing the anime songs interesting.at least my fingers are getting excersise other than typing on the keyboard all day long.they are nice songs that i get the scores off the internet.but i take really long to read the notes after many years of negligence.

topic of the day : we are approaching the end of the world.

my views:
hurricanes, earthquakes, tsunami(the product of earthquakes) ...they are all happening so frequently now.compared to the past.and it's all because of the human race.global warming and the greenhouse effect is destroying the world.and probably the one causing all these disasters.they'll just keep increasing and the damage will become worse.so that'll be the end when we can't do anything about it.

there it is.

science sucked so ....oh wells..i can't add anymore alliterations to it.
sigh.i gained more weight.all because of the exams.
isn't it obvious.
and i was suppose to be doing a survey, where i was stuck with this girl for at least 30 mins. she was trying to persuade me to be a christian. not that i hate it..i'd rather be a free thinker...you know..free.
ah.im bored.like BORED.
and NOTHING.

wah.the studious side of me has kicked in.i was actually studying lit. in school today.and took down notes.and the lit. paper is tmr.so is science.but i haven't even started on science.and i've got maths tuition tonight.AND i don't even have a science textbooks.its on my tablet.

i skipped dinner last night without realizing.it was such an everyday affair that i could actually miss it without going hungry.well.i was sleeping.but i fell asleep so early? like 7 or 8 plus? i didn't even have hockey.and i woke up at 1.45 am..and went back to sleep.i mean that's totally over-sleeping.but i didn't know i skipped dinner till my maid reminded me by giving me dinner chicken for lunch.well..i only ate one.the fried rice was over-whelming.

topic of the day : would you go for a guy who has a lovely 6-pack but a horrible face?

all these are totally random.but i guess most of them are about guys.don't ask me why.maybe i was inspired by diana's criteria /list for her boyfriend.
well..bettter start studying!!!!

ewww...get out britnney.you suck.bitch.
christina should have been the one getting the picture.not you bitch
i hate her more and more each week.egoistic bitch.

ewww...get out britnney.you suck.bitch.
christina should have been the one getting the picture.not you bitch
i hate her more and more each week.egoistic bitch.

hah.my brother's just in the next room and i can just shout over to him but apparently no....we're talking to each other through msn.well..it's not so bad compared to those who are that lazy that yhey use their handphones to call people in the next room.

i think im gonna start on something like ' topic of the day ' thing on my blog..thought of one while walking home today.it seemed really debatable.go comment on it.

topic of the day : do good bubble gum blowers make good kissers? ( or maybe more like french kissers )

*pouts*
everybody's STILL studying. it gets so annoying.seriously.i mean what's the point? you study, you forget, you go cry your sorry heart out that you're gonna fail the paper and should have studied harder.
and then it just ........................ok.forget it. all my posts have been about the exams.and people.studying.well.that's my point of view.i guess in their point of view...it's like

' i study hard.then i get good grades.then my mama will be proud of me. i get into good university like harvard and oxford, and i get scholarship too.then i grow up and become successful so that my mama will be prouder of me (: then i die rich and happy.'

oh forget it.
hm.another thing.observed from observing people in the canteen/my very boring life and free time.im a sociopath.oh yes..back to observation. your friends you hang out with make or break you.is that why i don't exactly have a particular group of friends in crescent? i just observe and talk to everyone.well almost.due to some hate group.yep.but i actually like being alone at my trusty corner of the class.next to my trusty class door.oh yes.and so i do not become or more like belong to any particular stereo typed clique.i shalll be myself .and so should you.not the sociopath part though.but you can if you want.

is anybody a masosadochistic person?that would be freaky.

hmm...that's al for you to think about today.OH WAIT>

one more.
why do parents bann you from attending training aka. your third life. aka. hockey. that is unfair and i would classify it under child abuse.by suppressing something your child loves to do and even scolding them/not allowing them to attend is unacceptable. they don't know the consequences involved. like children not having any other areas in which they can vent their frustrations and stresses.that's how they can actually lead a healthy and normal stress-free life ( which is almost impossible in singapore) .speaking of healthy and normal. hockey equals to exercise and pumping blood from the heart to the rest of the body.it keeps us fit and healthy and from becoming fat and overweight, but becoming slim and preeety like models ( possible.(: )
and then then they give unreasonable demands to allow us to continue.(not all ).but still.children may rebel more because you don't accept and support their choice f life.thus suicides and run-aways.

ok.now im done (:

i ain't got much to blog about anymore.unless i suddenly went into this reflective mode...which always happens when my tablet isn't around, neither is my trusty pen and paper.but words will eventually pop into my head i guess.it'll just take a while.

sijing : twice a week blogging isn't enough for you? it's the exams now!!!haha..but i guess you know me well enough..there' s no exam period in my dictionary.but i actually feel obligued to blog - that is why i even blog.
and you're never online..sad.i can't crap about life anymore.oh wells.

list of reasons why i hate exams/ and why we shoud not have them :

1> people all get stuck up ' you know the exams are coming right?? we must study! ' . and they stop having fun.like exams will end they're life if they get bad results.i guess its just me...but they don't have to over so it like someone(s).

