a month. and i shall only blog this statement.

batam pictures for you guys to download. they are compressed into 8 folders! plus one is for videos. this is easier than uploading to a online photo album where you would have to download one at a time...and you don't want to repeat that 400+ times! so praise me for my consideration (:

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training was tiring today. from the accumulated exhaustion from YLTC and training and lack of sleep probably.well at least i'm gonna enjoy my weekend off in batam with WISHES! (:

kris came over to bake CORNFLAKE COOKIES, and in the end we ate quite a substantial amount of it. but there was also chocolate cornflakes ! wahahah. well we pigged out, and ate smores too! except that the last batch of smores we made went up in flames in the oven. literally.

haha. i forgot about the marshmallows in the oven till i smelt it. burning. i opened the oven door to find the top half in flames. and opening the door made the flames only bigger. well the house was filled with smoke for awhile, but it was an enriching experience. the pictures will explain it all. (kris took a video of us disecting burnt marshmallows too! )

don't they look like volcanic rock?

my rainbow cornflake cookies!

Remember: marshmallows are FLAMMABLE (:

sleep!

the end of YLTC. end of Os. end of most sec school proms. including crescent's.

YLTC was a great experience really. go COURAGE! well i really can say that i learnt things from this camp, about myself, and about others. we didn't win the overall prize (3 bottles of 100 plus), but we did win one event - the outdoor cooking. and i would say that i didnt do much. as in didn't contribute much to the thinking/planning process nor the assembling of it. i just cooked, or turn on the fire for them to cook. and i did doubt their idea which took so much time and effort. so, overall i'm glad we managed to clinch those points.

There was the flag and points sytem, morning PT, land expedition to pulau ubin, sea expidition from changi to east coast (kayaking), improvised rafting, dragon boating, outdoor cooking, station games, and least but not lear, the FINAL CHALLENGE.

crazy i tell you, walking back from NTU to NJC, starting at 5am a tthe morning.we walked pretty fast (jogged mostly towards the end), took breaks, which included one at the coffeeshop, and made it back within 5 hours.a big accomplishment to me, and i can say that i enjoyed the walk (: but i still don't understand how the other teams could have walked back so fast even if the distance was shorter.

busy busy. with no idea what. ok maybe some idea....manga. and hockey.
that's why i can't believe i missed halloween. i was aware that 31st was approaching, the night before i remembered that it was halloween, but once i fell asleep, the thought of halloween disappeared, for 24 hours. today i woke up, 1st Nov. and HALLOWEEN's OVER.
i didn't go trick or treating, i didn't wish anyone happy halloween, neither did i attempt to celebrate a special holiday. i guess the only difference i did was to eat ice cream at one in the morning, but by then halloween was over already! sighhss.

i spent my official start of the holidays' first weekend and monday doing absolutely crap...which is reading manga. i don't regret getting myself addicted to the computer screen and laughing maniacally at pictures. but i do agree it is a waste of time. that time passes so fast while reading. so really i should read faster, or time should slow down - which is impossible, so i should learn to read faster. so much for wanting to get a job and discipline myself.

it happens everyyear, every holiday. i tell myself to get a job and earn some cash to spend, but it usually never happens. i'll just hunt for the jobs, then fantasize working at the place and money will be made in my dreams.stop chickening!

i can't wait for the upcoming trips though..

school's out. officially. but i'm still gonna go back for training in 1.5 hour's time.

classroom's clean, empty, void of anymore 06ip01 students.

yesterday -
sometimes just seeing a cute guy's face on the bus just makes my day. and then i reach home alone to discover irritating little mistakes and it ruins the day.

today i can officially say that i have witnessed the ' win at the last second'. literally. as the timer was already at 0 when the aussie men scored. damn nice.



This year's SIHC was not too bad, although i do miss japan's particitiation.

events that happened about 3 and a half hours ago left me in an emotional turmoil. not that i can say it here, but i've calmed down somewhat, and that's life. full of bloody obstacles that cannot be removed, only able to be gone around.

most of the papers are back, no execptional results except for math (further algebra module) which i am proud of. the rest are all passes, and i mean a-few-marks-more-than-borderline passes.and if i did fail a paper, which i obviously did, was getting a 7 out of 25 for my econs. how bloody dreadful is that. even my geog wasn't able to pull it up from the depths of failure.

busy busy week, and yet how am i even thinking of getting a job at this time, before the holidays even start?
and damn you blogger for staying japanese!

i have no idea why everything from my blogger homepage is all in JAPANESE instead of english. i like jap, i would like to learn it and immerse myself in the language....AFTER i learn it? right now everything looks like a mix of chinese characters and curvy scribbled lines.

currently, i shouldn't even be typing this when there's a very good and engaging book to be finished on my lap right now, but the book review will come later. now, is just to update my blog, that i officially ended ASS WEEK yesteday. together with stacey i quote 'we're freeeeeee :D '
not from school yet, but from the clutches of the ever stressful exams.

i wouldn't say there was any celebration which i hoped for, but at least good food, nice company to bitch about others and more GREAT food, i had a good time with trudy and hui juan at plaza sing pigging on LJS. after was contradictory, as (note: the words in bold) after the exams, i went to the national library to read - books. haha, some people might have thought that the exams caused a side effect on me, such that i'm not sick and tired of studying. the difference is that i enjoy reading the books as compared to reading my notes everynight, trying to cram information into my hollow skull.

the benefit of me going to the library was that i picked up great books, one which i finished on the same day which was yesterday, and another i'm trying to finish by tonight, or rather morning. my manga's , dramas and animes have taken the backseat for now, which i found rather amusing that there was something that would even tear me away from my tablet for a whole saturday, from morning, till now.

my thanks and gratitude to certain people who have made my day - xy, for the episodes of gossip girl, hui juan and trudy for accompanying me, when you two could have gone home and enjoyed yourselfs rather than spend time with a difficult person like me, val for trying to encourage me to study all the time and giving me motivation (although i'm not sure if it paid off), and many others who helped me survived the gruelling week. i feel so drama and exagerrated. haha. probably due to mcnaught's perfect fault. and this sounds like a thank you speech i have written after i received an award for an oscar or something. HAHA.

lastly : my favourite author of all time now is Judith McNaught, ever since i picked up my first book of hers to read, i loved it.
another is Marliss Melton, for the exciting Navy SEAL romance she authors.

