another dream.

It was....something I didn't expect.

I was out at some event, and fast forward, I made out with two guys on some staircase landing (not both at the same time of course). Well, the surprise was that the guy was jl, and the relationship is too complicated to even consider starting anything with him. Nonetheless, the feeling was sweet. Second guy, same social circle, but I don't remember a thing about it. I guess the shock of remembrance wore off after the first one.

gold.

Is winning gold all that matters?

Yes, if it's everything you ever wanted, everything you ever worked for, worth all the sacrifices you've ever made, and everything your loved ones wished for you. For you to achieve that dream, it's never a solo effort. So remember those who helped you along the way, and thank god that they were there for you.

Make it or Break It. ABC family. Season 2.

It's been such a long time since I stank so badly.
And I'm sure to be aching from neck to calf tomorrow.
But it was fun (:

Work wise, I've seen a new person come in, and is leaving already. Yes, it's a repetitive job, and I guess for one who is trained in the wider arts of pastry, this job is like an A level student doing PSLE. Anyway, my job, really is all about multi-tasking. AT A SUPER LEVEL. You've gotta put bread in and out of the oven to bake, note the time for bread proofing in the oven, anticipate which breads are going to run out in 2 hours time and do it ahead, and KEEP COUNT. Yes, that's a pain in the ass, the counting. Slows everything down, but I guess we've gotta keep track. Yes, multi-tasking and time management, plus doing things as fast as possible without burning or over-proofing any breads, cutting inconsistently, knocking things over, or burning yourself. That's my job. And I just worked 2 consecutive 12-hour shift days[about there] on nichiyoobi to getsuyoobi. Subarashi ne? Tsukareta e.

I've had two dreams the last week. Which I managed to remember because I typed them down on my phone when I woke up. But I won't go into detail [tsukareta karadesu]. One took place in America-San Francisco, where me and my family were stuck in some building amid a hurricane storm that trapped us in. And the other, was about ant infestations, and Val's golden retrievers - Coco and Angel with some other mutt, chasing me somewhere.

hello! it's been a while now.
and GRADUATION NIGHT is over!!
oh yes, i've been busy busy, baking, shopping, slacking. fretting.
A little more than a week has passed since the last post, and since then, some things have changed. like, how i'm OFFICIALLY FREE FROM A LEVELS, SATs are done!, and so is grad night, and bakesale is underway!

Warning: Exteremely long, draggy post ahead. Do not read when short on time, only when you are terribly free and bored with your own life and is interested in mine, read at your own risk.

it took me this long to type this post due to me being lazy to type out an ultra long post complete with pictures, plus my typing speed has been reduced dramatically from typing inactivity. Now, to facilitate my memory bank, we shall go in chronological order, starting from

30st Nov, Monday.
With only one paper to go, the hockey girls went down to CCAB early in the morning to join the juniors' training (we were still late anyway...) george was around, so we hit around by ourselves on half the pitch, did passes, the juniors did their own drills with george. played a mini 3v3 game with the juniors, on like 1/8th the pitch? sighs. what terrible waste of pitch. SAJC had booked the pitch after us, so george couldn't drag, hence we girls went for lunch at adam food centre after.
After much delaying, I followed vinnie to school to mug for bio MCQ in the canteen while she had consult with a teacher. I did only one paper in that uh, 4-5 hours I was sitting there? Mostly attempting to sleep. Didn't even touch the hugeass SATs book i borrowed from matt's friend and dragged around (for a few days too, thinking i would open it.) Went home before the sidegate closed, feeling so underproductive. But it's just Bio MCQ right?

1st Dec, Tuesday

I decided to go down for training in school again this time, as an excuse to stay in school to mug and make up for the previous day. Since George wasn't going to be around, it was another incentive. Derek and Felix came along too, and after that hot hot training under the sun(which i got a mild sunburn from -_-), we had Cai Fan for lunch! yum. Talked in the canteen while it rained, so the guys couldn't go home, and when it did stop, I went up to the library to join the library gang to mug. It was a revelation that day - SH1s have compulsory study sessions in the library ( i believe they're basketballers). But other than library gang (H3 econs people), bio people (me and gwen), and basketballers, there weren't anyone else again. Bottomline, unproductive again. did another paper, slept, and went home early.