2> they stop going online/blogging/going out. and im left all alone to have fun.but one can't have fun alone.

3> CCA stops.that's the only thing from keeping me from growing fat/horizontally challenged.my stamina fades away..and then i have to work double hard to get it back after the exams.so whats the point of stopping it anyway?

4> it leaves people stressed /depressed. either they get into that condition because a) they study too hard for the exams to get good grades that they go crazy b ) they studied so hard, but forgot everything they revised during the paper and freak out, so after the paper they are worried about failing the paper hance the stress. c) they receive back their papers, and bad results = less freedom, punishment and angry parents (some might even encounter child abuse.)and to prevent that from happening...they become suicidal and that's how you increase the death rates of singapore.

5> i don't have the motivation to study - thus me doing badly is a high possibility.

6> it does not help anyone.but make students all competitive quote ' i got higher than you!haha..you're so dumb' .

7>and the government is cutting down more trees just to make paper for our exam questions.don't you know how much paper we are wasting ? take the number of students in singapore taking exams each year x the number of exams there are each year x the number of pages there are in 1 paper x the number of subjects there are.the numbers are huge.oh and plus the amount of notes teachers print out to give their students so that they will do well.and didn't the government say to SAVE TREES/PAPER.they're the ones setting the bad examples.

8 > stressing teachers and wasting they're time.teachers burn the midnight oil and waste their beauty sleep just trying to finish marking the exam papers by the deadline.teachers are humans to .humans have lives.some have kids.and husbands.and not everybody is so patient.isn't it one reason why singaporeans have such a low sex rate?and count the number of teachers there are in singapore.they make a difference too. teachers have sex too.except some i guess.but still.

9> parents become competitive/ typical singaporean kiasu.they force their child to study hard , buy them more assesment books so that they'll be the best in class during the exams.then when they're child does well...they'll start bragging to all their auntie friends who have children too...just to up their high-class-i-have-a-smart-child image.or the my-child-is-smarter-than-yours-look and become all bitchy.<>

that's all i have on my list for now.i'll update it when i think of something else.which i probably won't bother to.
well.have fun studying you wasting-your-life-studying-i-must-do-well-for-the-exam friends .don't bother to add me in your club.i shall study at my own pace.

ah.just watched a movie.how sad/happy ending it was. i mean like its those olden english movies where they speak between shakespear-ean english and the today proper english. i don't think anyone understands that.but nevermind.
apparently i've been watching movies all week. let me list them out.
-miss congieniality 2 (monday)
-shall we dance (tuesday)
-a series of unfortunate events(thurday)
-les choirestle(thurday - CA lesson)
-some movie i didn't see the title on star movies.(the one im referring to ^)

i've still got a few more titles to watch soon (:
and did i mention today was my final year english paper? i don't think i did? did i?
oh well .no biggie right?
it's just a final year paper (:
and i sucked at it. ain't that great? and there's still the chinese paper coming monday.hm..there's stilll some other papers i can't remember next week too.well...we can always study later.
*note the cheerful voice with the matching smile *

oh and we're gonna have a class chalet in november.i wonder how that'll go.
goodbye (:

i feel so abnormally left out.and time travels much too fast.elaborate on that later.
but for now.to most other normal secondary 2 students, they would be studying their shit out of themselves for this year's streaming exam just to get into the top classes.example : triple science class.which does what to their future? nothing much would help in their working life, but merely wasting time of their childhood not having fun, but under peer pressure, teacher-parental stress..and many more of teenager's adolences problems which parents forget all about in their own childhood .why? they were too busy studying.and they have no idea what the government is doing to the school's education.kids younger and younger are learning HIGHLY ADVANCED stuff. example again : what my mom learnt in sec 4, is what i learnt in p6/sec 1.somewhat

and the time thing?yea.the tsunami disaster didn't seem too long ago did it.but somehow i watched the news today and they reminded me.it was 9 months ago.i mean...i can't even remember 9 months passing just like that.its sad i tell you.terrible.childhood is being ripped away from me whether i like it or not.time is running out.which i detest to the core. life-changing decisions to my own life aren't allowed to be made by an immature -minded girl.im only 14 years old which probably only have an experiance of a 10 year old life considering as much as my memory can remember.

here i am today.exams a few days away.im wacthing movies almost everyday.or make that the past two days.with no revision or studying done.why? you ask that to my brain and you'll get a nada answer.oh wells. i'll crap again soon.i think.hoping time would stop.

don't feel like blogging much now.so yea.
still can't decide about njc.but i can't want the cake and eat the icing as well.so sad.but seriously.i still can't make a damn decision.and played a match with the crescent hockey club seniors...against some australian team on tuesday night.they were big and good.friendly too.it was fun.

somehow i kinda developed some new habits of mine.sleeping in class .especially history and engliish.both teachers are standing right in front of me, talking to the class...and there i am sleeping and somehow either i became invisible or they just don't care.and then the apple fetish.eating whole apples almost everyday now, when just a few months back i didn't like apples.i guess it's the type that i eat. it's like this 'healthy ' hormone suddenly was released.lesser on the junk food and more on the fruits and vegs.not that im complaining.i think my ass and my thighs are getting fatter.bah.it's always the genes.