WAH. now i want to have BOOTS. only if i had nice long legs to even show them off. well...this kind of boots i mean. i like hina's dressing style XD






































and then i read a few posts on SVL and saw people talking about UGG boots and i went to check them out. here. pretty nice, but not for me because i don't have LONG LEGS.sigh

i can't believe takumi cut his hair! those nice long silky black bangs which i love him for.. sigh.he still looks nice though. but i liked his long hair better ):

updated my links. finally. actually it wasn't as outdated as i thought it would be. well. for people looking for links to other people's blogs, don't bother. i use the links as only a convenience for me, myself and i.

home school.
it's such a attractive and appealing phrase and option right now.

i got a place to go for YLTC at the end of this year. i should be happy, i am happy that i am going. until i realized that week is when certain PEOPLE finish their o level papers and are CELEBRATING. i'll miss out on the celebrations. sigh.

i guess life's like that. to get something, you have to sacrifice another. ALWAYS. like i was hoping how final ass week could end earlier so that i could enjoy longer, today i PANIC because i realize there's only TWO more weeks (they pushed it forward a week) to ass week, i haven't started my revision, and i'm so gonna die.

THE END.

i am seriously SLOW in doing my work now. i take a whole SUNDAY meaning about 12 hours to finish a chinese compo which i think is of crappish quality. (includes having tuition and watching high school musical 2 in between and dinner) haiz. my handwriting speed and thinking speed is probably slow too that causes time to fly so fast.

when i'm at home stoning / reading / NOT DOING WORK basically, time flies. and when i'm in school or doing something i dread, time SLOWS. well, it applies to almost everyone i guess. so little time as they always say.

well, for a reflection on my past week. all i can say that it FLEW past, with me reading at least six new mangas, did practically VERY LITTLE work as to what i should have done, and no revision at all. i have no self discipline, no self control, which i have accepted in myself and trying very hard but failing in changing. oh wells. EOYs are just here in a month, so BUCK UP ME.

sigh

i've been so busy with things that i shouldn't be busy with. manga, other blogs instead of this, facebook.and this was supposed to be the week i caught up with my studies.oh wells. you know me anyway. i know myself. and probably won't be able to change anytime soon. and i've been trying to change since primary school? to no avail.

today's highlight.
No Reservations. the movie that is. just watched it with kris today at tiong. surprisingly the theater was not that crowded. great movie i would say. touched my heart. i don't care what others think but it was a nice one to me. maybe cos i'm just a romantic sap. it was just so sweet. then i thought maybe i could have a career as a chef..all those great foods i saw..DESSERTS. i can make them myself! with a fully equipped kitchen and all those ingredients. ahh. food heaven.

well thanks again kris for accompanying me to watch the movie tonight, you enjoyed it too anyway.like you said..i'll consider marrying a chef. all those wonderful foods!

Teachers' day/ Aces Day

kickboxing is pretty fun, and could be a good workout if you do it properly. i pity those who sat around and missed out the fun. the celebrations part was worse. there was no atmosphere, but i have to applaude council for putting up a good show and program.lastly, thank you teachers, since today is probably the only day i thank you.

went back to hpps after that with woon jeck and teresa. it was worth it, going back even though its already the 4th year. i saw and met many other school mates, observed and the experience was pretty wonderful. i would like to thank Mr Lim Ming Liang for bonding our class 6C '03 such that we are what we are today. faces, people change. but our class bond still stays strong after all these years.

went to andrew's house for lunch. pizza delivery to be specific. played blackjack, watched tv, watched movie, that's about it but i would say its a memorable day.
thank you 6cians once again.we couldn't do it without you (:

i thought _____ looked rather cute.

tonight's colours is boring. and i have to stress on that word. sitting in that stuffy minimally air conditioned hall listening to speeches, i think i fell asleep once or twice. dinner was again, minimal.

last year was definately better.much.

i have seriously done nothing this past weekend. and the past two weeks plus next week are supposedly the busiest weeks of this term. due to all those bloody projects and deadlines which i do not appreciate. clarification, i do not appreciate school at all. well if the ministry or some authority reads this and takes me out of school to give my place to some poor kid, i'll feel more worthy and accomplished for having done a good deed, for someone who would actually appreciate school.
but you know what?fat hope. because school is compulsory for all children in singapore. primary school i believe so. but we are obliged to go to school when we come from a family who can afford it. or even if we can't, someone will help put your kids in school. but why do we need everyone to be educated? there's just going to be so much competition out there in the future.

which brings me to another point on an article i read about in the newspaper about people hitting hundred years old. i'm one of them to wish not to live till that long. why? although i'm only 16, i still have a long way to go right? but you see, my body ain't exactly that young no matter how many people tell me that i am. creaking joints, leg problems, it'll get worse in the future. but it's still better than some others out there who'd rather have my body right? and i would have to agree with the columnists views as well nearer the back of today's lifestyle paper on the same article. well it's true isn't it. but i believe that the statistics of the number of people reaching hundred will drop soon. these old people featured have gone through the hardest of times, suffered, experienced, and i would say much more satisfied than many of us now. our generation are spoilt, aren't willing to suffer hardships, and will probably die early due to the high levels of stress created by the over-competitive environment (and the unsastisfactory life they will lead even though they have acquired the bunglow, Merc, Big Fat Company and own an island somewhere in the world). well that's my theory. oh and i have to mention another. when you're big-fat-rich-at-the-top-successful (and most probably mean), there's surely someone who would be jealous and there goes the headline "Assasination attempt successful on XXX CEO of XXX PTE LTD."

i am a selfish little kid who wrote this selfish little post and i don't regret it. one has got to let the pressure out of the pot..before the broth overflows and creates a mess.

