ever wonder how parents always 'do you good' when they keep nagging.non-stop.even when you've tried your best and stuff..they'll keep saying that its not good enough.it will continue.almost forever.they will always have something to say in whatever you do.that's why my friends always think that im so free and my parents are so good...to let me go out.that part is kinda true.but its more of most of the time i don't tell them everything.or not anything at all.they won't find out ...unless they hired spies to spy on their kid.which is soo totally not private at all.

the past few weeks i've been envying the sky.they seem so pure, and i just keep looking up to stare at it.i've got tons of pictures of the sky already too.they are like free..sometimes i feel that i can just stare at the sky all day long, but im not close enough on the ground.
and im like all philosophical...like after i watched the samurai x dvd.saw how shinta[kenshin]'s 3 friends got murdered in front of him which is SOO touching.and then he fell in love with a guy he killed's fiancee.they got married and he accidentally killed her when she jumped in front of a guy.then how he got a disease and died from it which i totally pitied him.and kaoru wanted to share his pain..so she got the disease from him.
i could have cried.if not for my emotions that are devoid of the sadness.i can feel it but i can't cry .no matter how sad the movie is, or whether we lost a competition, tears never flow.but i can't even remember the last time i actually cried.and from my brothers, i used to be a crybaby.even when there was thunder, i would cry.
i can't believe i've just been ranting on.and on.
june holidays have started.but it does not feel like it.why?trainings.project work.and stuff i have to finish like homework..and i can't believe i actually want to take up tennis lessons twice a week or even go for japanese courses.
and my freaking tablet is lagging like hell.or either my brother is making the internet lag seriously bad.
and i can't believe my whole family ate at this totally posh chinese restaurant yesterday which cost up to around 400 bucks?but its was my graandfather's birthday..so i guess it can't hurt to eat like that once in a while.
and fan fictions with fuji cross dressing actually amuses me on how he can actually pass off as a girl.hah.i guess that being open-minded i good..JUST THAT IM MISSING DEESPERATE HOUSEWIVES NOW!!!!