Met the Crescent Hookers for dinner at Spageddies (O. Central )! Had a nice dinner, nice chat with everyone at Starbucks, before I had to leave cause my parents insisted on picking me up (and then reprimanding me for going out before exams are over -_-

@ Spagheddies!

2nd Dec, Wednesday- one day to Bio MCQ paper

Ariel's sendoff! Went to the airport to say farewell to ariel who's going back to Vietnam. GONNA MISS YOU SO MUCH FASHION ADVISOR! Yes, dear ariel's my personal fashion advisor and the coolest fashionista I know! I arrived late (seems to be a habit of mine now), joined the class girls at Popeye's, before helping ariel check in. There were a few problems, but all ironed out before she went in the gate. See you again next year celebrity!

 

gonna miss you ARIEL!<3

so after she left, we, the class girls, headed to T3 to sightsee a little, while I sat at coffeebean waiting for them as i tried to do Bio. Yes, i know, what a killjoy I am. Went home soon after because I couldn't keep awake. So much for Bio Preparation.

3rd Dec, Thursday - Bio Paper 3 day, day of end of A levels!

The end of A levels was nothing memorable, besides sitting at a table in the hall for an hour and 15 mins. Perhaps because we started going out and relaxing the week before, that when the paper ended, there didn't seem to be this overwhelming sense of relief that I expected to wash over me. So I went out with Vinnie only - to watch New Moon. I wouldn't say I regret watching it, because the purpose of watching a bad movie was to 1) accompany vinnie, 2) so that I don't have to read the book to find out what the hype is about. Why I found the movie bad? 1) the actor (specifically whats-his-name-who-acted-as-cedric-diggory-in-harry-potter) did not make a hot-drop-dead-gorgeous-i-must-fall-in-love-with-you vampire. 2) the plot was seriously unrealistic.I don't get the fall-in-love-to the point of madness of the female lead. 3) uh, actors were too stiff in acting, little variation in emotions and expressions. If I were to rate the movie, I'd give it ONE star- for the beautiful scenery.

I literally dragged vinnie around orchard after that, which i feel terribly guilty for, since she looked pretty tired. I was looking for shoes to match my prom dress, so we moved from Cineleisure (where we caught the movie), to Heeren, to Wisma. That took about 3 hours? It's because of my indecisiveness and terrible feet structure that I took so long (plus there were many shoe outlets with pretty but EXPENSIVE shoes), so I let her off at the MRT, while I went around Ion, then as a last resort, to Fareast Plaza. That's where I found my shoes, after 4 hours of searching. Plain, black pumps, not too uncomfortable, and flexible to wear with almost any outfit. Took a bus to Robinsons, bought my makeup, then headed home, exhausted.

shoes XD

4th Dec, Friday

Even though i was exhausted the day before, I didn't sleep till..5am. Not from insomnia, but K drama. Suen got me hooked onto the Korean drama "You're Beautiful", about a girl cross dressing as her brother in an all-male idol group. It's pretty good, and addictive. I've finished the series since then, and uh, it caused me to get distracted from stuff such as working on my prom dress and baking teresa's cupcakes.

Teresa and Anne came over for lunch, specifically Pre-Prom-Preparation. Basically trying on our dress, make-up, hair and shoes for prom. I was more busy cooking, washing the dishes and trying to hem my dress (a time-efficient alternative to making a brand new dress), think Cinderella and her two step sisters preparing for the ball. There's pictures with teresa to prove the scene. haha. Went well enough, completed teresa's cupcake order before she had to rush home. Anne stayed a little longer, and we continued watching "you're beautiful". HAHA.

teresa's order of vanilla cupcakes.

you're beautiful <3

i love Shin Woo and Jeremy <3 (2 guys on extreme left)

5th Dec, Sat. - SATs.

If you have not realized, I've only mentioned SATs once before in this post. And on this day, I took my first SAT I paper, which I only studied the night before. Haha.  I wonder how the results will turn out to be. Woke up early and headed to Starhub Centre to take it, while I knew others were heading to other centres such as St Francis for their own SATs. Coincidentally, Teoh Guan ( 2008 Lignum OGL), was taking the test in the same room as me too! haha.

Went Spotlight at PS after to buy more prom stuff, technically, only ribbons for my heels. but that took me an hour anyway -_-. Did a little grocery shopping before my brother picked me up, then headed home, and spent the rest of the afternoon to finish the K drama mentioned above.

