pictures of last night...


where we ended up...

twins!


andrew. being spaz. while i order ice cream (:


ICE CREAM! and the dry-ice effect (: pretty....

camwhores.

she's drinking the magic potion!
camwhores v2.

camwhores v3.

the girls.

us. the sexy six c (:

today. watched the zohan with a. funny movie, with a really light plot. could say i enjoyed the movie (: had lunch and a nice chat, before meeting v, k and d who came late. starbucks, subway, mos burger, num flipflops and gramaphone which we visited. glad to see them back here, although a little envy was stirred up. haha. but we'll just have to accept and work our hardest wherever we are yea? hope to see you guys again one more time before flying off again!
i really really enjoyed the movie today. thanks (:

i don't know where it went wrong. over the years, my courage and spontaneity just faded away. its tough not to have it, and leaves regrets. how am i to be strong and get what i want without it?

ubin cycling
with the crescent people. it was almost like one representation from each batch? haha. total 11 of us, nordin, rilai, faizal, wei zhen, chief expedition leader farah, laila, yu sheng, me, and the triplets sarah, tasneem and natasha. haha. it was a REALLY fun trip. except when's there's fun, means LOTS of energy was needed. haha. we, with some of us being old people, stopped like at almost every stop there is to take a break.haha. cycling was challenging, upslope. it was freedom, downslope. a memorable trip indeed. pictures uploaded by them another time, and have to thank....FARAH! for organizing this expedition, bringing us around, and driving me and sheng to changi and back too! 'crescent hockey's on its way-ay...'

i really enjoyed tonight. haven't hung out with you guys in such a long while, with everyone everywhere. it feels so natural, each time we just fall back into the past.sexy six c (:

it's double over for me! CTs and my chinese A level oral. i may have screwed that up too, but i don't feel too bad when its over (:

all the more to celebrate! so i went to play a little hockey, run 4 rounds, before going to peninsular to buy vin and travis's stick. thank god the nice shop owner [who i complained to when my stick cracked] was JUST closing and shop and decided to open it back for us to buy stick (: des, norm, and me were tagging along...and vin went for club training after buying stick, the rest of us for dinner at raffles city's food junction. i would say this was my personal celebratory dinner for completing CTs! especially when i had great fun talking to the guys. thought i was almost gonna get a heart attack and die from laughing too hard at one point. i think all of us were. haha. lost track of time, but i gotta get home and sleep! got trials tmr, lunch at ikea, sport shoe buying, and cake baking supervising. hectic schedule yea? sunday's crescent's pulau ubin adventure!

AND I CAN'T BELIEVE SARS HASN'T RELEASED ZETTAI K. EP. 10 YET. its been 9 days since the last episode. its overdued. [unless they suddenly decided not to air an episode this week...] argh.

guess i shouldn't end without talking bout the papers huh. bio....fail. i thought i would study, but i didn't, and didn't expect the essay questions to constitute HALF the bloody paper with 40 marks. and one part of one question was 10 marks. and i didn't know the difference between globular and fibrous, and what in the world was nucleic acids. thus, 40 marks gone. shoot the person who thought of integrating ESSAYS into a SCIENCE paper....i've had enough of them in language and arts subjects. give me mcqs damn it. as for chinese. the one paper i did not study for at all. wasn't as bad as i thought, but couldn't understand what the passage was talking about at all, thus as usual, guess the meaning, guess the answers. oh and i thought my chinese essay was pretty well written. my best one so far [thought as always...till the marks come out as fail and the story was irrelevent]. finally oral. i'll have to thank the people who tried their best to help me improve my chinese speaking skills before the exam, namely, norm, vin, bei, [and my chinese teacher of course]. but it went as usual...stuttering, stopping, hesitating, guessing the words for the passage. conversation..aye. easy topics aren't even an advantage. didn't get as many points out as i wanted to. oh wells. *prays for a pass*

the freshest blueberry chocolate chip muffin photos ever!

just popped out the oven 1/2hour ago.*sniff* ahh....


look at the exploded juicy blueberries...aren't they pretty?