AND im losing much more stuff now.my clip, my set-square, stapler, protractor, things like that. many more too. and i even left my brother's library book in the com lab today.BAH.what is wrong with me?

oh and i came up with my own sleeping hours theory.coz when i sleep at 2am the last time, i woke up much easier than me sleeping at 12.assuming that i wake up at 6 every morning.well...it's like a 4 hour-blocks of sleep.if i don't sleep for 4 hours straight, i'll feel more sleepy and tired. so it's either i sleep at 10pm or 2 am everynight. but i can never sleep at 10 .it's too early.the good shows start at that time too!!
piano pieces seem to interest me now.as in not the lessons, but just to play to destress or something like that.


i think maya is cool.i'll use her to make my layout.eventually.and i josh groban is HOT. wahaha (: and apparently i have a triple eyelid on my right eye and double on my left.the freaking end-of years are here already.why must time travel so fast?almost like the speed of light. and i myself haven't even started on my revision.

ah.....nike.com shall be my new favourite website.freaking products are just too nice to resist.and they even have fitness/dance demonstrations online..like you don't even need to step out of your house anymore.who knew that nike produces thongs too.and they've got the customizable shoe thing online too..although its really slow..but that i've seen with adidas before and they even customize the features you want inside too..like according to what sport you play.suntec city.oh how i wish i had a free shopping spree in a nike or adidas online store now.[ if it isn't online..not all products will be in the store (:]
sad that both my parents aren't home.not that i miss them in that way...but more like to pay for things at home.haven't had my pocket money for 2 weeks now.and i wish i had a job without the stupid exams coming up.there aren't gonna be anymore hockey for the next month.how upsetting is that?and all day today has just been eating, sleeping, surfing the nike site and well...basically slacking the whole day.haiz...either i'll go jogging later [which is highly improbable] or just sit-ups.i want the nike yoga mat! nike has nicer stuff for kids too.sniffs.
i need my shopping spree [ without wasting my own money-which i have very little of]

someone wanna sponser me?

wth..i mean im like watchinig disney channel in chinese now. and the tv's on, so is my tablet, and my hair is wet, i see lightning right outside my window, thunder can be heard almost straight after the lightning which means that im really close to the lightning, means im in very big danger of getting lightning striked. right?means i have a chance of dying any second.how exciting.
today we had hockey.freaking sec ones didn't bring the cones, which means 20 puch ups for me.im terribly lucky nordin was in a relatively good mood today.got the tee shirts, not as big as i thought...after i went home to try it on.oh....and just now when i was asking for water, yu sheng passed me her bottle, coz its the nike squirt one...i tried to squirt, but no.....then cap had to be loose and that's how i got drenched.even though my shirt was already wet, it was even wetter.

ahhh..i need people to buy my shirts!

now that my mom's in KL, my grandma has to come over and 'take care ' of us like we're still lil' kiddies.seriously....no offence to her, but it's kinda irritating and annoying. that's why here i am, locked up in my room blogging.

and this afternoon crystal oh-so-faithfully sent me the history homework we had to do for the holidays...which is only today and tmr left.and english too.how the hell do teacher's come up with such elaborate plans to try to work us to death by making us do THIS much homwork.not that im complaining........im complaining FREAKING HELL WHAT-IS-WRONG-WITH-THEM?? i bet they're probably all having menopausal moodswings or something.but i bet you yu qi or jocelyn would have finished them by now[no offence to jocelyn]...and here i am still blogging and blaming those fat-arsed teachers.HAH.

yesterday i was left almost falling asleep while running during hockey warm up.why? 2 hours of sleep is definatly not enough for me.but i was so awake the night before...that is until i ate my very early morning supper of instant noodles....fell asleep after that.with hockey training at 7.30 the next morning.i somewhat had to stop halfway through training coz my arm couldn't take it. freaking sprain.i wanted to train!! set play and had a friendly against MI. then after had physical...so i was excused to pick all the balls with polly while the rest got tortured.sigh. went to long john's to eat with the sengkang hockers and a few of crescent's , then went back to the apartment .val and sue came over[sue was in a skirt and a halter!!!] yea...and lunch wasn't so bad..cept that there was a terrible waste of udon noodles.i was terribly tired after that...and then they all wanted to go shopping and so i was abandoned to sleep on the sofa till they came back.not blaming them..coz i told them to go (: TRIED doing my math while they we're gone , and you should know what happens when i do homework.my nose was in a terrible shape as well..thanks to the air -con. and probably the dust from the neighbouring construction-in-progress 'twin towers' condo.wahhh..my friends are just the best .at what they do and don't .hah.that doesn't make sense at all.or maybe.


school's starting freaking soon.and i would hate it even more that the exams are coming freaking hell on full speed.everyone's studying ....except ME.like what the arse is wrong with me? short concentration span is one...and a lack of enthusiasium for school..that's what it is.
and i 've got a headache coming on full-force.irritating hell.

sometimes i wonder why i even bother.