6th Dec. Sun.
Baking Day! For gowri's order of Chocolate Cupcakes with Orange Frosting (which she totally forgot to pick up, haha!), and experimented with some muffins that just failed. Played with my newly bought gum paste to make christmas decorations for my bakesale too! That's about it really. oh, and then had to go for a relative's wedding (i believe the groom's my grandmother's brother's son, which makes him my uncle.) at Holiday Inn Atrium, a five minute walk away from my house. Walked home in my heels. haha.

gowri's cupcake order.

christmas deco!

my family, and my brother's girlfriend, minus my 2nd brother.

7th Dec,Monday - one week later, Grad night!

Morning was a URA talk I signed up for with Trudy, about the URA scholarship and tea session. Delivered cupcakes to gowri before I headed to URA centre early and met up with trudy, matt and edwin. A few more other njcians were there too, like kok wah, kung yin and shirley. Met Jia xi, a henry park gymmer who went to HCI at the talk too! It was pretty interesting, but I my mind was drifting away when it got to touring the exhibits of different places in singapore. It ended an hour later than specified, but the food was good though. Chocolate eclairs and cheesecake <3.

Rushed home right two minutes before anne came over - for Prom prep! slacked around a little, made my clutch, before I cooked lunch again, and teresa arrived. It took us about an hour and a half to prepare, before leaving to go early to the hotel room which jilly booked by cab. Grr...cab fares are seriously expensive nowadays, 13 bucks to get to raffles city from my house, which is only about 10mins away. But include heavy traffic and ERP surcharge..wallet busters the meters are. Due to the rush, me and teresa forgot jewelry, but didn't bother to go back and get them, so we went earring-less. I have to apologise to teresa for not being able to do her hair as she wanted it to, as a bun, but due to my inexperience, it fell out before prom even started ): sorry!

purse: made from "Fruity Pebbles"

Grad night..was much better than I anticipated. I had fun, watching the performances, going around taking pictures, creating memories that will hopefully, last me forever. The food wasn't too bad, but the mango sago was totally disappointing (being a dessert critic here). The MC was great, and that's what makes a great show. I even got to do the Limbo as one of the table games! Super Seniors (parody of the K band Super Juniors Sorry Sorry MV), OST (Oh Xuemin, Sheena, Trudy's band), 06IP dancers were a few of the performances that I really enjoyed. Of course, there was the Best Dressed,  and Prom King/Queen, which i felt was totally bogus, since I felt that it was more like a 'sabo' game by friends, and didn't truly reflect the titles. But it did feel good when our efforts didn't go to waste, when NORMAN LEE won MR CONGENIALITY XD "What would you want to change the most?" Reply: "My voice." haha! totally out of context.

Anne! sleepover buddy.

teresa: the camwhore who sleptover.

Mr Congeniality!

06IP01 - graduated!

Post-prom was supposedly at Helipad, on the roof of Central, but I trooped alone to Supperclub to pay a visit to Nanthini, Christie and Jo(SA hockers, who had prom on the same night) with the intention of joining my schoolmates at Helipad later. BUT, just before I left the place, Noo and Chench called me and said that they were coming over in a cab. UH? With Mohammad and Reuben too. So, apparently Helipad was boring enough they decided to join me. Mohammad had contacts that got us in (don't ask how) with the soccer guys, without having to buy the SA post-prom tickets. haha. It was pretty mild at the start when we got in, Loud Music, Not Too Crowded...and then the Dancing Started. Noo wanted to dance so much she dragged us in, and I think I lasted five minutes(pathetic ain't it), before I went out to sit. Mostly beacuse having the Smoke machine right behind me, I couldn't breathe. So my first time at a club, was spent mostly sitting around, waiting for others, observing the scene. The dancefloor got really intense as the crowd grew, and I started seeing a lot more NJ people who migrated over from Helipad. So. It was that boring eh? SA post-prom? became half NJ-post prom. I even got a few pictures taken in the SA post-prom album on facebook. haha. I left after two hours, alone, again (2am), and walked back to the room as technically, I wasn't much into the clubbing scene. No point staying. I saw girls getting so drunk they can't walk, girls vomitting, girls getting rubbed up against guys, and I got worried for a particular friend too. Conclusion is, I don't think i'll be stepping in to a club for recreational purposes anytime soon, it's just not my atmosphere to be in.

