it was enjoyable enough. Cake, the thoughts, the pigs and the waffles.but i can't quite convince myself it was a special day...even though its supposed to. I guess life never works out the way you want it to.it never does.

i feel empty, unsure of who i am, what i am to be. I don't want to be moulded, but left to be grown naturally out in the wild. Isn't that what creates the strength in us?

it only takes five mere minutes to post (when you have everything you want to write about in your head already). and yet i don't know why i used to take between half an hour to an hour just to make one entry. no wonder i was reluctant to post this often.haha.

i need to start working hard. but there's just no motivation too.

some of you haven't changed.it's just in the nature.i guess it won't anytime soon.
please let me know soon.

the weekend's over. It was a good one in a long time. Not only was there movie, food and beach, there were nice people to spend it with:)

Saturday- sushi buffet at suki sushi located at cineleisure with a few of the current nj hockers. Man, it was a good brunch for me, spanning three hours, and accumulating a total of 112 black and yellow plates. There's supposed to be more, since some of the ordered plates came combined together, thus maximizing table space. Haha.i'll post pictures up another day. Watched Wedding Daze which was our second movie choice, as the Dark Knight was mostly sold out till the later movies. Real funny movie, NOT just a typical american flick.haha.

Sunday. Beach picnic at sentosa with my long-time-no-see nj hockey seniors. Even though i was like the only one who's still IN nj, i still enjoyed myself:) there was alex, edwin, andrick, wei siang, david, roy, justin, john, jun fu, aleee, karen and siya.and me of course. There were times of the 'awkward silences' but they were soon filled with ns tales, funny reminiscenes of the past, and lots of laughter. I made lasagna and my favourite blueberry choc chip muffins, there was pizza, sandwiches and drinks, and chips that were never eaten.yet.haha. Few rounds of beach touch rugby, a round of monkey frisbee, and maybe some random photography by edwin, the result was mostly shacked, sandy, sunburnt teen and almost-past-teens.sigh. We should have more of it with more people the next time..

Thanks to all who made my weekend :) especially you.

i could say today felt like my longest day ever. leaving the house at 6.40am and reaching home only at midnight. continuously like clockwork, after a full day's worth of school, there were two extra remedials (for USEless people like me), then a little bit of training, before hitting more worksheets during tuition. and i thought it would be over with this, but no, went to pick my mom before going for dinner during supper time at some nice chinese restaurant. and since it was near my brother's training dojang, we went to pick him before i finally reached home.and now i've just got to wait for my turn to use the bath. 'it's gonna be a long day...-Redman'08'

well dinner with my mom and her collegues seemed really interesting, exposed me to the office buddies working system. like who pays for food, where and how they get their 4-D numbers for the next week's draw, how they share stories of anything and everything. well i'm just glad to be able to tag along and ate such delicious food at a nice restaurant for free...13 different dishes. like woah. i just bloated up.

i feel old and faulty.as if my body's ready to break down soon.

i don't know if i'm prepared.

dear taggers:
i could posts the photos if i had the time to take them or upload them, just that i would fear people would bombard me with too many orders and then that would tempt me too much into dropping out of school and just opening up my own cafe (:

well, so far this week i haven't reached home before 8.30pm.either due to training, then dinner at 2nd chinatown, or staying in school to hopefully finish my work. well i'm only staying in school due to the belief that i'll be more productive in school, come home later, but i will sleep earlier, thus preventing pimple breakouts!

and a relevation t told me today. t2 told t that my face looked rounder after the june holidays. i thought so too ): seriously, i bring food to school EVERYDAY. and not for lunch, for snacking during class and breaktimes. sigh. i'm seriously eating too much. must be the lack of sleep and stress.

stop tempting me!

again, another unproductive weekend with a nice romance storybook in sight on my table. plus chocolate overdose. haven't eaten so much chocolate in one day...some japanese Edo Pack soft chocolate i bought from plaza sing's jap and korean food fiesta. and the M&M packs from dramafest props (:

i overestimate myself.

they think the subjects they teach are the only ones that are important, and other subjects don't have any work?! Well they can continue to think that way if they want their students to drop out of school. I'm very tempted and on the verge of doing just that.

Just one more little push and i'll fall, and it'll be your fault.

Save me.please.
if you could just be next to me.

stole this off val's blog. think i did it before..but couldn't be bothered to put it up then. well hope you don't mind val X)

oh and i do think some parts are pretty applicable to me, and i think some are just repeated in everyone's profile. haha.

What Chua Ching Ling Pamela Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

cheerios!

i can't believe i can fall asleep while eating cake.my head tilted until my face was just millimeters away from touching the cake.the second time, thankfully, i only dropped my spoon, preventing my fingers from squishing the cake completely.

Shhh.

ah. the frozen cream puffs my mom bought reawakened my sudden desire for desserts.and so, on one of the very rare-coming-home-early day of mine, TODAY, i made chocolate molten cake from the June issue of Simply Her! magazine. the first time i tried it failed, and well according to dolly, tasted more like baked chocolate pudding. and so. i thought i spent $4.20 on a magazine just for the recipe, for nothing. so today, i attempted it again, determined for the chocolate cake to have a molten core.
and....