Good Luck to prelim takers!

today during chinese class the teacher was digressing as usual, and the topic of maid abuse arose....and there was the ways to abuse a maid. dropping candlewax on the maid was one of the ways and my mind wheeled back to something i read a while back and i almost laughed out loud. kris i think you know what i was thinking about don't you.

well. an eventful day and i've got to endure training later.
an i'm digressing too much from my work.damn.

i have found new motivation to study (motivation does not equal to having the discipline) thanks to ling yi about recommending SMU for a university choice. and i can't believe i missed it out the last time i was university-surfing. i know i still have at least two years more to make a choice, but i rather go into business, it's just not me to do science. anyway. it's either SMU business school now or overseas - australia or japan. see how much influence my friends have on me? SMU offers exchange programs! to all over the world, including australia and japan! that's what's so attractive about the school. and its at bras basah too! near my house and near town. unlike NUS or NTU which is like isolated. they're hostel accomodation looks pretty comfortable too. the apartments looks very much like the post-war 4-storey HDB buildings that are opposite my house, just that it is near SMU and is renovated. They even have roof-top BBQ pits! room rates are a little expensive though, since its location is pretty central.

chinese o level results. out of 3 out of 6 wishes took the exams, and they all got the same grade! B3. isn't 3 such a nice number now? well, i shall wish those who are going to retake the exam at the end of the year good luck, and for all the other papers too. Prelims are definately coming up soon, so good luck for that first! congrats to kris on the expected grade.

photocopy shop assistant sounds like a pretty appealing part time job.

ah. it just hit me in the shower just now that i have no more time left to slack! my work is piling up, and getting harder, and i seriously do not remember much learnt in class.i need to start studying/revising. VAL!! i need your advice/influence!

anyway, lately the artsy side of me has emerged (unfortunately distracting me from my work) and i'm thinking of selling shirts online. well. i guess i can only start on the project of mine after the exams. [i don't remember ever completing any of my past 'projects']

ADVERTISMENT :
Pulchritude
a hand-made jewellery shop that sells really pretty stuff!
go visit it and get something for a loved one.

FOOD FOES/WOES

i think i'm falling sick. again.

anyway. I NEED TO EAT LESS aka control my diet. proof that i eat non-stop and too much is today's evidence - most recently, i ate two bowls of cereal 5 mins ago. look at the time now. starting from this morning - two slices of bread with two sausages and cheese, R-cube i had a pack of chips, 2 muffins, lunch - pastamania's HUGE baked rice. Dinner at home. and Supper [the cereal].

even worse was friday. breakfast - cereal. lunch - PASTA. huge plate which makes the capital letters look like a fullstop. then went out to plaza sing and had LUNCH NUMBER TWO. shared paiku (pork ribs) ramen at ajisen with sneha. movie - little bit of popcorn, CHIPS, maltesers [oh i miss them so] , then AFTER the movie, BEN's and JERRY's. damn. dinner - at home. supper - oh it was the night before. that means i have supper every other night!

STILL i need to control my diet [even the captain says so!] rawr. i'm seriously eating too much and training too little which makes me grow HORIZONTALLY and not vertically.
sigh.

today

i bought my very first CD for myself. as in the first time buying a CD for myself to listen, and not the first CD i own. i've got a few already.[2 to be specific. pathetic right?] well i'm not much of a CD buyer, and i don't really use CDs, so i don't see the point of why people keep buying CDs. i don't even have a CD player, and my tablet doesn't have a CD drive. so. i bought the CD on impluse i would say. i saw the cover, recognized her face in the NANA movie, and i like her songs. and it was on sale. so i bought it (:

here's the cover

yesterday was a good day to blog about, just that i forgot to blog about it last night. well, it'll be nothing interesting to whoever whom reads this, but i found it pretty satisfying.
it was a long day. starting with school and the usual, then it starts from after school, where i go to the library in ages to do some work with an. (point 1) ended up eating first, then drawing a futile graph, then going to sleep. not as productive as i thought i would be. next was drama meeting - lots of laughs, went through some games related to drama, then get chased out of the classroom after the drama meeting just when i wanted to start on one of the homeworks. sat in the canteen with jin yin and rachel, before going for tuition. here's the interesting part - met morgan and qi xuan in ntuc(more like, they found me), then saw tracy walking out of coro! had a really filling dinner, and at the same time the two boys from my tuition class were eating at golden rooster too. off to tuition, and spotted aleee walking out of crown centre! next, nicolle and cuitian found me at my tuition! that cheered my day up considerably. then came news of a certain classmate who was going to join the same maths tuition.sigh.

i would call it a day of chance meetings.

oh yes, drama meeting reminded me of drama senior's farewell - refer to adriani's blog for details. but one of the most important details that i must blog was the visual i had on that day. thee image has been scalded into my brain forever. jeremy humping gimlim as a dare. *shudders* i do believe my reaction was quite amused - laughing maniacally.

well one last thing.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ALICIA! you are the first person to actually get to taste my chocolate cornflakes! a whole box of it too!

harry potter and the order of the phoenix book is greatly insulted by its counterpart movie. just watched it, and if i could, i'll rate it 2 out of 5.
it fast forwards too much, characters are not portrayed well enough, storyline is tweaked, the characters look so old now, and i can barely recognize the accent. only part i liked was the young severus snape. pretty good looking i would say. i have a thing for long hair.harry potter looks ugh. weasleys look fine. so does hermione. and luna lovegood's pretty. love her hair. but overall, the movie was not worth that 7 bucks i paid.

i better finish up that obM post soon. details are already fading from my memory.

i finished harry potter's last book within thirty hours, including sleeping, eating and lazing around. an accomplishment i would say. it was a good book, very well planned, twists and turns, and i suppose i learnt many new words. the english was a little confusing though at times, the phrasing or the sentence such that it had to be reread to grasp the meaning of the sentence rightly[either that or my brain just works slow].
spoilers ahead:

i was quite surprised of the way snape's character turned out, but it seems a little cliche that he actually liked lily and had that kind of friendship. but it was a nice twist, and answered a few questions to his behavior from previous books.
i always thought that harry potter would die in the end [sadist i know], but the end where he ALWAYS rises from the dead, or just can't seem to die is so cliche.again. like 'good always wins/prevails' and 'good will always triumph over evil' that kind of thing. but i guess this book was meant for children, thus 'happy ever after' always stays.
i was sad that all the loveable characters of the story are dead. sirius, albus, lupin, tonks, fred, etc, its just too sad. but i guess some people have to die, as a sacrifice, not everyone can live, and thus its essential in the story that these characters died anyway.
kids shouldn't start reading harry potter at too young an age, such that by the time they get to the fifth book onwards, they should be at least an understanding and mature enough teenager to handle the descriptions of torture, death, and war. and if too young, they may believe that magic actually exists in this world, and grow up deluded. it's probably everyone's wish that there was such thing as magic in the world anyway. i do. so basically, i think they should have an advisory age on the cover or something. the last book is well, heart wrenching at points.

well, good book anyway.

