2 posts in one day is kinda rare.
hah
my moods are somewhat lifted a bit now that yun hui helped me make my decision.now's only how im going to raise it to my mom.just hope she won't argue too much about me not going to njc.im so not going to try to slog my way through a harder and more stressful life....call me lazy...but accepting njc would be somewhat too safe.once guarunteed a place at njc, some people will just slack knowing that they'll go straight to jc, although the work is tougher.but changed will affffect life.

wish time would just stop.
so i could actually have time to think
stupid indecisive me.but i can't help it ! it's gonna affect me for the next 4 years of my life.FREAKING HELL.people would say i've had more than enough time to think.since june?
argh.
my mom's so coming back in an hour or two and just demand the damned letter from me, fill it in and post it for me tmr.but why can't she just understand MY point of view.and now she's making me sway into thinking it might be better going to njc.after i decided not to go a few hours earlier.i'll feel freaking guilty for leaving the team if i go.but i'll regret not going as well.what the freaking damn hell is wrong with me?or issit just the mind-blowing decision.why must an inexperianced 14 year old girl make such a decision? but if i don't, my mom will make it for me and i'll most probably regret it like hell.starting a new isn't exactly a good thing for me.why must i be so resposible? its not like not being responsible will kill me right? but nooooooooo ...if i don't then everyone will kill me.because they all depend on me.like im some slave/maid rather than a leader.ass.can i just go to africa like now? or like fling myself out the window and see if i can fly.stupid block's roof is locked.like anyone would be so stupid to commit suicide off a 30-storey block.yea right.im going furthur and further off point.asssss.just ranting whatever comes to my mind..or fingertips.







megaaaa-cookie anyone?

ah.20 days.
a lot happened, but i don't wish to brag about anything.main concern right now is njc vs. crescent.got the offer to go nj , so i have no idea if i wanna go...or more like should go.but then this part of me wants to stay.i have this itty bitty feeling in my heart that i somehow won't accept the offer coz i took too long to decide and the dealine passed (:

results are out.my average is only average.all because i failed my freaking lit. and chinese was a just pass.the 80 marks for 2 subs pulled me back if not i would be totally doomed.bah.stupid class still as irritating as ever.no offence to classmates who read this.but they piss me off at times.which is much more frequent.no doubt there are some chairperson - haters out there who are just waiting to slit my neck or something.

i think the sec 2 hockey team is pathetic or they just don't take me seriously.i organize meetings and cross trainings, gym trainings that mr nordin wants us to go for....but NO...they all say they'll come but don't.i think my blood stress pressure's gonna rise furthur if this keeps up.

stupid choreography dance test is over.thank god for that. i embaressed myself in front of the class...but HAHA. i still showed jing my video.i could laugh to death watching it.now's the critical appreciation for dance.we had to watch a dance from the play romeo and juliet.it was kinda nice.just too boring for my taste.

hpps?wed.have a feeling its gonna be boring.but im always wrong.arent' i?

happy birthday to my dear brother
and happy birthday to singapore

how nice...a double birthday.
anyway.i found the celebrations for national day yesterday a bit too long and plain. half the class pissed me off again.cabbed down to hpps after that...waited for the rest to come...more like arnold before we went to bung over at val's.at hpps, we played basketball , stoned atop the monkey bars and ate brownies till we grew fat.HAH.watched fantastic 4 over there while the guys played with the gamecube and terrorized the basement.had to go for tuition ..so i left earlier.not that i had too.i felt obliged as my test was on friday.but it wasn't exactly helpful.like before.went back while accompanying m*****[think she's quite known already but i wouldn't want people to think otherwise] on the bus.apparently i mistook her whole crook personality.she's got some straight in her.whatever.

val's planning a mega sleepover.which i can't wait for.a chance to display my sadistic creativity.haha.we haven't had one in ages.blah.

i think my sadist self is not sadistic enough.anybody knows how to enhance my sadistic ablities? besides not helping a person who fell down right in front of me and laugh.