TAA-DAA!
my successful chocolate cake!yay! now just imagine banana slices thrown on top...ah. that's what i'm eating now (:

its so sad. sundays are gonna be my study days from now on, because i know i will do nothing on saturdays besides eat, read my book, use my tablet, pick at my nails, roam around the house yada yada yada. so today i went to plaza sing starbucks to attempt to reduce my growing pile of work. *well i did have an alternate motive for choosing plaza sing when there was bugis and tanglin mall on the list too...* personal SHOPPING SPREE.like alone. at cotton on. and my receipt's like a 3 digit sum...$***.** kind of thing. first of a kind that ever happened to me, on clothes, and while i'm alone. i always knew shoppping therapy works (: except that this time i knew there were a few push factor influences as to why it escalated to this level.i'm not a clothes kind of person...but cotton on...it just stood out and is really comfy (: haha. enough.

5 hours at starbucks.noisy, smelt of coffee, perfect distractions of people walking past the glass walls. but still its more conducive than my quiet, neutral-smelling home which has a million things i can occupy myself with for hours.managed chinese, econs and maths. sounds a lot, but no it isn't. because they were only parts of the big thing. again, i blame my short concentration span.

dramafest
i guess i got over the embarressment by now, but i doubt pictures of me in costume will come up here at least for another week. like they say, no need to air dirty clothing in public.i would say the run went well. relieved that its over, and enjoyed the experience once again. despite the eccentric roles i'm given to portray.
somehow there's just this difference in people in different CCAs. each CCA you join, you meet different sorts of people, and the difference in their personalities really stand out.truly. i would come to a conclusion, it is partially true that your CCA and its members shape you.
Thank you Catherine, Leung Yan and Annabel for the wonderful experience of working with you guys (: Bake-Off!

a little late, but people, COME FOR DRAMAFEST!
Warped! , 7.30pm, NJC LT1, $5 per ticket. sold at the door or in njc canteen.

the week's tiring. me wants sleep.
C.D.E.S.U.

an hour later and my mood befitting the weather.cloudy, windy, a little chilly, but not dark, not bright. It wasn't what i expected.then i thought it went well, but now shows it hadn't. It's more of a bewildered feeling rather than regret.

i'm supposed to be catching up on my deprived sleep now, or read my overdue library book.but no, i'm using my phone to blog really slowly.
My mom got a new phone, the samsung touch screen phone, so i got her two week old n95 which is exactly the same as my brother's. No complaints though.it's been enjoyable enough using it.
I'm gonna go sleep somemore before math comes. Aye. I still haven't watched the last episode of zettai yet!

sheena: well, at first i thought 3 or 2 was a good number. But having one kid should be good enough.it's below replacement rate so i'll still be doing my part:)

ok. last night i was just really tired, emo and well, hormones a little off balance. its one of those few times i just can't take on the world.

but we took on SINGAPORE today! haha. ISAC. tiring. REALLY tiring. my prize count: 2 blisters, 2 abrasions, one reaction with salt water on my wrist and hmmm.... mild exhaustion. and my last post was partially true. i ain't got time to recover tmr. thus i shall go sleep now.

summary of today.
Sembawang- hot springs
bedok - swimming
tanah merah SAF yatch club(changi) - trek + kayak.
changi /east coast - cycling
sengkeng - vertical challenge
botanical garden - frissbee! (the jog in was terribly exhausting.'
school - abseiling.

nights.

just a few minutes ago i was in no mood to blog at all.i still don't. not about the wonderful training we had, and the really stupid yet funny mistake i made during warm up that caused me to (according to vinnie: 'smile maniacally at yourself'.)

i just wish time would stop. or me to just take a breather and relax. let me breathe. let my body rest. let my mind rest. i don't want to break down.

tah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIU MIN!
we hope you liked that nice chocolate cake in the morning! well i thought it was delicious (: and i you better hug that dragon to sleep tonight instead of your stick!!! if not it'll feel so lonely...well i'm sure you'll make a great vice-capt despite your busy schedule, so ganbatte ne?

ah, i think geog is really useful, especially human geog. i shall do my part now to save the world.

STOP HAVING BABIES! if you're planning to have them in the future, DON'T. they'll just suffer from all the selfish things we are doing now, and suffer the consequences such as GLOBAL WARMING, STARVATION and LACK OF RESOURCES. why? because people are reproducing like rabbits these few centuries, and using everything up, thus there won't be anything left for the future. and if people continue to go at it like rabbits, the world is just gonna suffer even EARLIER. so, just let the old people die, let the natural disasters work (a big one will eventually kill off a fraction of the world's population soon anyway), and stop eating so much. it'll be real selfish of you to want to have kids just because they're supposedly be BUNDLES OF JOY, but just think of the pain you/your wife will go through during pregnancy, and all that extra hair pulling moments when your kid pees on you. you'll feel the constraints of world resources when you're not even retired, so why let your child suffer his/her whole life? BE NICE. DON'T MAKE THEM SUFFER. DO YOUR PART.

yep, so that's what i learnt in geog. isn't that so useful as compared to the other crap schools are teaching us?

busy weekend.

COME FOR DRAMAFEST. 11th july 2008, NJC, $5. one night, 3 plays, warped!