All i can say right now is that cecelia ahern is a writing extraordinair.seriously. all her books have touched me in one way or another(and i'm sure those of you who have read them may agree with me), on life, love, and the funny stuff. Her writing style is different from the other narrative fiction books and really does add a twist of interest to the book. Anyway, this is my book recommendation for the week.
Rosie Dunne by Cecelia Ahern

Back to my boring life. This is the month of July, i have come back from OB Lumut on wednesday, done with my experience in wakeboarding, and have division one semi-finals to win with crescent hockey club this evening. Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix is out in movie theaters and i'm going to watch it after i have reread the book. My best friend's birthday is coming up with mine, and we still have yet to plan a stoney-sweet-sixteen. My parents are away in Malaysia this weekend, and school lessons are officially going to start on Monday, which also means getting back the results from assessment week which seem like so long ago.

Since i need to do something with my weekend, and how everyone supposedly records their OBS/OBM adventures on their blogs, here goes mine(beware a very long and probably uninteresting post):
In general, i would first like to say that i came back with at least a million mosquito bites that wouldn't go away, and fortunately no leech bites. This Trip to Outward Bound Malaysia, Lumut is a Peer Leadership course to help us understand our leadership qualities and how to use them more effectively (which i believe i have learnt nohing much about leadership, and understanding that i value integrity is not helping either) This is a 10 day course which i believe could have been only 8 days.

Bubu watch members include: Pamela, Denise, Xue min, Jillian, Teresa, Chian Siang, Christopher, Amanda, Shu yi, Cheryl, Rachel and Wendy.

Day one 2/7/07
Obviously it would have to start off in Singapore, with all of us gathering at Beach Road at 8 in the morning with either huge backpacks, roller luggages, or in my case a big duffel bag. And so the normal procedures of riding the coach into Malaysia, with customs and all and no hook ups. Like all other coach rides i slept through most of it, with the rest of the bus either eating or being terribly noisy. Thank god for my earphones. But my neck hurt everytime i woke up for obvious reasons of no proper neck rests. And i do believe the air conditioning was bloody cold as well.
We reached OBM Lumut headquarters nearly 7 in the evening i think, a little introductions to Hairunizam aka Izam (course director and a short cute man), Amri aka Am (instructor), Fauzi aka Fauzi the shortcut man (instructor), and Sarah aka Sarah the First Aider (instructor/ intern staff who is only 18 and from England after completing her A levels), oh and not to mention Mr Liew, who came from Singapore with us to facilitate the leadership part of the course.
Next was to put our stuff down into the dormitries before dinner, where we headed to the dining hall to eat. The room is pretty plain, but its really nice for a dormitry. Three beds with metal frames and sheets on a comfy mattress, cupboards, table, two chairs, a balcony with curtains as well. Common toilet was clean and pretty nice to use i would say (much better than in the woods behind bushes). Dinner was pretty fine too i guess, and if i remember correctly it was rice and fried chicken and long beans. After dinner is when it seems more like OB, where rules and duties are explained, and the ritual of surrendering all modes of communication, entertainment and food to them.
Here's the interesting part: We had to go back to our rooms to take the items out, so i put the key into the doorlock, turned, and well, the key broke. so we were stuck out of our rooms. there was no spare key around at first, so we were stuck out for a few hours, till they finally found a key to open up the room for us. Denise kept going on about how i was so strong (as i didn't even use any effort to break the key)and 'it's God's will' that the key broke and we were stranded out.it was funny for a period of time, especially when we were freaking about having no place to sleep, can't bathe for the night, can't change and can't get our stuff. well in the end i got to keep the half of the key that got stuck in the door lock as a reminder of the episode. well thus we bathed and did our stuff and fell asleep for the night. Denise and Xuemin were my roommates for trip.
(gosh, this is only day one and i wrote so much. in my diary day one was only what, three sentences long? and i've still got nine more days to go.hope blogger has no word limit, not that i experienced it before)

Day two 3/7/07
woke up bloody early. about 6 in the morning, to wash up and for bloody PT (physical training). never imagined i would still have to do that even out of Singapore. we had to sing the national anthem at 6.30, before we did out PT. breakfast after PT, then we had some free time before we had this opening ceremony for the course including a formal photo session.(looking at the photo, we all looked shit except for a few) i was going to type i don't remeber what happened for the rest of the day for all my diary entry held was "woke up for PT, sang the national anthem, mostly prep work for the next day". but now i do remember.
we played a few bonding games after breakfast, which was the unknotting game where every everyone had to hold hands all twisted up, then try to untangle and get into a big neat circle without letting go of anybody's hands. and the poison river, where we've got 5 chairs, and have to transport people across the river without anyone falling in. Bubu (my watch name)won of course, then after that was the phototaking. in the afternoon, after lunch, we went for this 'mini' jungle trekking to prepare for the next day, which was just to climb to a small peak and down, and that took a few hours. it was already quite a challenge for a few people, and it was then that we realized how much more challenging the climb up Mount Bubu was going to be the next day. i remembered the climb to the peak and down as quite fun, and we realized that fauzi took shortcuts to keep going ahead of us.
Back to the headquarters meant that the leadership workshop was going to start. A guy who came from OBS lead the workshop in diffrentiating our leadership styles and i can tell you, it was BORING. like all those other workshops we have to attend. then came dinner. after dinner was the briefing and the packing for the next day's land expedition : climbing up the second highest mountain in Malaysia, Mount Bubu, 1648km to the peak.i think.
packing was tedious, slept late, like the previous night.and i would say we packed lighter than as compared to the previous year's expedition, or so it seemed. and it was a really long day.
(at this rate, i'll never finish the whole entry before the semi-finals for this evening. i already took more than an hour to get to this point)