Supperclub atmosphere.dancefloor.

8-10th Dec, Tues- Today - Post-prom syndrome.
Teresa and Anne slept over at my house after prom, we reached home about 3am? and just went to sleep after a bath. it's pretty exhausting after a whole night out socialising. Morning came, and teresa woke me up to announce she was going home. Reason: for lunch. haha. anne stayed longer, so I baked her brownies as a farewell present, since I couldn't see her off at the airport the next day (yesterday = 9th). Used the time to experiment with peppermint, in brownies, but I still don't think the flavour's strong enough yet.

Yesterday I had a STB scholarship interview, hence couldn't see anne off. I think it went rather badly, with my brain not functioning well. I was stammering and blundering my way through, that the interviewer even commented "I can see you're smoking your way through this one, and the last one too. haha." ugh. I'm really bad at interviews. Really. I can't seem to think on my feet(or chair), make appropriate, coherent responses that answer the question.Hence the blundering. GRR again. Went home feeling deflated, so I slept, then baked the afternoon away, making teresa's sister's order of the same cupcakes, gingerbread men dough, and cookies. Seems like my mood affects my baking too :/ today was not much different, but lesser. SLACKED. that about describes my day. Facebooked (I seem to be on it 20 hours a day now), and well, typed out this post which took a few hours -_-

So much for making my Post-A-Levels plans, most of which I was itching to start on, but haven't. Why do they always not go according to plan?
I should sign up for driving test. Soon.

oh yes, i wanted to mention two dreams i had, but i really shouldn't elongate this post further. It was about visiting the gym at hpps on a sat morning for training, and buying sugar for my baking.haha.

The future awaits.

i dreamed again.
Of myself getting my hair trimmed, but the style was still left long. I don't know why, but i think i'm partially afraid of cutting my hair because i like it long. But the other part of me wants to be adventurous and snip everything off.hmm. Any good stylists you would recommend to me?

Second dream was that i completed compiling the maldives photos that i was started last year. A long overdue project, which i must ensure myself to complete by the end of this year. No more excuses!

HI NUSH.
well, i just found out today there's one more additional reader to my blog. everyone, let's HI another one of my ghost blog readers (:

i have been doing my best to study, to the extent of travelling all the way to school to mug in the library, then at the oasis today. finally managed to finish population for geog, and nothing much else. haiz. it's been my (& kris') future cafe that has lately been constantly bugging me. my mind has latched on to this project so tightly that i can't seem to let go of it for a second. ideas for the ideal book cafe just keeps running through my head. the decor, the menu, the themes, the chairs, the wallpapers, the mannequins, the beanbags, the cooking, the serving, the laughing, the spiral stairs....everything! sigh. and i know i won't get to start on it for at least another few years...which is the sad part.

i had another dream this morning. which caused me to wake an hour later than i should have. it was probably because i was looking forward too much to going to school to study that i dreamed about it. somehow i was with this big study group on the way to school, and this 'study group' of mine wasn't NJcians. i had the sense that they were people i met in Pre-U sem. but uh, they weren't them. The next thing i knew, i was either calling ms tay (or she called me), and that the school gate was closing already. So i'm assuming here that we're all running late, and we're in transit to take the second bus to school.(I always have to change buses to get to and from school). So, my conversation with ms tay went along the lines of her telling me the uncle was closing the gate, and me asking her if she could ask the uncle to keep the gate open for another half hour. she said she'll try her best, then an almost accusing question came out: 'do you have to study in that study group/are you studying in school with a study group?' and i said yes. and she hung up. i got the feeling that i should be studying alone, or just not study with this particular group of almost strangers. the bus came almost as soon as i got off the phone, and we all boarded the bus. i sat right at the back of the bus, in the center seat, and there were three other people on my left(which made it seem like a big bus that can hold 7 people in the back row).the guy next to me is also part of my study group. he felt like only an acquaintance, but somehow i felt really comfortable with him. he was cute and charming, but i don't even remember his face (haha..boyfriend of the future?). he knew Andrew..and it took me awhile to realize it was andrew SEOW...the funny guy in my promary school class. Cute guy knew andrew as the DIVER.(which in real life he isn't- or not that i know of, but i accepted it in the dream anyway).and then i whipped out this really cool phone! a white slide phone with touch screen, and A LOT of buttons. i'll draw it out soon, if i can remember the details, but i was really cool. the next thing i surprised myself with was, i shifted onto cute guy's lap as the bus got more crowded, so that someone else could sit down. (in reality, there isn't enough space for such a thing to happen on the bus, ever.) then i was reading my messages on my phone, from some people i'm not sure i knew, and cute guy was helping me figure out my phone. and then second revelation: person whom i didn't know messaged me was actually the cute guy whose lap i was sitting on, and his name is REI. short for Yu Hong Rei or something like that. but the important thing is! not the full name, but REI. that's the name i wanted to give to my future son (: (inspired from a manga : MARS) funny thing. i didn't know his name at the start of the dream, and it gradually unfolded for me to find out..what a nice surprise(: the bus ride ended there, and when we were at the nj sidegate bus stop, some girl went: 'let's go da-bao some dessert/ice kacang!'. and i said no, that we were already late. and i WOKE UP. an hour late. haha.

