do you hear it?
the little murmurs, then it gradually gets louder. you hear one or two distinct voices as they are closer to you. suddenly it erupts into full blown conversations everywhere. people forgetting where they are, raising their voices high enough for the person two seats down from you to hear, talking as fast as they can,to relate everything, before everything they did for the past 3 hours is forgotten. the heated debates, the comparing, the agreements. the din lasts for 30 seconds to a minute, before
'not all the papers are collected yet. who said you could talk? the more you talk, the longer before you'll be dismissed."
the crowd goes quiet.
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the murmurs start again. and it escalates. i just sit there in my seat. thinking about lunch. and sleep. everything else sounded like many fast-forwarded conversations being played at once around me.
and you don't realize it because you are part of it.

five down and two to go. others have four down and one to go.or are done. damn having to take chinese. today was maths, chinese listening compre and geog. the horror. that was what i felt before geog. ok, after the math paper. because it took the teachers half an hour to collect all the papers, eating into chinese listening time, lunch, and most importantly my start-looking-through-geog-notes-time. math was ok. not as disastrous as i thought, although i counted i lost 30 marks when i handed up the paper. chinese was ok. its listening and multiple choice. how hard can that be? and then. teresa said i was hyperventilating when we were outside the gym. i was hovering over 'i'm gonna leave the paper blank later cause i have no idea what the question is asking' and 'i don't care if i fail. i shouldn't care. i don't need to care. i don't mind.' and ' oh god. i'm gonna so fail this paper. why didn't i study. why didn't i think geog had to be studied. why couldn't i mug like teresa!' yea. managed to calm down. in the end, geog was better than econs. i finished the essays, although i do know there wasn't much content and waaaaaaayy too short, but, at least i felt confident to hand in the script and score some marks. hyperventilating before a paper may be good in the end. makes me feel better (:

i should be studying bio now. if not the same thing's gonna happen tmr that did today. ah. and chinese A level oral. its decided. friday's the day i set the record for speaking english during a chinese oral exam.

i want to make blueberry muffins. i've got nice blueberries in the fridge. and so is my lasagna.yum.