anybody wanna buy shirts to support crescent hockey club? one shirt goes at 15 bucks.it fundraising. design is on the front of a white shirt.tell me if you're interested! [design's on the top]

haha..i've been wanting to post for quite a while but never really got down to it.

feel so useless yesterday.from my sprained arm on wednesday - went back to hpps and somewhat tried to relive my gym days and did roundoff backflips till i sprained my arm.HAH. and it HAD to be my left arm that is essential for right-handed hockey players.like what the hell. and so i just sat there for a hour and a half, while the rest of the team slogs under the sun by the torturous nordin.went to the gym with yj after that, which caused my inner shoulder muscle aches today.and my sprain still wouldn't heal. and we've got cross-training tmr.

sighs.......just wonder when parents would let their kids be more free and independant. i planned like somewhat a overnight hockey bonding for the sec 2s, but nooooooo....nobody can stay over coz of who?? parents .bloody them. and then the bloody irritating EXAMS too.oh right...and i so had the mood to actually do my homework yesterday...but noooo..my auto-habits had to kick in and made me just stone.and i didn't get much done.actually...none at all.

right and the science lecture thing today was a total bore.come to think of it.AAD was too. cept' for the eldds blackbox productions which i would say rocked the most.then comes the rest...which was crap.and so were the people.oh and i had to spend my time painting a t-shirt.first of all..the stupid shirt had to be black which made the stupid damn paint almost invisible to see.then, i had to run out of my orange fabric paint in the middle of painting my number.so it turned out horrible.but i met yee vonne from hpps..in ghim moh now.was nice to see her.all cute and all. oh anyway...apparently yuki just told me yesterday that i actually won 2nd prize for the t-shirt competition for that totally suckky design of mine.i have that photo somewhere...post it up sometime. i seem to keep wanting to post pictures but never find the time nor movtivation to.

ah....going sleep soon.as soon as csi is done.still got training tmr that comes in a package with the 10 rounds warm-up. ta.

2 posts in one day is kinda rare.
hah
my moods are somewhat lifted a bit now that yun hui helped me make my decision.now's only how im going to raise it to my mom.just hope she won't argue too much about me not going to njc.im so not going to try to slog my way through a harder and more stressful life....call me lazy...but accepting njc would be somewhat too safe.once guarunteed a place at njc, some people will just slack knowing that they'll go straight to jc, although the work is tougher.but changed will affffect life.

wish time would just stop.
so i could actually have time to think
stupid indecisive me.but i can't help it ! it's gonna affect me for the next 4 years of my life.FREAKING HELL.people would say i've had more than enough time to think.since june?
argh.
my mom's so coming back in an hour or two and just demand the damned letter from me, fill it in and post it for me tmr.but why can't she just understand MY point of view.and now she's making me sway into thinking it might be better going to njc.after i decided not to go a few hours earlier.i'll feel freaking guilty for leaving the team if i go.but i'll regret not going as well.what the freaking damn hell is wrong with me?or issit just the mind-blowing decision.why must an inexperianced 14 year old girl make such a decision? but if i don't, my mom will make it for me and i'll most probably regret it like hell.starting a new isn't exactly a good thing for me.why must i be so resposible? its not like not being responsible will kill me right? but nooooooooo ...if i don't then everyone will kill me.because they all depend on me.like im some slave/maid rather than a leader.ass.can i just go to africa like now? or like fling myself out the window and see if i can fly.stupid block's roof is locked.like anyone would be so stupid to commit suicide off a 30-storey block.yea right.im going furthur and further off point.asssss.just ranting whatever comes to my mind..or fingertips.







megaaaa-cookie anyone?

ah.20 days.
a lot happened, but i don't wish to brag about anything.main concern right now is njc vs. crescent.got the offer to go nj , so i have no idea if i wanna go...or more like should go.but then this part of me wants to stay.i have this itty bitty feeling in my heart that i somehow won't accept the offer coz i took too long to decide and the dealine passed (:

results are out.my average is only average.all because i failed my freaking lit. and chinese was a just pass.the 80 marks for 2 subs pulled me back if not i would be totally doomed.bah.stupid class still as irritating as ever.no offence to classmates who read this.but they piss me off at times.which is much more frequent.no doubt there are some chairperson - haters out there who are just waiting to slit my neck or something.

i think the sec 2 hockey team is pathetic or they just don't take me seriously.i organize meetings and cross trainings, gym trainings that mr nordin wants us to go for....but NO...they all say they'll come but don't.i think my blood stress pressure's gonna rise furthur if this keeps up.

stupid choreography dance test is over.thank god for that. i embaressed myself in front of the class...but HAHA. i still showed jing my video.i could laugh to death watching it.now's the critical appreciation for dance.we had to watch a dance from the play romeo and juliet.it was kinda nice.just too boring for my taste.

hpps?wed.have a feeling its gonna be boring.but im always wrong.arent' i?

