it was enjoyable enough. Cake, the thoughts, the pigs and the waffles.but i can't quite convince myself it was a special day...even though its supposed to. I guess life never works out the way you want it to.it never does.

i feel empty, unsure of who i am, what i am to be. I don't want to be moulded, but left to be grown naturally out in the wild. Isn't that what creates the strength in us?

it only takes five mere minutes to post (when you have everything you want to write about in your head already). and yet i don't know why i used to take between half an hour to an hour just to make one entry. no wonder i was reluctant to post this often.haha.

i need to start working hard. but there's just no motivation too.

some of you haven't changed.it's just in the nature.i guess it won't anytime soon.
please let me know soon.

the weekend's over. It was a good one in a long time. Not only was there movie, food and beach, there were nice people to spend it with:)

Saturday- sushi buffet at suki sushi located at cineleisure with a few of the current nj hockers. Man, it was a good brunch for me, spanning three hours, and accumulating a total of 112 black and yellow plates. There's supposed to be more, since some of the ordered plates came combined together, thus maximizing table space. Haha.i'll post pictures up another day. Watched Wedding Daze which was our second movie choice, as the Dark Knight was mostly sold out till the later movies. Real funny movie, NOT just a typical american flick.haha.

Sunday. Beach picnic at sentosa with my long-time-no-see nj hockey seniors. Even though i was like the only one who's still IN nj, i still enjoyed myself:) there was alex, edwin, andrick, wei siang, david, roy, justin, john, jun fu, aleee, karen and siya.and me of course. There were times of the 'awkward silences' but they were soon filled with ns tales, funny reminiscenes of the past, and lots of laughter. I made lasagna and my favourite blueberry choc chip muffins, there was pizza, sandwiches and drinks, and chips that were never eaten.yet.haha. Few rounds of beach touch rugby, a round of monkey frisbee, and maybe some random photography by edwin, the result was mostly shacked, sandy, sunburnt teen and almost-past-teens.sigh. We should have more of it with more people the next time..

Thanks to all who made my weekend :) especially you.

i could say today felt like my longest day ever. leaving the house at 6.40am and reaching home only at midnight. continuously like clockwork, after a full day's worth of school, there were two extra remedials (for USEless people like me), then a little bit of training, before hitting more worksheets during tuition. and i thought it would be over with this, but no, went to pick my mom before going for dinner during supper time at some nice chinese restaurant. and since it was near my brother's training dojang, we went to pick him before i finally reached home.and now i've just got to wait for my turn to use the bath. 'it's gonna be a long day...-Redman'08'

well dinner with my mom and her collegues seemed really interesting, exposed me to the office buddies working system. like who pays for food, where and how they get their 4-D numbers for the next week's draw, how they share stories of anything and everything. well i'm just glad to be able to tag along and ate such delicious food at a nice restaurant for free...13 different dishes. like woah. i just bloated up.

i feel old and faulty.as if my body's ready to break down soon.

i don't know if i'm prepared.

dear taggers:
i could posts the photos if i had the time to take them or upload them, just that i would fear people would bombard me with too many orders and then that would tempt me too much into dropping out of school and just opening up my own cafe (:

well, so far this week i haven't reached home before 8.30pm.either due to training, then dinner at 2nd chinatown, or staying in school to hopefully finish my work. well i'm only staying in school due to the belief that i'll be more productive in school, come home later, but i will sleep earlier, thus preventing pimple breakouts!

and a relevation t told me today. t2 told t that my face looked rounder after the june holidays. i thought so too ): seriously, i bring food to school EVERYDAY. and not for lunch, for snacking during class and breaktimes. sigh. i'm seriously eating too much. must be the lack of sleep and stress.

stop tempting me!