dear me, i dreamt of being late, only to be late in real life. should have woken up when ms tay called. haha.perhaps then i wouldn't have to walk in through the main gate.

two days of sweet desserts....i shouldn't crave anymore.

just came on to report how disastrous the paper that ended 2 hours ago was. well well, 2 hours, 3 essays. can't they just round it up and make it even? 3 hours for 3 essays sounds so much better don't you think? we even get one and a half hours for ONE GP essay!oh wells, so i did 2 essays that took me 2 hours, um, maybe 10 mins of planning, and thus five minutes for my last essay. use your own imagination to think how much i could write (and mind you under PRESSURE) in FIVE minutes.

yep. and then i came straight home to an empty house, intending to cook myself something healthy. i did, and it probably was the healthiest lunch i've had (although not the most delicious). it's uh, aglio olio- spaghetti la caprese- inspired. haha. the guy on tv...david rocco if i'm not wrong, made it look so easy. and so...

Spaghetti with
-sausages
-olive oil
-tomatoes
-broccoli
-celery
-carrots
-lettuce
-garlic
-herbs
-mozzarella
-parmesan
-salt

yep. and uh, some of it was raw. haha. i would post a picture and scare away the veggie haters, but sadly BLOGGER IS STILL SCREWED IN MY BROWSER. yep.

oh right right, and another one! a dream i mean (it's so rare nowadays.) I WAS PLAYING CS - counterstrike! AND I WAS THE PLAYER. like literally in the game, holding a gun, running around trying to avoid getting shot. and uh, somehow i really sucked at the game. (ironic since i came in champion for paintball haha!) apparently i met saket (an old gym acquaintance) and a friend of his who was in the game too..Lehait/Lemait/Hemait or some weird name like that. haha. and so, he tried to lend me his gun (because i was too poor to afford better equipment and thus had sucky guns), and another one of those bazooka missile things i talked about in one of my previous dreams. the thing was, the missile was pink -_-. but yea, i missed the shot, the missile didn't explode, but started inflating. so Saket went over, picked up the inflating missile, attached it to a pail (???!!), and put it back onto his gun. and shot the target (a car). uh..the last part didn't make any sense, but i've got a feeling the dream stems from me reading books with Virtual Reality plots.

and then this morning i saw a lady riding a red Harley Davidson with a black leather jacket! so cool :D

geog time!

Grand Cru Royale by Center PS

Love the hazelnut praline, rich chocolate mousse and crunch. comparable to Whisk bakerys' can't remember that name, but it was my favourite cake till now with whole hazelnuts in it. luckily i ran it off today, if not imagine the guilt i'd have of it coursing through my veins..

I ate the cake while Project runway's Season 5 finale aired on TV. LOVED le anne's dresses. Love karto's collection. and liked some of kenley's cute skirts.

I woke up this morning remembering another Dream

I was eating at max brenner's with aleee and another hockey guy (same level, but can't remember who), but it looked like fullerton hotel's chocolate buffet. Eating star shaped churros in chocolate fondue. Lots of chocolate, oh my, it was oh so good!(even if it was in a dream) the background somehow looked a little like tiong bahru plaza. Aleee paid for dinner cause she hadn't any small change. And then couples from nj that i just recently saw in school started walking pass our table, as if it was such a coincidence that they were going on a date in the same area. I know the dream continued with more chocolate and cake and eating.

