green muffin cups don't compliment my muffins ):

halloween themed inspirations (: think strawberries.

interesting. gossip. but still, they are just mini ways of entertaining and inspiring oneself.

i should be studying chinese. i tried, i really did. but i went off schedule when i pressed the snooze button on my phone alarm to start getting back to chinese half an hour ago. i promise myself, i'll get at least 8 hours of sleep tonight. means i've got 2 hours of awakefulness left.

i had a dream. during my very short 15 minute power nap this afternoon. Boats. characters involved are a modern pirate team, a 'merchant' ship/giant inflated float, and my team, a volunteer rescue team. we were all out at sea. a very clear and shallow one. pirates chasing the victims, we trying to catch up to the victims before the pirates do. they go under the bridge of this BIG HUGE ASS SHIP to avoid the pirates- who were creating seawaves??? to apparently capsize the victims/giant inflated float. pirates caught up, capsized the float and its occupants. we-the rescue team caught up to the whole entourage 5 seconds later, to flip the boat back upright, using only human force, and that was done REALLY easily (considering it was a giant float....) and then the pirates took the float for themselves. the previous occupants who were the 'victims' and just standing around the waist-deep water. we all are. the rescue team huddles up all the victims.....and my phone alarm rang. 15 min nap's over.

what a weird dream.

chinese. i need to pass.

!&^%$#@

i thought i backed everything up. except NOT ALL my contacts were in my SIM card. and thus i lost 200-300 contacts just like that. and i've only recovered 67 so far. in 2 hours. not bad though.

-12.10am

CHINESE A's IS IN TWO DAYS' TIME. 

i should be fretting by that statement, but i'm not. i wonder why. i haven't been making any effort to up my chinese level as of since 2 weeks ago. 

i still hate being sick.

Dolly's Macs surprise!

those who were there.

YOU GUYS DON'T GET TO EAT THIS NICE CAKE (:

'MINE!'
(:
'ahhh...'

Dolly and dolly.
'CHOMP'

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I don't know why i've been so tired, so lethargic this weekend. Having afternoon naps are rare for me, yet i had did it two straight days in a row. Might be hormonal imbalance, or just the effects of the viral fever which i haven't fully recovered from.

ADHD. I might be suffering from it a little. Explains the lonliness and possible emo-ing. Go away. Disappear.

Speculative thoughts.  

-26th October 2008

a supposed hald an hour nap turned to 3 hours. 

sleepy...

the birthday girl on the 17th, she turned 17!
it was good cake. thanks XY for choosing such a pretty and YUM cake from swiss bake!

Halloween should have been on the 13th. the moon was so nice and bright, hanging over the NJC campus. the photo looked much nicer on my phone than on my comp :/

just two more weeks, and SCHOOL can officially be over with PW GONE. (:

can't wait for that.

'V power!'

'NOOOO........',

'zzzzZZZzzz'

'Ouch.'

He turns his head away in anguish and sobs halfheartedly. She just continues mocking him with utmost pleasure. 

'My camwhoring days are over! I can't even look at the camera now, and its all her fault,' M thought. 

'But you can't let her win, you are HIMBO for a reason! Hugely Impressive Male Babe Objects do not easily give up in the face of bitchy BIMBOs. Basic Inimical Muddle-Brained Objects are not to be feared!' This little pep talk from his self conscience geared him up for the next round of verbal volleys, unaware of the lone onlooker observing from the sidelines.

'Haven't had enough taste of defeat yet M?' V sneered as she leaned back in the plastic chair.

'V-chaaan, I'm soooo sorry, but you know the little cute-sey acts that you just did, was exactly what my 3 year-old little baby cousin showed me yesterday! You should meet her, you both have a lot in common.I'm sure you'll make great best friends! ' M just smiled, fluttering his long eyelashes, and enjoyed the look of confusion on V's face.

To be continued........

and that will be continued, if there is a continuation (: wahahaha.

i have thought about lots of things, but i never seem to remember them when i want to after for a more specific purpose, like right now, to blog. my flow of thoughts. today:

-on the bus

-there was the group of adolescent boys sneaking bottles of alchohol in a backpack, so proud of their really expensive stash, hoping to drink themselves drunk together with the thrill of being under-aged drinkers.

-they got off at the same stop as me.

-my mind started imagining - if one of them grabs my arm, i'll not panic, put my bag down, and use a squatting flying kick to trip his legs or jerk his knees forward. at my mercy (insert evil laugh) more ways to counter against man-handlers rose up in my mind.

- gymnasts can do a flying kick to the face because they are flexible enough.

-'Stick It! the movie has great gymnasts.

- I wanna be able to do a pull-up!

and i gotta sleep. 

i miss you girls

12.08am

it's raining.

joints aching.

taste nothing.

feel twisting.

and my mom know just how to cheer me up. shopping vouchers (:

omg. this is so cool. i've actually got a dress made for me!

the pamela dress.

