i feel guilty. of last night's dinner. although it was a consensus among the four of us to eat out, and well, we did stumble upon the long list of promotions, a $40++ buffet dinner at Holiday Inn Park View made me open my eyes a little bigger into the adult world. no more student prices and promotions, good food( or not that good food) comes at a price. breaking into the food industry is not gonna be easy, and is attacking on my wall of will to become a pastry chef and open up a F&B business. 

also...i really shouldn't be spending on unneccesary stuff, which i really haven't seemed to curb the habit of :/ although i wish i could catch The Winter's Tale at esplanade, which seems to have solid reviews and a nice production overall. dang theatre high prices. 

imported inflation?

unstable emotions. 

distractions.

thoughts.

go away. come. run away. alone. books. bachlorette pad. dreams.fantasies.

Judith McNaught. i miss her books.

sickness kills both my appetite and my appetite to blog. many many things happened again as usual (which is why i blog right), which includes GEOG TRIP! woohoo!. and er. my 17 hour stint at hockey camp.

[i would really like to type a long post, but withut my usual tablet keyboard, and having my whole body aching no isn't ideal, so i'll post keywords for my next time to edit (: ]

GEOG TRIP.

fun

new friends

geog class

sick

rain

limestone caves

climb

rocks

beach

camera died

hotel room

cold

tired

night-tutorials

river

food

HOCKEY CAMP.

tired

greenwood avenue

closed

chicken rice

adam

8.30pm

olympic womens' final hockey match

theory

cold bath

grandstand

sleep

twister mat

rain

3am

cold

breakfast

bus

pitch

die-ded.

ta-dah! ok. forgive me geog people for not uiploading my pictures yet.

i officially haven't slept for twenty four hours, or 43 hours hours awake with only an hour of sleep. i should be brain dead or unable to function due to lack of sleep, but surprisingly i'm pretty awake right now at 1am in the morning. and well, i've got to be up in another 4 hours' time due to the early bus from school sending us for the long-awaited Geography field trip. can't say i'm overwhelmingly excited about it, but i guess we won't know what's gonna happen till we go for it.

The njcians on the annual Maldives CIP trip left on thursday, and i again, feel....neutral. i mean there's some attachment, but there's no desire or overwhelming feeling of loss of not being there. i guess i'm just not the kind of person who gets attached emotionally so easily.

well, i hope i don't miss anything out for the geog trip and the directly after hockey camp..

WARNING

my blog now has music (:

Nanka Shiawase by the Oystars.

I first heard it on Flame of Recca anime eons ago, and was recently united with this catchy song again. apparently it's about happiness ....so enjoy! oh and if you think having music on my blog makes it slow and impractical, just tag and say so, a majority of five or more taggers (which is about all my readers! ha!) then i'll consider, otherwise, get hooked!

Mezamashi ni okosare sukejuuru wo konashi
Toki ni egao tsukuri nokoru wadakamari
Koi mo yume mo tetsugaku de itsu mo kotae wa nai kedo
Koin hajiku you ni arukidasou

Nanka shiawase chotto shiawase
Kanjiru toki koso shiawase no hajimari
Nanka yukesou umaku yukesou
Fumidasu ippo de subete kaete yukeru ne

Sekai ga abunai to nyuusu ga wameki tate
Toki ni namida-nagashi dekiru koto mo naku

Omoigakezu toori ame yake ni kokoro ga sawaida
Kimi no uso ga boku ni hitotsu bareta

Nanka tameiki fukaku tameiki
Wazuka na ochikomi jinsei wo korogasu
Nanka dame ka mo zenbu dame ka mo
Mienai haadoru umaku wa susumenai ne ...

Kitto jibun shidai da ne sou sa kantan na koto sa
Kaze ni ashita kiite mireba ii sa

Nanka shiawase chotto shiawase
Kanjiru toki koso ichiban no shiawase
Nanka yukesou umaku yukesou
Sou iu mon da ne ashita mo shiawase da ne

What Happiness 

Wake up, get up, check the schedule 

Sometimes brings a smile and good feeling  

Love or dreams or logic never have the answers 

So let's just walk as if flipping a coin  

A kind of happiness, a brief happiness 

When it is felt, that's the start of happiness 

Kind of moving, Born for moving 

The first step makes everything move again  

The news shouts out that the world is dangerous 

Sometimes nothing can be done but shed tears  

Unexpected rain burns the heart into depression 

I let one of your lies be leaked out  

A kind of sigh, revival sigh 

Merely the punchline in which existance rolls 

It might be kind of useless, Maybe completely useless 

A life with unseen effects is not progressing...  

Surely, depending upon myself, 

wonderful things will be assured 

I'll see them in the wind that will come tomorrow  

A kind of happiness, a brief happiness 

When it is felt, that's the start of happiness 

Kind of moving, Born for moving

great  news, exciting stuff and yummy things are coming up in this post. i'll leave the bad stressful stuff for another time.

first up:

which means, I PASSED! to some, it may just seem like a not-so-good grade, especially for a student's A level subject, coming from NJC. but to me, it's a feat. a feat i achieved, which i felt pretty relieved to see it. It may be due to my pessimism of my own mother tongue, or just my inability to believe in my own capabilities that i could have worked harder and gotten a better grade. but i guess having such lines of thoughts lowers expectations, and gives the mind at least a little room to breath. It may actully bring a little happiness too, since I did better than what I expected, saves on tears i suppose. Now, less one subject to worry about, more time on my hands ( 4 hours a week to be precise, since 2.5 hours of chinese lessons plus the 1.5 hour wait i have on tuesday before chinese lesson starts) . And people: you can stop teasing me about my incapability to speak my own mother tongue now.

Secondly, I seem to have a lot of musically talented friends surrounding me, probably to make up for my non-existant musical sense. And thing is, I'm not a groupiue or fan of any famous artist out there in the world, for I just like music in general. But when the artists are my friends, the local scene, probably due to the bond of friendship, I become their fans almost overnight. Like Sheena, the future star singer who is multi-talented and has a great voice, tuned to perfection. and then there's David, who plays the bass for his band, who just performed for NTU's Surf and Sweat at Sentosa awhile back. Loved their music the first time i heard it at esplanade, which included jap songs, and thus here's the video to promote their band, especially when the lead has a great voice too! anybody who wants to watch them live : 21st March, Saturday at the Central (: enjoy!

Lastly: MUFFINS.

 vanilla, dark chocolate, blueberries, orange frosting. that's all i have to say XD