Bite.

munch munch.

all in my tummy. yum (:




and monday's lasagna...


the big one (:

all for me. yum.


bio time.

do you hear it?
the little murmurs, then it gradually gets louder. you hear one or two distinct voices as they are closer to you. suddenly it erupts into full blown conversations everywhere. people forgetting where they are, raising their voices high enough for the person two seats down from you to hear, talking as fast as they can,to relate everything, before everything they did for the past 3 hours is forgotten. the heated debates, the comparing, the agreements. the din lasts for 30 seconds to a minute, before
'not all the papers are collected yet. who said you could talk? the more you talk, the longer before you'll be dismissed."
the crowd goes quiet.
1.
2.
3.
the murmurs start again. and it escalates. i just sit there in my seat. thinking about lunch. and sleep. everything else sounded like many fast-forwarded conversations being played at once around me.
and you don't realize it because you are part of it.

five down and two to go. others have four down and one to go.or are done. damn having to take chinese. today was maths, chinese listening compre and geog. the horror. that was what i felt before geog. ok, after the math paper. because it took the teachers half an hour to collect all the papers, eating into chinese listening time, lunch, and most importantly my start-looking-through-geog-notes-time. math was ok. not as disastrous as i thought, although i counted i lost 30 marks when i handed up the paper. chinese was ok. its listening and multiple choice. how hard can that be? and then. teresa said i was hyperventilating when we were outside the gym. i was hovering over 'i'm gonna leave the paper blank later cause i have no idea what the question is asking' and 'i don't care if i fail. i shouldn't care. i don't need to care. i don't mind.' and ' oh god. i'm gonna so fail this paper. why didn't i study. why didn't i think geog had to be studied. why couldn't i mug like teresa!' yea. managed to calm down. in the end, geog was better than econs. i finished the essays, although i do know there wasn't much content and waaaaaaayy too short, but, at least i felt confident to hand in the script and score some marks. hyperventilating before a paper may be good in the end. makes me feel better (:

i should be studying bio now. if not the same thing's gonna happen tmr that did today. ah. and chinese A level oral. its decided. friday's the day i set the record for speaking english during a chinese oral exam.

i want to make blueberry muffins. i've got nice blueberries in the fridge. and so is my lasagna.yum.

i know i should be studying geog right now after i underestimated the amount of content there is for the last month.well just a few more minutes shouldn't hurt after all that slacking i did yesterday. oh and good luck to all the chemistry paper-takers today! hehe. although the paper should have just ended.

GP down, econs down. i better pass my GP, although i screwed up the essay. and econs. its needless to say i'll fail. but seriously. i can't write two bloody essays in 45 mins. i mean come on, a person who can at most write one side of an A4 size paper in half an hour, you want me to write 2 pages in 45min. we'll, i did try my best and did a total of 3 sides? that's completing part a) of 10 marks in 35 min and two paragraphs (approximately only 1/5 the essay) of part b) of 15 marks. = sure fail. but i'm being optimistic by hoping the marker will credit me marks for my intro and brief explaination of what's a price ceiling. and to think i was happy enough that there was an essay question in the econs paper that i actually remotely knew how to do. paper 2 - managed to finish, cause i believe i didn't write enough for all my answers. ah i forgot, had mock chinese oral between GP and econs..without surprise i see the understanding of pain in my teacher's eyes that i wouldn't pass. come on. she even told me to use english words during the conversation, during a CHINESE oral mind you. and the last revelation. chinese oral A's are starting on friday. holy shit.

anyway. a little destressing with my hockey stick after the papers. desmond and illyas was there too. hm. my hits are still as inconsistent as a sec 1 starter. i just don't understand why it's degraded so much. went home, slacked a bit, ate dinner. then started on my common test/assessment week tradition. making lasagna! yep. i do it in the middle of every common test week. a way to relieve stress...and can be continued till it runs out! haha. only thing this time i made it overly salty (i'll get hypertension soon) and well, the cheese didn't set well ): but it's still addictively-good (: and i joined my mom to watch a little of the K-drama My Girl till 1am before i went to sleep.