Day three 4/7/07
Woke up early as usual, the day of our land expedition. did last checking, packing, sang the national anthem again, and went for breakfast. There was about an hour's very bumpy bus ride to the foot of Mount Bubu. Slept most of it off as usual, even though i just woke up only like 3 hours before.
The foot of Mount Bubu was like a tourist centre. not many people around, but it was civilization and as the instructors supplied, people came to Mount Bubu to see the waterfall. We did more last preparation which is basically applying insect repellent and going to the toilet, before setting off for the climb.
At the start of the climb, i thought i was weak. It was later on that i realized i just wasn't used to trekking with the weight of a very heavy backpack on my shoulders/hips. i do remember in my head there was this quarrel within myself trying to convince my body not to give up, and catch up with the rest. Everyone else looked fine to continue climbing, and i thought i was the only one who was heaving and had difficulty catching up. But they were just as tired as i was (with the exception of yan shan who was sick) so there i was trekking with that bloody heavy backpack on my back with everyone and my mind was blank. as if my feet moved on its on, non stop. There were times on the trek that people called me superwoman, and i just didn't respond, because i thought back to the start of the climb, of my inner mental struggle, and didn't feel like one, didn't feel like i deserved the title. But a small part of me was probably motivated to stay strong i would say. the backpack felt a little lighter and not so much of a burden, i just got used to the weight.
After what seemed like eternity, we reached the stream! for lunch. which meant we were only about halfway to the CAMPSITE.not even the peak. so we ate our pack lunches and went on with the seemingly never ending hike to our campsite. at some point i was digusted at being in the jungle, with all the insects and creepy crawlies (especially when i saw my first leech on the ground. ugh.ew.disgusting) everywhere.and i didn't want to touch anything, or be touched by anything. then i just got used to it.
we reached our campsite after going up and down rocks and trees and roots, to this space next to a waterfall cum stream. everyone just sat down and did nothing for awhile and i got quite pissed. why? because we stopped for many breaks during the trek, slowed down a lot, and arrived at the campsite late. it was past 6, and the sun was going to set in the next hour or two, and everyone was just sitting on their backpacks thinking that they accomplished something great enough they should just sleep. well, yea i got pissed that they weren't moving. but i couldn't do anything about it besides move myself and cook, since i was the chef for the day.
along the way, the tents were pitched, rice was cooked by me, popcorn chicken fried by sneha, and other food stuff prepared. i know like last year, the people who cooked at last, and i didn't get to wash up like the others who pitched tents just because i was cooking. and thus it got dark. ate in the dark, cleaned up, debriefed, and was terrified to use the toilet because leo got a leech stuck on him when he went. thus i hel my bladder till the next morning. which meant that i only went to the toilet twice that day, in the morning when i woke up and right before we left headquarters on the bus. i did change my shirt in the tent for the night, although i knew i sweated like shit during the day, i was pretty much dry and didn't feel that dirty. so off to sleep we went, and it is PITCH DARK in the jungle at night, and it is definately scary for a person who is afraid of the dark. well i'm fine with the dark if there are people around me, but when we had to use our very dim torches at night and do stuff, it sucks.
took me quite awhile to fall asleep, since as rachel put it, we pitched our tent on a sloping slab of rock.thus it was easy to slide to one side of the tent. plus the area i was sleeping on had two tree roots sticking up on my back. i barely slept more than 2 hours i figured.
and it turned pretty cold in the middle of the night.
(and now i barely have time to eat my dinner and i've got to go for the semis. i'll try to finish the rest of the days after i get back, and is most likely to complete the whole entry a few days later.)

(and i'm back to continue with the longest post of the century. we lost the semi finals, i went grocery shopping, bought stuff, came home and baked BLUEBERRY MUFFINS. they were better than delicious.yum.)

Day four 5/7/07
Woke up early due to a really cold morning, managed to get breakfast, go pee and pack a very empty backpack before we set off. We didn't have to unpitch our tents since we were staying at the same campsite that night. so for the day, we were to trek up to the peak of Mount Bubu and come back down. technically it would be a half day trek in total. we went uphill quite slowly i would say, and i was at the front most of the time.the climb to the peak was on really steep gradient as compared to the prevoous day, which was all walking and little obstacles to cross. i liked it when we were climbing up, closer and closer to the peak, and the path was mostly almost vertical already, so it felt like rock climbing, and i like climbing stuff. the peak was pretty small, but the air was so much cooler up there, and we were among and clouds.how cool is that, we got to be in the club before.The climb down was sped up, and we managed to reach back at the campsite before 5, such that we still had time to cook, eat and debrief wil LIGHT. i was in a happy mood, i got someone to take over cooking the rice, i managed to change, roughly wash my hair, pee, refill my bottle and all, i got high and became a little mad for a short period of time. this was the day ________ did something to ________ because i scolded _________ and he/she felt so sad that she/he went to ____ _________. that was all to day four.i love rockclimbing.
(since i'm already falling asleep, i'll continue another day)

Day five 6/7/07
This morning i think i slept quite well, and managed to pack up my stuff rather quickly, unpitch tents, and have breakfast. breakfast was this 3 minutes instant cup porridge where we just have to pour hot water in. The thing is, the porridge looked like bits of styrofoam before the hot water is poured in, not very appettising. thus i made CUP noodle, so much better. we had planned to set off earlier than the previous morning, due to a longer journey back to the foot of the hill, but in the end only managed to move off at nine, with full backpacks and everything. I stayed closer to the back this time, and admit that it was fun trying to catch up with the front, you know, the accomplishment of being able to move fast, something like that.
Stopped for lunch at the stream, the same place as our hike up, and enjoyed it. managed to soak my feet in the nice cold stream,although there was a blister, but it was refreshing. The rest of the trek downhill after lunch went pretty fast, very little stops, and towards the end, we were walking at a really fast speed, jogging to catch up at times. (Leo was leading at the front), thus, we made it to the foot of the hill in record time, with everyone elated, and too early such that the bus to take us back to camp had not arrived. We had an enjoyable hour sitting in the stream, after that was just chatting and waiting longer for the bus. Bus finally came, as usual slept through the ride, and headed back to base.
We had enough time to unpack, clean up the tents, and rest a little before heading off to dinner. i suppose most of the rest of the day was quite free, with a bath and loads of laundry to do after dinner. and then slump down for a nice sleep on a comfortable bed.