happy birthday to my dear brother
and happy birthday to singapore

how nice...a double birthday.
anyway.i found the celebrations for national day yesterday a bit too long and plain. half the class pissed me off again.cabbed down to hpps after that...waited for the rest to come...more like arnold before we went to bung over at val's.at hpps, we played basketball , stoned atop the monkey bars and ate brownies till we grew fat.HAH.watched fantastic 4 over there while the guys played with the gamecube and terrorized the basement.had to go for tuition ..so i left earlier.not that i had too.i felt obliged as my test was on friday.but it wasn't exactly helpful.like before.went back while accompanying m*****[think she's quite known already but i wouldn't want people to think otherwise] on the bus.apparently i mistook her whole crook personality.she's got some straight in her.whatever.

val's planning a mega sleepover.which i can't wait for.a chance to display my sadistic creativity.haha.we haven't had one in ages.blah.

i think my sadist self is not sadistic enough.anybody knows how to enhance my sadistic ablities? besides not helping a person who fell down right in front of me and laugh.

ahhh...it's about to end.
which i don't know if im glad or not.
but i really appreciate some stuff some people did for me.like christine, amelia, zhen ren, marion and my two brothers.they're probably the only ones who gave me a present. met zhen ren at tiong today, more like exchanged presents.coz i still had not given her hers till today.felt so bad i bought her 200 g of famous amos cookies haha.my brothers gave me cotton candy and a muji pencil..haha.plus something else .chrsitine and amelia..my favourite signo ball pens plus refills which i seriously needed then, and total of 300g of famous amos.wahahaha.but still kinda disappointed.spent half my birthday alone.but im not that sad either.more of a mixed emotion.

can't believe we are out of the tournament though.sad like hell.and probably the first time i cried at a sad event in 4 years.partially due to my fever cum gastric flu that triggered the tears i guess.if not i probably would have been able to hold it back.felt really weak after the game.and i blame myself for being sick on that day which caused us to lose.stupid gastric flu.kinda vomitted a few times on monday too...that's why.

im weird.when people are sick and get MC, they don't go to school and are glad that they can get to skip school.but im exactly the opposite.i go to school .call me weird.

oh and there was speech day.which was boring.and so was the njc personality test before that.and just 2 days ago i had an interview with the principal.don't bother asking.




ta.

ahhh...my feets all aching .
ran at least 1 k for PE today.
then another 2.1 k for hockey after that.
and i just ran my 2.4 yesterday too.i got 13.07 minutes!!!wahhahaha..i was so happy...i improved so much!!!actually about a minute..but that's still fab.

but i still can't believe i finished like $40 bucks in school today.wahhh..im soooo broke and the blody tests are all coming at me sooo fast!!!and then there's the celosia fest tmr.then i gotta go for tuition.

omg!!adidas has such interesting ads!!!its soo cool...although its only soccer...but its still like the best.its all high tech and stuff and its so cool!!!!wahahha...just saw the latest one on tv.hahha.

right...where was i? oh right...being EXTREMELY busy.yup yup..and i shouldn't even be blogging now. and i still have a history test tmr which i am not studying for as i didn't bring back my textbook.how wonderful (:

omgomgomgomgomg.....those guys were so cute!!!they're aussies ..so its kinda obvious (: from wesley college high school.they're jazz band came to our school to play and all so yea...i'll like upload the pictures another time.most of them are blur..from my over-excitedly-trembling hands.haha.but its because i couldn't put flash as well that's why they're blur.butbutbut..im not as crazy over them as most others.marion got some of they're e-mails.i didn't bother.we're not really gonna see them again anyway...although they're still like sooo hot.wahhaha.don't wanna give myself false hope.there should be as good looking guys as them in singapore too right?

enough of them.the feeling has kinda worn off..but i still feel a tinge of sadness that we couldn't win BTS.we drew.WHICH IS SAD.cos i don't even know if we're in the semis.but coach is being all nice and not scolding us and all....except for the 10 rounds we have to run for every training from now on (: there's still the match against st. nicks next week.but i shall not jinx it by saying anything.
the past few days have somewhat been all self -reflecting. i mean more like thinking about what my friends did and all...not so much of myself.most of the time when im walking alone or eating.but not so much now as im too busy. stupid pbl is next week and we havent' done much at all coz we al don't have time to meet up.
and then this sat i have the njc interview thing which i have to rush out of training and back to school for speech day.i don't even feel like going for the bloody interview.don't even feel like going there.but somehow i always feel obligated to go.probably due to my parental pressure...or something.
i ALSO can't believe i missed like 3 invitations which are really tempting from nkf..all because i didn't check my hotmail inbox?? missed the free black eyed peas concert at zouk, discounted tickets to pck musical, batman begins movie pack and free tickets, and some stupid teen idol thingy which i do not care much about. but i actually missed all those stuff!!!!haix.

ok...that's all i wanna vent out today.

got quite a bit to talk about today.
first ...online sales.
they are freaking cheaters.especially those e-bay type of sales.
a normal price of a nike tee can actually be 100+ when ou buy it in stores for only 50+!!
then the livestrong band..convert to sing. its only bout 2.50.the most 3 bucks.and the freaking person is selling more than twice the bloody price.
its not that i want to buy any of it.but the people are cheating your money.its almost like daylight robbery.i mean it. that 's pure evil .and so are books.
coz i went to the library today after school since we were dismissed early.ate A LOT.means i spent a lot on food too.6++ but i did cip with amelia and pui sheen for 4 hours.it is eye- straining.the shelf reading thing i mean.we have to check the number corresponding to the shelf and arrange the book according to alphabetial order ,but the numbers were so damn small.and so i think my eyes became as red as the devils'.