GEOG. here i come.

asamoto soushi has been revived back into my memory. *grins* well, in both the manga and drama, there's no doubt that both are hot. thus my sudden liking to mizushima hiro (: realized he was minami nanba in hana kimi jap, but he was just a little above likeable level then. but here, only thing is that his hair is a little..out of control.even if it's the 'in' fashion.

didn't like the actor who portrayed tenjo night. maybe cause in the drama he was acting too much like a robot, it's stiff, and unnatural. unlike the portrayed tenjo night in the manga. didn't like the face, body too..big for the head? haha. too tall basically.

hunk soushi
nerd soushi, but still looks good.

normal mizushima hiro
asamoto soushi aka mizushima hiro *note the hair*

(sadly i had to use net pictures since my screenshots wouldn't comeout properly.sigh.)

fangirling over, i shall succumb to my deprived sleep. what warped thoughts i had thinking i could survive on 4hrs and 2 hrs of sleep for the last two consecutive nights. well at least i'm still here and alive.

went to school for ISAC briefing half dead in the morning, then lunch at coro, before settling in at Whisk bakery and cafe at crown centre, my current favourite cake-eating place, with dolly and OPY.what originally planned was to mug, but somehow, lunch and cake eating, and gossip came in which occupied 11-4pm. managed to get 10 pages of econs into my head before i started falling asleep and went home by 5.30pm. whisk is a good place to eat cake and gossip, but totally uncondusive for studying. HAH. i didn't learn my lesson the last 2 times i went there and ATTEMPTED to study. oh wells.shall try again tmr. at starbucks this time. library.buddy hoagies. someplace i can not spend money, is not too quiet, not too noisy, proportianately sparse and has proper comfortable table and chair.

i was thinking. if i were really to leave an exam paper blank during the CTs...i'll slip a note to the marker explaining why...

'to the script marker.
why did i leave the exam paper blank? well, you see, i always wanted to see what would happen if i left a whole exam paper blank, how it would feel and if the consequences were those portrayed in movies. plus, i'm sparing you the agony of marking a script which i have totally not studied for, thus will be writing crap in the answer sheet, while you would slowly get high blood pressure marking an agonizingly wrong script. so i'm saving you the trouble and spare your health such that you will save your time and won't have to mark an extra useless script. the scores that i might have gotten doing the exam and leaving the script blank, would have been real close, so it makes no difference anyway. enjoy marking the rest of the class's or level's scripts!
sincerely, pamela '

it'll be interesting.haha.

anyway. watched The Chronicles of Narnia 2: Prince Caspian with kris this morning.got couple seats.HAHA. sigh. watching such movies should only be done at night, not morning. because my brain went into shut down mode for at least the next 2 hours. and i was unable to grasp the motivation to study for that period of time after the movie. that's how fantasy movies make me. or most good movies. wonderful ones may shut my brain down for more than 2 hours. but the movie was great! seriously. the plot a little too straightforward and predictable i thought, but the experience was great. and prince caspian's ACCENT was HOTT. ok fine.stop avoiding the main point. his long hair plus the accent PLUS the face made him the hottest. HAHA. *i shall not succumb to fangirling...i shall not succumb to fangirling...i shall not succumb to fangirling...*

and i couldn't believe it when i stepped out of the theatre. it took me awhile to register since my brain was in temporary respite. THEY ARE BLOODY MAKING A MOVIE FOR HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3.senior year. i saw the standup-pop out cardboard models. sigh. don't they know in trilogies, first is good, second is bad, third is the best. that's what i always feel. although some just went from good, bad, worse. and i think disney's overdoing high school musical. ugh.