Day six 7/7/07
woke up with a really sore body, so didn't get up for a while, which delayed things, and managed to arrive for the singing of the national anthem late. My knee hurt from the point of waking up, the first time through the whole trip. and i suppose i had suffered a headache too, as i brought out the panadol. but didn't take it till breakfast when i had a fever. i was really weak then, lagging behind with lifeless energy during PT, and we played captain's ball after running. i just stood at one corner, didn't run much, to act as a free person nearby to score, but unfortunately, scored none (due to my sucky throwing/tossing skills).i didn't put on my specs nor contacts that morning either, so the morning passed by like a blur, literally. Breakfast was accompanied by a very bad headache and little appetite, but i still managed to eat and wash up, then headed back to the dorms to wait out the next activity. i think i managed to sleep for about another half hour before we had to continue with the leadership workshop cum reflection for the land expedition we just came back from. the fever came back, with a splitting headache, and well things just got worse while i tried to pay attention to a very drony discussion, which i thought was too long winded. my focus was mainly to stop my nose from running so much, and wait for lunch so that i can go eat, then sleep and rest. but i didn't make it that far... (to be continued.)

i've watched two great shows in two days.
Transformers, JUMP! . one's a movie, the other is a martial arts comedy play by koreans. both are so great i have no words to describe it. thus i can only put the title down and tell you (and the future me) that it is a great show.

what am i bloody doing here when i've still got an essay to finish, and 7 papers i have to study for within the next 24 hours. i'm glad the projects and wrapped up, but still think they took far too long.

kris: thank you and i miss them too.

gha: not exactly easy for me to relax like you. haha. but i can't relax even more when i know you're gonna be leaving soon! which part of norway/which school?

i had a really interesting dream last night, but its contents will never make it to this blog. i swear. its too personal. which will probably never come true anyway.
i seriously need to get time off for my knees. once a week games are still aggravating it. the only reason i can't wait to get over with assessment week, slash my motivation (add this to my things to look forward to in july *refer to previous posts)
- acsb carnival
- JUMP performance in singapore (:
- my last div one match with crescent for this year
- go back to being active on SVL
- hopefully to bake more
- don't forget OBlumut and WAKEBOARDING.

i have my motivation back. and apparently my usual sleeping time is 2am now. it better not be permanent.

i have been meaning to blog about the trip after the trip, but guess i did't.
the last post wasn't a kidnapping during which i had access to a computer with internet, it was just me at the airport dreading to go to ho chi minh city for a holiday with my parents and relatives. thankfully i got through it alive and whole,thanks to kris and kushiel and jacqueline.(and alcuin and delaunay, but sadly they did not make it through the trip) i'm not the kind to enjoy sightseeing nor appreciate new culture, thus i didn't exactly enjoy the trip to the fullest. there were good times and the bad, and my skin became horribly dry. trip was only 3 days, so i guess i didn't miss much.

but the rest of my holidays! what the hell have i been doing?
i almost hyperventilated from stress at 2am this morning, because i realised school opens in 3 days time straight into exams, and i haven't finished a very important essay, project work, and probably have no time to study. and here i am blogging. i seem to blog everytime i shouldn't be and when i am supposed to do something else.

I NEED TO GO.

i don't want to go. now i realize the people who accompany you are really important. I DON'T WANT TO GO. and im already at the airport checked in. a little too late.
help me.

you know how i used to silently detest the canoeist in my school? well you probably wouldn't know cause it is SILENT. but i realized now more than ever its probably because of jealousy. jealous that they can be so disciplined, jealous that they have that determination and will, jealous of their fit, toned and tanned bodies.emphasis on the FIT. and TONED.well maybe because i knew subconsciously that i cannot compete with them in terms of fitness, and neither will my body be willing to go through the extremities. so anyway. bravo canoeists. although i still don't support the strict regime.

on the other note.
im not really looking forward to june.although it is the holidays. but if you compare it to july...we'll see.
june is when i
- have to do all the homework and projects for school
- persuade myself to study for the assessment week
- GO THROUGH assessment week
- count down the days i have left of freedom
- feel the holidays fly past
- think that it'll pass fast to go to july

and july is when i
- go for OB Lumut
- go wakeboarding during enrichment week
- celebrate with a certain friend's sixteenth birthday
- can slack a little in school
- know that division one is over
- celebrate my birthday
- go to the library to borrow the new harry potter's book
- know that rachel caine's weather warden's 6th book is out.not in singapore though


look at the difference.
today i officially became vice, and half the team saw my tummy fats.

i realizedi haven't acheived much this year. and i found a reason why. more like a person who has been hindering me rather then supporting me. and no, they aren't my parents. its ms. artina my famously helpful CT rep. first, she shot down my chance at being ogl for this year just because she thinks that i might be too busy with hockey and wouldn't be able to cope.and guess what, i dropped outta milo cup cause my knee is just too old, and the bloody IP rule banned me from playing A divs. i've got no leadership role this year, and no sports record to boast about. so i became pretty much free.and i joined drama. how ironic it is, she taking me out of ogl to free up my time, only for me to join another CCA. since my science research application failed, which i wasn't very keen on anyway,and i've got no electives and such. and ndc and dramafest are over. i'm pretty much free again. till hockey training starts again that is.

now i know why artists can charge so much just by painting and making art works. well because art is one of the most expensive subjects i have known now. the paints, equipment, and stuff are so bloody expensive. especially the top grade ones. i travel to bras basah complex thinking of getting some silk screening materials and a chinese story book for my book review, and BAM. i spent a total of almost 40 bucks there. the book was only $4. so the rest were all art materials and stuff. yea and i spent 2 hours. when i only planned max an hour. oh and the popular bookshop there..is bloody 4 levels, with no lift, and there's a cafe too. sigh

don't even know if i'll get started on this project of mine this holiday.

i am so proud of this two pieces of work that i have made, since i haven't used photoshop for such a long time. i think they're pretty. made it for dramafest's postsecret. and now its no longer a secret.