I can't believe i fell sick today. woke up feeling like a deadweight, with a temperature almost 1.5 degrees higher than a normal person's body temperature. some medication and more sleep did wonders. feeling sick is totally horrendous, even if is means i get to skip boring chinese lessons.

possible causes people have been telling me why i got sick

1) training out in drizzle yesterday afternoon

2) not enough sleep

3) (my own conclusion) my body and immune system was weakened from PT, then i played in the slight drizzle, letting the fan blow my hair dry, then i fell asleep with an ice pack wrapped around my ankle has caused the inconvenient sickness.

well as the doc said, viral fever. body aches are shitty. and i just slacked the whole day watching the bimbotic bitchy season two of Gossip Girl. 

school's shitty. see you tomorrow?

today's PT was not too bad.

besides the screwed up beep runs. got high on the ladders.

monday training. then had a himbo-bimbos dinner. rather insteresting.

OCS visit today. wasn't too bad. the place was pretty nice, and kinda misleading. combat rations were edible, and i felt like having a jungle survival kit. seems handy.

and i'm too emotional nowadays. ta.

FIRSTS.
First best friend: I believe it was a girl named Hannah or Pei Qi in kindergarten, or rather Bernette from HPPS (:
First car: Some China-made and bought Ferrari remote-controlled car.
First date: Memorable
First real kiss: Wouldn't know yet.
First break-up: Forgotten. as promised
First screen name: Pammie.
First self purchased album: Mika Nakashima -The End, and it was only last year..
First funeral: Father's father.
First pets: Crow, terapins, hamsters.
First piercing/tattoo: Primary one or two, for my first pair of earholes. which got infected. now, i've got four (:
First credit card: Within the next 5 years.
First true love: If they were true, i wouldn't be alone now.
First enemy: My enemies are insignificant. The insignificant are forgotten.
First musician you remember hearing: Celine Dion - My Heart will go on.

LASTS.
Last cigarette: Don't even want the first.
Last car ride: Three hours ago, back from school.
Last good cry: During Stalia Estrellas 06' pre-Dance Party.it was nice to have someone hold me.
Last library book checked out: the receipt i found says ' South of the Border, West of the Sun -Haruki Murakami and Virgin River- Robyn Carr' 31st Jul 2008
Last movie seen: Mamma Mia! at Cathay with a fellow himbo and bimbo. or Mr & Mrs Smith on Channel 5
Last beverage drank: Transparent, clear, colourless, hydrogen-oxygen atoms in a liquid. 
Last food consumed: Nissin Instant Noodles 
Last phone call: Father.
Last time showered: An hour ago.10pm.
Last shoes worn: Aasics running shoes.
Last CD played: That would a year ago - the first CD i bought myself.
Last item bought: Meiji Yoghurt from Cool Shack in NJC
Last annoyance: My dad. or, the day itself.
Last disappointment: Myself.
Last time scolded: If nagging's considered, yesterday.
Last shirt worn: Crescent yellow cotton PE shirt.
Last website visited: Google. to check Virgin River's author.
Last word you said: Delifrance?
Last song you sang: Trudy, the red nosed reindeer...
What is in your CD player?:  Don't have it anymore. Computer player...Orange Range and YUI.
What colour socks are you wearing?: Was wearing. favourite Daiso white, pink & blue striped sock.
What colour underwear are you wearing?: Charcoal
What's under your bed?: Clothes, another mattress, Math & Biology& Geography files, old Sunday Lifestyles,Black Magicians' trilogy, several other books....  
What time did you wake up today?: 6.30am
Where do you want to go?: Japan/Spain/Greece/Paris/London/Australia
What is your career going to be?: If i could decide it...a co-book cafe-owner cum pattisier cum hotel owner/manager.
Where are you going to live?: sunny lil' Singapore.
How many kids do you want?: 2  or 3. twins would be nice.
Their names?: Rei, Alcuin, Phedre, Akkarin, Alexia, Rin.... 

CURRENT.
Current mood: reminescence -ing
Current music: Laugh Away -YUI
Current taste: night breath.
Current hair: Down.Clean.
Current clothes:  Crescent Pe shirt and red FBTs.
Current annoyance(s): Not doing work at all.
Current longing: To have nothing to do with school.
Current desktop picture: A xanga-downloaded picture of pine tree shadows with sunset background.
Current favorite artist: Jonas Brothers & On/Off
Current book(s): The Harsh Cry of the Heron (haven't got the motivation to read it) -Lian Hearn
Current color of toenails: whitish-yellow, pink, grey.
Current time-wasting wish: Sleep. Bake. Sew. Read Manga. Make another pointless friendship band for myself.
Current hate: Upcoming H1 Chinese A Level Paper.