sighx...feel like sleeping already.continue tmr bah
bye.got hockey ni the morning too.

ah..i've got a game tmr and i feel so sleepy right now.
i've gotta go for tuition straight after the match.so sad.
and this is two matches in one week and mr nordin's back from holland!!!!
the match against teck whye was full of holes.we lost 1-0.it was a bad day but we shall persevere and win bedok town tmr.

i've got my napfa starting next week and i don't have proper fitting shoes!!!
today's frisbee match was forfeited.by both sides.haha.we didn't have enough players to play and mrs heng was all furious.wahahaha.but the class is stilll pathetic .

the past week.
happy.sad.stressed.confused.bored.dazed.amazed.hypocritical.hoped.irritated.
i guess emotions can't be helped when things happen.
yesterday had hockey, then slacked for the rest of the day.i then regret not using the time to do my homework coz i have to do it right after THIS entry.today wasn't exactly very productive either.and i've got a match to play tmr.and mr nordin isn't gonna be around.but still.we will WIN.no matter what.
and a freaking fly won't stop flying around me.sheesh.

my entries are never gonna be long again.ok...not never..but i still can't reveal stuff on my blog like its my whole life.i never did.except in my diary which i don't write in anymore. but a few pieces of fullscap paper here and there.

something happened in the past week that made me wanna blog.but it got erased from my miind.but all i can say for now is russell peters rocks.his jokes are what i would call multi-racially funny. if people would stop being such stuck ups about racism.just sit back and laugh.its great.

the countdown has started.but i won't say it.people closest to me ought to know it themselves without even asking me or someone telling them coz its so damn obvious.well.off i go to do my homework.bye.



my heart rages on.

i finally figured out what made my day all weird.
i was actually wondering why i had time to do my homework even after slacking for 3 hours at home.
i forgot to go for tuition.today.or yesterday.
i remembered vaguely to remind myself to call my tuition teacher to confirm when i had to go down.but apparently.i could forget. probably due to too much hockey i guess.it uses the mind too you see.especially when sec ones don't bring things they're suppose to bring.
well..i guess this is the only time i can do my homework.and actually catch up on classes that i missed.
i don't know why, but i feel like im getting old.im actually forgetting things more often..and they wouldn't pop back into my head sooner like the past.

i haven't even blogged since the first day of school started and now's the end of the week.almost.
im like lagging a week behind.
school's fine, just a little boring.its more of hockey.
WE WON YESTERDAY.haha
it wasn't a very good match either.blunders here and there.
but i guess we gotta work much harder the next weeks and stuff if we want to be the champions.wahahaha (:
went out for dinner at jurong point after that..then to the arcade.
joyce is like the MASTER of DDR.
there was this song..she scored PERFECT.not a single step missed.
yea...and then i went home.the end.
happy youth day yesterday.
and happy birthday to three people today.
joyce, zili and michael.

ta.

came back to singapore about a week ago and i was either too busy or too lazy to blog.haha.
the next morning......or make that 7 hours after i reached home..had hockey training.wasn't so bad i think.can't remember already. this WHOLE week was hockey.
monday.tuesday.wednesday.today and tmr. i can't believe i mistook the time for hockey training for the afternoon yesterday when it was in the morning. came for only an hour.just played a game against some primary school kids. we actually tied.so sad. went for gym after that, and that was where i got my muscle ache by doing too many sit-ups.
today had a game against stc .and coach made us play an hour straight without break .the same went for stc..no subs too.haha.having another game against them again tmr...which i might not be able to make it due to the stupid njc test.
and i don't even feel like going for ip now.freaking too much influence from people.
anyway...watched batman begins with the guys on sat. then bloody counterstrike for an hour which i only killed 3 people throughout the whole thing wahahaha.
sunday's tuition was spent watching the movie 'the others' about ghosts and the living and this damn big house. (:
don't feel like blogging anymore.im huungry!!!!!!!
bye bye

ok...im going to hong kong tmr morning...hope i can see debbie before she leaves tmr.

anyway..the past two day's camp was somewhat fun i guess.held at the science centre , felt i learnt at least a few things.but the group had this whole group of genius-s that almost make me think im the 'dumb' one.total had 8 of us in a group.i must admit that the mentor was kinda cute...although he's like 25.a physics graduate.wahaha.anyway...there was this guy shawn from hpps in my group too.but he was from 6b and all. then there's this ultra smart girl yun hui, whom i paired with to make our terrific flying rocket.her sister's already in NUS high. how nice.there's aaron, vanessa, and 3 more guys i ain't that familiar with. they can like talk about trigo and pythogarus theorum and stuff and i'd just sit there and stone coz i had no idea what was going on.i felt so dumb.that's all i can say.but at least i learnt stuff......haha.