DRAMAFEST. THIS SATURDAY.7PM. $5 ticket. NJC. COME.

thank you jinyin, bernice, bei xi and puey yee for the pretty little flowers today! although they are like for the hockey girls team for consolation, i think i don't really deserve the flowers although people consider me part of the team.i've not been commited to trainings all that much, i do go down for the games but i still don't feel part of the team. i can talk to them freely, i share jokes, we go out, but its like the passion is gone.all just because i have weak joints. and i feel weird not being able to exercise and im getting FAT. its late too.i feel like i have to do more.
tying a game means that you are equal to or on par with your opponent in terms of overall performance. but by tying that game, the current njc hockey girls team are out of the semifinals.i left straight after their game, for drama. and didn't even go and say goodbye or understand how they were feeling.(because im still this cold hard bitch that can't cry that much) when they went out today, its then that i actually realized how sad they were. maybe i don't feel it much because i haven't gone through the pain this year of having to train hard and play till i almost die.

i'll continue another day since im falling asleep vertically on my chair

today was fun. the world of make believe on college day off-in-lieu.
while everyone else except for njc-cians had to go to school and endure a day of mindless teaching, the part of the njc hockey team went down to delta for a last minute training session.
delta was bloody hot. thanks to the morning sun. im glad i haven't got a burn yet. but a faint tan line as compared to siya. nice shower at delta's finally heater equipped toilet which was redundant today, and off to ikea for lunch. oh and i seriously better start training up SLOWLY. patient is a virtue to my knee because i just hate the pain and consequence after for the next two days.
yes. lunch at ikea.filling.VERY filling.terriyaki chicken and meatballs for me, the rest had similar items or poached salmon. ikea just loves to carbo-load its customers and the hockey team thanks them.
the start of the new world. frogs, horses, rats, octopuses to name the few which took over first, then some just left our world to go back to reality where the shopping sales are.another pleasure. after they parted, the rest of us went shopping - for a comfortable sofa to put in our hockey room to accomodate the team. (an excuse really. and if you still don't know what the excuse is - tired hockey girls after training in a friendly furniture store..) but we ended up in karen's living room, which bei xi's was next to hers, and aleee's next to bei xi's, michelle's (and aaron's and tuckwen's) next to aleee's, mine next to michelle's bedroom. i never knew my living room was so black and classy, with a flat screen tv and drinks bar/table . but i like my living room although i only lived in it for 15 mins. went on to karen's other house, which homeless jia yun was staying in, before saying goodbye to our new found houses.

how i wish it were reality. designer living rooms and us staying next to each other.make believe takes you away from reality for a period of time, takes you away from your pains. and going back to reality from there, will be even more painful than it seemed before.
i really need to start doing my work.



if you could see me now - cecelia ahern.

two months not posting. been wanting to. but just too lazy. and i have to do the bloody consolidation question for LA right now and im not. help.
so far, got runner-up for 3rd National Drama Competition, and Silver for IP drama SYF. the hockey girls are onto the second round for A division Nationals. i'm playing division one for crescent hockey, and i broke my glasses and im not sure if i regret choosing the frame for my new pair. its just, unconventional. you'll see. im planning to go for OB Lumut during enrichment week, there's dramafest coming up, and chem lesssons are REALLY boring now.

i've stopped physio, but still got a month left from PE and im taking napfa in august.bloody. and manga reading, i hope i do well for midyears.

March fact : march used to be the first month of the year. i heard it on the radio and realised then that another fact i read made sense after that.

february 29th, it happens only once in four years right, and why is there an extra day in the second month and not like and the end of the year? well, february 29th IS the end of the year in the past, because march was first!

the fact was : a calendar year is exactly 365days, 5 hours, 48 mins and 46s . so, every four years, the 5hours 48 mins and 46s make up a day - february 29th!

happy feb 29th fuji syuusuke! even though its not this year, happy feb 28th + 17hours plus.

and btw, if a calender year is as the statistics, february 29th would only be 23 hours, 15min and 4 sec. long as the extra time from the four years do not add up to 24 hours.

am i that anti-social? looking through photos, i realise that im not exactly appearing in them very much. i like photos, but most of them not of people. we took a MBTI personality test and guess what :
' quiet, serious, earn success by thoroughness and dependability. Practical, matter-of-fact, realistic, and responsible. Decide logically what should be done and work toward it steadily, regardless of distractions. Takes pleasure in making everything orderly and organized - their work, their home, their life. Values tradition s and loyalty'

i guess for the most part it is true, except for the 'regardless of distractions' part. i started reading a novel 4 days before my assessment week, and here i am watching upcoming movie trailers and blogging when i should be studyoing my chem and physics. back to being anti-social. i have long accepted the fact that i am one, and rather stand out than get squashed in the crowd. isn't that why i'd rather be the one offending people with my 'matter-of factly' attitude than please them? pleasing people is just so much trouble. but some people go out of their way to please people, and i do do that.at times. if i don't do it to you, then you know that you are either on my black list or just an aquaintance. teachers in school keep telling you how important reflections and we are to write reflections for something we did wrong, and when we think of doing reflections, we think of 'we should be sorry of our actions'. but lots of people reflect. by blogging, some people are actually reflecting on their day, their emotions, while some others are just typing crap. i reflect everyday, and that causes me to stone and waste much time. so would it be better to just sit around and reflect or stop reflecting and use the time to do more important things, time which i can use to complete projects which i started on or even think of starting.i procrastinate. too much. and even though i tell myself to just do it and get over with. sometimes there are people i don't exactly get along with, but still treat them better than others. probably because they quote from wen loong and gang ' dare to be different'. its good to be different. isnt' that why people hate it when they are being copied, or imitated?

irony : people want to be different yet the same. different such that they can stand out as an individual,not as a clone, not as a shadow. the same out of insecurities of the fear of being alone. i know some of my strengths and weaknesses and try to change them, but with minimal effort. i don't like trouble and that could be counted as a weakness, and a strength at the same time. i'm blabbering off like some demented teen with social issues and i don't know if its a strength or a weakness so im just going to stop right here.