11.12pm

Reasons i rather take the bus than my dad's car.

1. Buses are more predictable in timing.

2. There are no route detours.

3. Buses are less jerky.
4. I don't have to talk, let alone argue with anyone on the bus, getting my blood boiling. 
5. I get to listen to my own music.

6. I feel less constrained and have more freedom and independence with taking the bus. 

7. At times, the journey home can be faster taking the bus than the car(refer to point 2)

8. The bus is more considerate. (i.e. Doesn't horn at others on the road)

9. I rarely encounter bus drivers with mood swings.

10. Basically, i'm much happier taking the public bus.

i was going to blog. and then i fell asleep

later today then.

c'est la vie.

what drama.

i was all in the rage to blog, then i lost it somewhere after dinner.

i came home early today, with the intention of sleeping and baking. which i only managed to complete the latter, since i spent 2 hours travelling home, by going to tiong to do both shopping and window shopping. i have washed my hands temporarily off PW.

tonight's dinner prepared by me.

vanilla assorted muffins! which aren't that nice, and taste a little like the chinese steamed cake.

a computer geek's paradise? [the congregation of siblings' laptops]

the new social gathering over dinner. i'm still talking to my friends over a meal (:

i need sleep.

i have officially not touch PW for over 2 weeks. i know i'm supposed to be a role model, and we ought to have done some A LOT of stuff the past week for PW since promos ended. but no, my group hasn't touched a thing about it since. except maybe tabs. time's running out, and i'm still stoning around the house doing nothing useful or beneficial to my life. life's seriously boring when you don't have a purpose. its ironic, i wanted to do so many things when i didn't have time to, and now when i finally do, i don't do anything at all. it's downright asshole-ish.

Last friends

I at the same time want to be like Michiru, and know that i'll never will be like her, and definately can't. Having such wonderfully close friends, its a blessing, but the problems in her life would be either too much for me to handle, or that i'll run from them as soon as it surfaces, instead of hanging on.Ruka's pretty. Takeru...he's nice. It's cool to have a bartender/make-up artist as a best friend.

but at least today the baker's been revived (: new oven, but then school has to start and deprive my time from baking. also, my diet plan to stop snacking will be completely blown to shreds.

Dear Akkarin,

I'll miss you dear.

Your faithful follower.

the completion of The Novice. On to The High Lord.

i miss those times. and wishes got to relive them last night (: although each of us has moved on with our different paths, the paths still manages to make occasional detours to 48 University Walk and its as though things never changed. our childish, girly sides just emerge right out as we make ourselves comfortable in the room or in the basement entertainment room. the sleepover definately came at the right time .

and yesterday started out with starting on the Black Magician's trilogy, even though i haven't finished the Harsh Cry of the Heron as it wasn't as interesting. The Magicians' Guild is definately more my kind of captivating books. I didn't put the book down until the last minute before i had to leave the house, and go shopping and queensway alone for some stuff i wanted to get. (i didn't know ankle weights could cost aup to 45 bucks ): i guess i'll just have to search out my brother's pair) Went on to school in time to practice a few scoops taught on sat's self training, before playing frisbee with a really big crowd of 2 teachers, 3 J1s and about another 12 J2s. my throwing still sucks, catching too, but playing ultimate frisbee on a third of the school's soccer field with almost strangers was pretty exciting, and definately tiring.

Left early to go on to val's, dropping by sue's house to check if she was alive. well, she was, doing her jap homework and so i just sat on the floor reading to wait for her. but i left soon after to go on to val's first. stace was already there with val and her two brothers, watching ome videos on the net. then came dinner! my observation for that day which divided us into two factions: those who eat rice for dinner and those who don't. no rice faction: val, her two brothers and her twin, stacey. no wonder for all their great figures. the other faction: the rest of us. haha. so on with the night....MOVIE MARATHON! started out in the living room, then on to the basement for the rest of the night and the next morning. with at least 4 pillows, numerous cushions, and another 4 to 5 quilts, the basement floor and couch was our beds for the night. me and cui even had our 'midnight' snacks for maggi noodles at 2am.nikki conked out from the start (most probably due to basketball training exhaustion), one one by one we all conked out at different times. cuitian's our movie marathon survivor winner!haha. ok, i watched about 5 and a half movies, since i fell asleep in the middle of the forth movie. the 5th and 6th movies were watched this morning when we woke up, after breakfast.

movie marathon order:
1) How She Move (dance[step])
2) Devil Wears Prada (chick flick)
3) Step Up 2 (dance [hiphop])
4) 10 Things I Hate About You [chick flick]
5) Centrestage (dance [ballet])
6) The Leap Years [local]

Also, i really hate being sick the past month plus. different degrees of cough, flu like symptoms, and today was especially bad after the usual sneezing ritual i'll get whenever i'm at val's.

well. i need to go sleep. somemore.