blogger is so screwed up the past few days.and the recover post thing is not exactly helping.and now i've gotta rack my brains for my post again.

its chiinese new year today.but i stayed home telling my parents that i had homework to do which was quite true.but i ended up blogging and killing my day away.i didn't even get anything done except my xi zi corrections and eating up the food in the house making myself fat.uncle vincent and wilson came by with their kids today.it was quite amusing to talk to my aunt.i think..my mom's cousin's wife....er.i think aunt should be fine.yea.she's really nice to talk to, and she's gonna be a really good mum..being good with kids and all.she was like asking about school and all...and says rgs is too stressfull and won't try to enroll her daughter there.hahaa.but right now im trying to do my work which is failing miserably.should have just followed my parents.i haven't even gambled this year.something is terribly wrong with the year of the dog.or just with me.

hmm.i better get back to my work.like it'll ever be done.but there's no time this week at all.ntu pitch trainings are just too time consuming.then the weekend's all gone with u21 matches.and then there's maths tests,some socratic seminar thing..bah.i wont' be able to sleep again.

its breaking me up inside.why.the world? no.no one's perfect.nothing is.its full of crap.feelings?do i have them?oh yes i do.but it's far far down in the depths of my soul.no one shall find out.

yes its chinese new year's eve. a festive season where everyone celebrates and be happy and all merry.but there's darkness and cold.why? only the world knows.went back to both crescent and henry park yesterday.i am secluding myself .from everyone.class.ex-class.ex-ex-class.sorry guys.but i am.for some unknown reason.in crescent is all smiles and hugs.but what's in that?and so back to henry park. i secluded myself yet again in the gym with joanne at one corner because i couldn't bear to be with my class.and there was yapyap's farewell.i had a nice session of stargazing at sarah's pool.life started pouring out of my mouth to pui sheen but she couldn't understand my randomness.so what's the point.and now my class.everything's wrong.

strangers are nice to talk to.they don't know you.you have no idea who they are, there are no links in between and so everything just spills out.because there's privacy.which is something the world doesn't have.there are ears everywhere.scandals.rumours.do i want to be part of it?everyone is part of it.

don't leave me.

i am invisible.
no one shall find out who i am.
we shall all just disappear off the face of this earth.

i do care.don't be like this.

piss off.

sigh.i just wonder why my parents act the way they act now.its so damn bloody irritating.

the past week went by.and im starting to feel all the stress.be it peer pressure, teacher pressure or whatever, its just getting to me.seeping through my shell slowly.all the homework's piling up for me.i can't even do simply maths i learnt last year.what crap is this.nj hockey training as well.i've been skipping.because im sick and i just can't stand it.its exhausting me out.every single day.i feel dejected.from everyone.i shall stone my life away.

crescent hockey shall rule the pitch.especially during the league.im just happy enough im able to play with you guys.

i thank you for keeping me alive.

orientation's over.and it was a blast last night.DANCE PARTY.although i got all sweaty and stinky it was just terribly fun.i really felt like i was in a REAL club with all the lights, music and fog.too bad i only ate one slice of pizza.had no appetite then i guess.can't believe i bloody missed the crescent CCA carnival.bah.
I MISS CRESCENT AND ALL THE CRESCENTIANS.
sigh.i wanna thank those who were there for me last night.
oh and i got a bloody fever this morning and couldn't train properly.and everyone's training so hard for the tournament and all.go crescent hockey! we shall be champions!

lessons are starting soon.real soon.i don't know if i can do it.and taking up tennis?? argh.
stupid freak weather.

thank you for all your love

today i went home with quite a few things.a heavy bag.a good experience.at least 5 bruises.
tmr's gonna be the last day of orientation.a good experience.and yet it leaves me quite exhausted every night.hm.i've got nothing much else to blog.besides getting dirty everyday.
i miss crescent.

hm.my top 5 places in singapore.in random order
1.east coast park beach
2.sentosa palawan beach
3.parts of singapore river.
4.rooftops of anyplace that allows me to feel on top of the world in calmness
5.my room.

jet'aime

tmr's gonna be a damn long and tiring day.and into the second week of orientation.
well.i guess i made some people upset on monday.im sorry.esp. gha.
hmm..i've got nothing really else to blog other than that.hm.i miss crescent.
oh and happy birthday CUITIAN.for tmr.

and happy belated birthday GHA!

you'll be in my heart

i better blog now before i won't have the chance to and since i have nothing to do cept' my maths homework due in a week's time.
orientation so far has been talks talks lectures, lessons.its damn boring.till we went up to class today and bonded.i shall not go into too much detail.
tmr's all the mass dance and song singing.oh how much im looking forward to that.not.maybe.i have no idea.hope its better than induction can already i guess.
went back crescent today.and the b div's like training damn hard.and here i am slacking.and nordin says i can play for crescent club! woots.and the sec ones.cannot make it lah.

gotta go.ta.

first day of school.nothing much.just boring.and the school food sucks.especially when the queue is so damn long.anyway too lazy to blog anymore.gotta sleep.

oh and my mom resuscribed the internet line.that didn't take long.

i need people to help me remember what is so important on Friday, 13th January 2006.besides its an unlucky day.i can't remember what important event is on that day.someone please tell me soon asap.