nope. not yet. i do miss some people. like they say 'you don't know good it is till its gone.' i am no cold-hard bitch. just a logical, matter of factly girl, who rather think than produce facial expressions.do keep in touch.

dang. im blogging when im not supposed to be blogging, especially when i have a ih article evaluation to finish tonight. ass week coming up, under 21 matches still quite horrible, and i still get pissed with the class everyday. WHEN WILL IT STOP? when someone is gone then yes. or maybe still no.

nothing else on.

i've been wanting to post about lots of issues, but i never seem to have this discipline of sitting down for a while to talk about my thoughts.so thus far, you don't get to read many posts. i'll try to remember the next time. but don't count on it. so here's my thought for the day:

1. dressing appropriately in school and why do the teachers nag so much? well. first i would like to say that one of the reasons that i don't really like my juniors is because they are seriously having this attitude problem. i don't blame them though. just blame peer/social/western influence. and that we are of a different generation. this is what i concluded: its generation thing with the uniform. i look at the year before me seniors, their uniforms are actually more tucked in than our batch, and our batch is more tucked in than this year's juniors. as time goes by, the age at which we start bowing to social /peer/ western influence is getting younger. we want to be 'cool' by learning from our seniors (how cliche: seniors should always set a good example / be a role models for your juniors !) just to be popular, among our own peers. be the one to 'start the trend'. people will start following you, and it'll feel good (for the desperate attention seekers). back to my point. that's why our shirts are all coming untucked.earlier.

but there's a line between appropriately dressed and just plain untidy poser wanna-be(in my terms). appropriateness such that you are presentable , and can actually face people outside , giving a first impression that you aren't an asshole. shirt tucked in, but tucked in meaning i don't see the ends. i mean, different people are comfortable with varying lengths of their shirt. not everyone can stand tucking in their shirts all the way. when the end sticks out, it just looks horrible. for the bottoms, so long as it isn't slipping off the butt/boxers/underwear/thong/g-string, showing butt-cracks and whatnot that people don't desire to see even if you have a hot ass. skirts. just make sure you don't look like a whore/slut/hooker.

as for the teacher nagging part. im going back to refer to the point of generation. they are much older than us, more conservative. they think of they're own school days of the meanest discipline masters they could ever have, and obey all rules.and they don't exactly care about the school's fashion statement.just tuck it in. EVEN if it looks neat tucked in. i mean. for tucked out shirts, we could have ran about, jumped up and down, waved our hands in the air, and didn't notice our shirts coming untucked. and then the teacher walks pasts so coincidentally and starts the nagging. but students, at least TRY to 'tuck in' such that it doesn't come out and waste teacher's salivas and protect our ears.teachers, so long as it looks neat. leave it be.

i would like to applaude the nerds though. although i shouldn't be stereotyping them. but they're the group of people who don't conform to the trends, and actually dress in their own way. in other words, brave enough to dress differently and ignore all the idiots. and we, the ever must-look-the -same-dolls syndrome, condone such individuality as a bad thing.shame on us. although i don't think it'll ever change. it's just human nature.

2. shutting ips out of a' div tournaments, competitions and syfs. in my opinion, that's just trying to tell us 'don't get a cca. you won't be able to do anything like win medals or the claim to fame. just mug.if you do join the cca.waste your time training/practicing. there's nothing to practice for anyway.' so what. even if it was our choice to go to ip, didn't we come to experience MORE? why would it be unfair for the other JCs not having ip? if the ips are actually younger, wouldnt' they be less experienced as the jc students when competing? as foe the concern of ips having more experience when they reach JC level to compete, the JC students just have to work harder to claim medals from students of the same age as them.


feel free to retort. im outta juice.

school started. nothing new. besides being in ip2 and not ip1. and damn new stuff to learn. not very enthusiastic about that part.im desperately still trying to change my bad habits and am not successful as yet. i shall strive harder i suppose. and better time management. dang. that's hard.

five books in five days. that's what i have accomplished. shortest being 270 pages and longest is 401 pages. all paperback.

another thing i've realized for 2006, it was the year i read the most books, or even had a healthy interest in reading. well, i doubt i'll have the time for it next year. im gonna miss it.the sitting down reading tiny words at funny angles, not caring about what's happening around me, letting hours float by without care, and losing myself in the world that made my imagination run wild. goodbye.for now.

happy new year. well spending my new year a little different from others, instead of either falling asleep and missing it completely, or just watching the countdown before i go and snooze, i stayed up real late last night/this morning. slept at the time i would have to wake up in two days time. where was i? heheh. still at home, curled up in my room and finished the forth book of weather wardens by rachel caine. the fact that i didn't fall asleep till i finished the book was partly fueled by the two cup noodles i ate at four a.m and i slept in the bus for most of the day back from KL.
i suppose new year is not that a big deal to me, it comes every year, unless the world's just gonna end like that. or that im gonna die to miss the next one.but well, a new year just means that im propelling into one year ahead of harder education, more responsibilities, and more change.and closer to the end of the world. isn't it?

well before i can go on to the new year, several things happened in the last few weeks of 2006.
first i turned almost-blonde as mentioned by a few friends and now im back to supposedly-black. quite a highlight of my december. then there was the crescent carnival, and for once i wasn't playing for crescent, then there was nicolle's birthday. a great day, again, details on val's blog (: and nicolle's present is still in front of me, how pathetic can i get goind to a party without the present.haha. there was stacey's musical as well.details on val's blog again.

i was in genting the past four days, with my parents, and not exactly had a say in going or not.which i didn't want to. but i finished three books in three days, so much for a holiday, and slept most of the fourth away. genting consisted of reading, reading, eating, reading, shopping, most of the shopping in midvalley mall on the third day. i actually managed to get some exercise at the genting gym, which i would not have if i stayed at home. we didn't buy much of clothes, more of groceries at carrefour. like we can't do that at suntec. oh wells.

my links aren't exactly updated and i don't intend to anytime soon, so feel free to surf them to get to dead ends or if you're lucky, get to an active blog.

happy new year, hope i get a different year.