went to watch mr and mrs. smith today with wishes, without sue and stace.went window shopping, sat at cafe cartel and ate cheesecake too (: it was sooo nice...cept' for the price..almost went broke today.and im still going shopping in hong kong tmr.hah.

toobad im gonna miss desperate housewives on monday.
but nice angelia agreed to tape it for me right?? (: THANK YOU ANGELIA. I OWE YOU.

gonna miss hockey so much.
although its only 2 trainings.it still makes a difference.
good bye debbie. have fun and good luck in taiwan. you better not forget us after we treated you to pizza hut and the $5 ice cream (:

that's all (:
be back on thursday night!or friday morning.

a week since i blogged.
nothing much happened.
it went past like a blah.
but a few freaks and craps here and there.
if not its fine.
hockey u-15 tournament
nothing much else.
bye

i can't believe it.
i pierced a second hole.
right ear.a normal me wouldn''t do it. but what the hell its the holidays anway.what a thing to do to end the month on may. (:
anyway..went bugis with amelia after going to kallang to get disappointed.we went window shopping and was very intrigued by the very expensive japanese stuff at muji. especially the rice bowls and plates and the very nice pens..and the other glass items.amelia loves the tiny fork there.walked around more..stopped at mos burger...then more walking before going back to the mrt.then to tiong to get the piercing and amelia refused to pierce hers.
oh...and we saw this reallllly nice adidas jacket.amelia wanted it..but it was a hundred bucks.so i decided to get it for her birthday .....but with the help of some people.in the future.
yea..it had this pocket on the upper right arm to put a mp3 player ..then the hole for the ear phones to come out through.it was sooo cool.

but my brother's blind.its been like 4 hours i've been sitting beside him and he hasn't seen it yet.btw...he's on my right.

i sooo envy nikki.she's in canada.freaking hell.i wanna be there.

ever wonder how parents always 'do you good' when they keep nagging.non-stop.even when you've tried your best and stuff..they'll keep saying that its not good enough.it will continue.almost forever.they will always have something to say in whatever you do.that's why my friends always think that im so free and my parents are so good...to let me go out.that part is kinda true.but its more of most of the time i don't tell them everything.or not anything at all.they won't find out ...unless they hired spies to spy on their kid.which is soo totally not private at all.

the past few weeks i've been envying the sky.they seem so pure, and i just keep looking up to stare at it.i've got tons of pictures of the sky already too.they are like free..sometimes i feel that i can just stare at the sky all day long, but im not close enough on the ground.
and im like all philosophical...like after i watched the samurai x dvd.saw how shinta[kenshin]'s 3 friends got murdered in front of him which is SOO touching.and then he fell in love with a guy he killed's fiancee.they got married and he accidentally killed her when she jumped in front of a guy.then how he got a disease and died from it which i totally pitied him.and kaoru wanted to share his pain..so she got the disease from him.
i could have cried.if not for my emotions that are devoid of the sadness.i can feel it but i can't cry .no matter how sad the movie is, or whether we lost a competition, tears never flow.but i can't even remember the last time i actually cried.and from my brothers, i used to be a crybaby.even when there was thunder, i would cry.
i can't believe i've just been ranting on.and on.
june holidays have started.but it does not feel like it.why?trainings.project work.and stuff i have to finish like homework..and i can't believe i actually want to take up tennis lessons twice a week or even go for japanese courses.
and my freaking tablet is lagging like hell.or either my brother is making the internet lag seriously bad.
and i can't believe my whole family ate at this totally posh chinese restaurant yesterday which cost up to around 400 bucks?but its was my graandfather's birthday..so i guess it can't hurt to eat like that once in a while.
and fan fictions with fuji cross dressing actually amuses me on how he can actually pass off as a girl.hah.i guess that being open-minded i good..JUST THAT IM MISSING DEESPERATE HOUSEWIVES NOW!!!!

i feel as if today's the friday the 13th .

but we got fourth for the 6 a-side on wed.
can't believe we lost to seng kang, st. nicks and st. theresa.
well...we just have to work harder.

AND MY FREAKING TROPHY BROKE TODAY.
it fell out of the freaking box when i was takaing it back from wendy and it was held UPSIDE DOWN.
the top looks horribly ugly now.although i dropped down 3 steps.
BUT ITS SO SADDENING.

then when i was on the way to the PAT , i tripped on a step and i was carrying my tablet.
IT ALMOST SMASHED TO THE GROUND.
I SWEAR MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT.

and then we got back our report books.
its not exaactly a thing to cheer me up either.

but its the last day of school
so went to watch monster-in-law with siew ling and tabitha.
its a damn funny show and its is worth watching eunice.
but i wanna watch mr and mrs smith!!!

received the e-mail today and got into the NUS camp.
but its freaking cheapskate.
100 bucks to attend it.
that's so crappified.

apparently ..my maid forgot to on the fan which directs smoke out of the kitchen..and not into the house.she was frying chili ..and i was in the room..almost suffocating..and it burnt my eyes and the back of my throat and in my mouth..and my nose...and...whatever part it can enter my body.it took a few minutes of very difficult breathing to go back to normal *cough cough*but putting that aside...
WE GOT INTO THE QUARTERS!!!
for 6 a-side i mean.our first game was like shit la...and we managed to draw ..
and some how we improved game by game.here's the score.
cgs vs. east view : 0 - 0
cgs vs. yu hua : 1 - 1
cgs vs. swiss cottage : 4 -0

but i think we should be able to win at least the semi-finals..and the best ..the finals!!!
lets keep our hopes high!


GO CRESCENT HOCKEY!

oh..and i got this very big bruise below my left knee ..and a painful scrape on my right knee.
apparently i went cycling yesterday and fell when clever me decided to answer the ringing phone in my pocket when riding at a very high speed.emi and dixin just rode off not knowing what happened.and got another sunburn yesterday..which intensified itself under the scorching sun today and is all wrinkled and painful. and i DID put sunblock!!!!
hmph.
btw..we were at east coast and tried unsuccessfully to teach a certain someone if whom shall mot be named how to ride a bike.
but the terriyaki chicken and its rice was worth the free ride home with my parents[but 5 of us still had to squeeze in the back of dixin's car] (:
i actully have a affinity for jap rice now (:

can't believe i forgot today was vesak day and i went for tuition. ):
so ended up there..with no one there.then i called diana.she went too...but left already.
and bloody fiona and jia yi didn't tell us.
then i ended up window shopping at tiong alone. so sad right?but bought a pencil box, bottle, sweets and somme earsticks. i feel so poor now.due to some lack of funds at home.parents away at bintan, can't extort money from them. :)

yesterday i kinda stank the whole day.hockey in the morning.then went to the NUS for their bloody-stinking-hard-selection-test-which-i-totally-guessed-for-the-answers, and didn't realize that jacon ong was sitting in front of me the whole time. i thought i saw benjamin there too. chatted with emelyn on the way out before cabbing down to njc which cost me freaking 7 bucks.
met up with xiang yin and realized i didn't fill in my parents particulars on the freaking application form. ended up walking to coronation to eat lunch ....terriyaki chicken with heart-shaped rice.it was pretty reasonable price.considering the amount of money i had with me.the fries were a tinge too salty.then i left to walk to val's house just coz i didn't feel like going home.
we watched inuyasha...and chatted till we got bored and started watching more movies. '10 things i hate about you' is quite a good one (: yea...and we ate koko pops-krunch XD
went home before they all went out for dinner..i can't disturb them any further ...that'll be rude.considering the fact that i went there somewhat uninvited.
val was wearing a short skirt and some black one-side-off-shoulder-top (: should have brought my camera.

well..tomorrow's still a holiday.still don't know if im going cycling at east coast.
too bad my parents are coming home tonight.

crap lah.can't believe i spent close to 150 bucks today.my turf shoes only cost 60 bucks thanks to a mr.samat-good-friend that gave us a discount.the rest was spent on school blouse [freaking thing cost 10 bucks each], yellow socks, a nice adidas shoe bag [which isn't like some poser sec. 1's one.],and a nice white adidas sports bra.but i wanted black.the stupid thing only had xs..and the it was on offer...and too tempting for me... (:
yea..and si jing actually bought the exact same stuff as me [including the sizes] ...except the socks..coz there was only one left in this shop... (: [and i took it first].
then when we were ready to leave..freaking sky had to rain.asshole
on my way home..met ghariza on the bus with her njc hockey mates.

oh..and got back my results today.some people actually did worse then me ..so i won't really make them feel worse by posting my results and stuff..but they're not that fantastic either.according to me..my geog. , chinese, english and lit. marks suck.
i can't really blame lit. my mind naturally cannot infer characteristics and stuff from a passage.its not exactly my fault that im born with half the amount of emotions that normal people have.and for english.i blame the teacher.
she isn't exactly english-teacher material.she comes to class with practically nothing in her hands, doesn't come to class at least a fifth of the total amount of lessons she has with us.
and practising oral reading the whole day long is not going to help improve our comprehension

freaking 6 a-side is coming up and i don't have enough practice!
sighx.
bye.

bleagh.
i know im suppose to like blog after the exams and alland bloat about how im like soooo free..but no.
went to watch movie that day with eunice..and observing how cineleisure became crescent-leisure instead.yea.kinda freaky.since it was still considered morning and not many people were there...cept' yellow.
but i've been kinda busy.and there's the hockey 6 a-side coming up in 9 days.
that's so shit.my stamina and skills all flew out the door during the exams.
so did my typing skills.
and my brain.
haven't even booked the tennis court to play .
like there's anyone to even play a good game with.
there's too little tiime for all the stuff i have to do.
and i ain't even doing them yet.
bye.

the lit. paper today was so bad.
i couldn't remember all the freaking quotes.
and the science paper wasn't as bad.
but i still have freaking geog. and home econs to study for.and maths
and do my art layout and prep.
freaking thing i have to add fauna to my flora.

or i can just do magnification.
but i already did my freaking developments.
i do not want them to go to waste.
all my hard work
and late nights to finish them

i need a background for my blog.
any inspiration to give me?