managed to stay at starbucks to study after parting with kris, for 5,6 hours? did math and read highly-behind human geog notes. realize i couldn't do math at all despite tuition and I'M SERIOSLY FAR BEHIND IN HUMAN G. couldn't believe i underestimated the content level. i'll never get everything read and memorized by the paper. no way.

oh man. yesterday was horrible. not the events that were horrible, but how my body was feeling. what i thought was morning sinus developed into a full-blown mind-boggling ear-bursting cold. i'll have to thank kris for attempting to make me study at your house [although i did fall asleep before i even started, and made you psychologically-sick. plus, i only did 3 measly chapters of econs]. the rest of the day after i left her house was kinda blurry, hazy and sneezy. damn my weak immune system.

felt much better this morning, although there was still hints of my cold residing in my nose and voice, but still fit enough to resume normal day life, which included dragging my ass to school for geog consultation with ms kavi. after was spent running three rounds to sweat out the rest of my virus, and some unproductive hitting around with amanda's stick [hope you don't mind]. attempted ONE question of partial fractions before i was left to stone and chatted with mar for awhile before heading off to commonwealth for CIP.

CIP wasn't what i expected. i mean the facilitating kids whom i barely know..and they really are rowdy-er than i expected. so gotta put in more effort than i did today by just observing and not interacting at all.

lastly, tags. i doubt i've ever seen so many tags on my blog for....years within 24 hours. well its due to my sudden effort to read blogs for this really short temporary blogging motivation of mine. i got caught up and sucked back into the blogging world. oh yay. another thing to suck my time out of and an extra excuse from studies.

bei: thanks. that made me detour for at least an extra half hour. HAHA. but they were too good to miss looking at.

norman: you should know what happened. yes i'm fine with homosexuality in OTHERS. but just to clear the air, i'm heterosexual thank you.

kris: you know my motivation's weaker than yours. especially when it comes to food.

felix: too sinful. that's why i try to make them myself and eat them at anytime at all (:

travis: and the only way i can think of getting a proper holiday now is to drop out of school, or just plan to leave the exam papers blank.

val: you're back on the 28th right! you think jet lag will hold you back two days? AND YOU MUST STAY TILL THE 12th. i don't care. you're coming for dramafest on the 11th july.

i need to be studying and not looking at those oh so delicious cakes and pastries.
royal plaza on scotts - gourmet carousel
Canele Patissierie Chocolaterie

sigh

oh man. i just found this too cute.

under Canele Patisserie Chocolaterie's Special Occasions : Wedding Cakes. titled : Gay Wedding Cake. no description needed. it's nice to see someone catering to the minority in a country where gay marraiges aren't even legal yet.

INFLATION. its seriously pissing me off.
chalet rates. outragous. it seems like it more than doubled from a few years ago? costa sands at the top of the list with the smallest rooms. aloha increased its prices, but seems reasonable with the biggest area per chalet. but that doesn't mean we ought to pay 500 bucks a night.island resort at east coast still alright, at least 20-50% cheaper than the same kind of chalets at costa sands. argh.

i want to read. fictional english story books that don't need much brain cells to absorb and will bring me into another world.
i want to bake. so that i can eat my wonderful creations and get fat with pleasure.
i want to sleep. so that i don't get these headaches and blank out periods and act like a zombie.
i want to watch a movie at the movie theater. with friend(s) because i haven't stepped into one for the past two months?
i want to play hockey. so that i don't get fat from eating all my wonderful baked perfections.
i want to get a job. so that i don't feel useless and broke all the time, and be able to pay for culinary school in a few year's time without depending on my parents.
i want to drop out of school. so that i don't get so stressed about insignificant things in life and i can get a job.
i want to get a boyfriend/girlfriend. so that i'll feel loved.
i want to get my own house. so that i'll have the independence i've always wanted.
i want to open my own shop/cafe. so that i can be proud of my own creation
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economics is right in one aspect. unlimited wants.....
but they can't be fulfilled due to the short term obstacle namely the upcoming common tests.
save me.

aye. two weeks counting down. 3 VAs, PW, 2 revision packages, and 6 different subjects to study for. i've got hockey matches, chalet, drama auditions, tuition on the itenary for next week, and i still haven't completed my task of going to watch movies, going to borders with kris, holding a bake sale, and going ice skating for this holiday. like they say, life never goes according to plan. oh wait. was there the ubin cycling trip too? damn.

thanks kris for getting syuusuke to my side (: and hope you enjoyed taiwan. we'll drop out of school together one day and i can bake you and you sell them on the streets and together we'll build an empire from that! muahahaha.

i'm getting delirious from reading so much. the whole week, i'm on my third book now. finished a romance novel, trudi canavan's first book to the Age of Five trilogy: Priestess of White and i'm on Lian Hearn's Across the Nightingale Floor: first book to the Tales of the Otori trilogy. I have to add Trudi Canavan and Lian Hearn to my favourite authors list, which so far includes Judith MacNaught, Rachel Caine, Cecelia Ahern and Jacqueline Carey. ( i may have missed out a few others, but that means they didn't make a big enough impact for me to remember. J.K Rowling, Jodi Picoult and Mitch Albom comes close enough)

time flies. i don't know how other people are able to do so much within a day while i do so little. its unfair. do they stop time? i wish i could.

i felt that my blog was left too lonely after i visited some very colourful fellow teammates blogs', so i thought i should make at least a little effort in posting about my very unneccessarily stressed up life which i sometimes wish to make dramatic changes to.

i rarely post in the mornings, just that i was already too damn asleep to post last night. u18 tournament now. and we're in the semis! not a very proud position to be considering there's only 4 teams in the whole tournament. i partially-sprained my ankle on the first match while slipping on the pitch (first time at that. the spraining part, not the slipping.) i would call this week hockey week. mon to sun. with the exception of today's cancelled/miscommunicated walkover match, it was training, match, training, match & friendly, training, supposed match, match, and to be continued.

my bank account is slowly being drained dry. so much for saving up the next few years for culinary school. somehow i'm just an occasional (forgetful) moneylender and i can't remember if i lent anyone anything. until they're nice enough to return.. plus i've just been spending so much on well, food. it's my first love. damn the economy for causing inflation. my love is becoming very expensive to maintain due to that.

common tests. like its very common when it comes once a year..maybe just to make us think that the tests are so common we shouldnt' worry about it at all? i wish. but that is what my current mental state is in right now. no mugging, no time to mug, don't want to mug, got things better to do than mug, don't like to mug, thus don't bother to mug. i half-wish that that would change. more towards the wishing-it-doesn't-change side.

i think its enough yea? have fun during the holidays people! that's what they always say. but do we even now?

i had inspiration on the bus to write a story about 'a fallen angel' . thanks to a song on my mp3.

i thought i should start here.the chapters may not be in order though. i might start writing the middle first (:



A fallen angel



She lay there motionless. Seemingly in a puddle of light, the white translucent material barely covers her body as hundreds of people gather round her, staring, gaping, amazed, or just plain perverts. Some took pictures of the beautiful sight, some just got bored and moved on thinking it was an advertisement stint. Eventually, people left her alone where she was, in the middle of the street, looking vunerable and fragile, alone, very much alone.



He walked up to her, knowing that she was the one. Lowering himself beside her, he knelt beside her head, studying her perfectly contoured features, commiting them to an everlasting memory. He lowered his head, his long straight hair forming a curtain to frame both their faces, as he positioned his moist lips directly above hers, centimeters away. Using the lightest ever breath, he blew gently through her partially open lips.



The world tilted as her wings of light appeared on her bare back. It was the most magnificent pair of feathered objects he had ever seen, but unfortunately, it was gone within a second, only to be seen again in his memories.