Weird eh? I'm getting more dreams with links to recent events that already happened or i anticipated happening. It says something about my thoughts as well: Perhaps i'm reading my food blogs too much, as max brenner's and fullerton chocolate buffet were both mentioned here. And maybe the chocolate cake i ate the night before was so good it made me crave for more chocolate goodness:) as for the NJ couples, i was uh, observing a few around school..just as they happened to be near by. which included sitting outside the choir stall with sheena and WQ and V came by.(and there was more talk about couples today...)

Well, at least the chocolate's helping keep the depressive failure thoughts away.

I need more cake and chocolate.

i just had to record this down before i forgot all about it while studying. it's really rare, that i remember dreams after i wake up. and today's is even more special! as i had not 1, not 2, but 3 dreams!

dream number 1: black smoke

I looked out my bedroom window, and the sky was sunny all around except in one area. ahead of me, low dark clouds gathered around the buildings, as if i was going to rain in that small district. but, the clouds grew

thicker, grew blacker and started to expand! Just like the shadows in Charmed (this really old TV show on 3 witch sisters), it started to move towards my block. even though it seemed as though it rose up to about 10 storeys, and i was on the 23rd, i had this instinct that breathing in that smoke would be a terrible thing! and so i got my brother to help me close all the windows in the house as fast as possible as it was approaching rapidly! but while i was closing the last of windows, the black noxious thing stopped at the building before ours. false alarm for me, and it gradually began to clear. i don't know what possessed me to go downstairs and check out the situation. and i found: a crowd. with a blue unmarked van and a few blue burly men in bulletproof jackets in the open centre of the crowd. I think i asked what happened, and one of the men showed me a missile. as in those i saw on the Discovery channel, where they can be loaded onto gun and fired, used by some terrorist or guerilla groups too. they were firing that. around housing estates??!! and the weird thing is (that can only happen in dreams) was that there's no damage at all! only just lots of smoke..their reasons for doing so? i can't remember, only that it was stupid.

ok...this is almost what the 'missile' looked like...the bottom one. apparently it's a anti-tank hand grenade 0_0

dream number 2: doctor's visit

I visited the GP clinic [but i felt fine in the dream, really] I entered the doctor's office, to find the doctor and two nurses watching a movie on a TV propped onto a trolley. and so i sat there and waited. and then the doctor paid attention to me. I think we ran through some normal checkup procedure, and then suddenly the nurse's attention was brought away from the screen to me. she announced that i have some weird sickness in it's clinical name, which was basically - the flu. but she was stuttering so much over the name that the doctor just handed me the card he wrote on to read what he diagnosed. ok....and so i went over to the counter to pay and collect my meds for a flu i did not feel. i got home to pass my mom the receipt, and i didn't notice what they charged for till she asked me. apparently there was a chest X-ray, some other service which had to do with buses (??) and the bill was $59.90. the meds had cost $39.90.( for 10 pills. oh wow. $4 for each) oh did i mention that the movie the nurses were watching was Saw?

dream number 3: an nj hockey gathering.

I met up with edwin, karen, david and john for uh, dinner i think. we were only drinking soybean though. and then we met alex and aleee together coincidentally at the same restaurant. the whole restaurant was empty except for us hockey people, with the two groups sitting at opposite ends of it. table and stools were fashioned like an old chinatown coffeeshop with varnished glossy wood. karen and john left, alex and aleee didn't join us, and so i went over to their table to talk to aleee (why did i do that anyway?). she was eating uh, melted chocolate ice cream and had a soybean drink.haha. after awhile i think i was feeling third-partyish and went back to our own table where apparently, we actually finished a steamboat dinner, and shaun p. had mysteriously appeared! he was the only one eating, finishing up the last of our spicy steamboat. and then the store started closing with all of us inside..hm.

well, after typing out all these, i figured my dreams were somewhat related to my waking hours before it. i had messaged aleee abt booking pitch for a hockey thing, and when i was adding the recipient i typed 'ale', and both aleee and alex appeared. haha. and then the movie Saw - juniors were watching it during chalet and i had just blogged about it.as for the first dream....i have no clue where that came from.

now. back to start studying! it's earlier than yesterday, being 1pm now (: