my room's a big mess.and im a mess.
being both emotionally and physically strained.
nothing more please.

continuation from yesterday.no..14 hours post ago.
had class outing yesterday.the nj future class.i wouldn't say much .interesting.boring.embarressing.weird.all the different descriptions of it.
its those kind where you stone.and get to put names to faces.and watch chicken little.when i already have the dvd.so i just blew cash on a movie.

ok.then training.nordin's in malaysia with the under 16 team playing so wei zhen came in and sub. but jing's complaining it was too slack.as for me.my lungs were affected and thus i can't run for long and i had very long breaks on monday.wednesday wasn't so bad for me cause i was on the road to recovery but still can't run the full 5 rounds.i hope tmr's training i'll be in a better shape.
ta.

i am pissed at myself for all the too-much-logical-thinking.seriously. its like when someone makes some unknown-doesn't-seem-like-its-wrong-and-doesn't-really-matter-mistake in speech or somthing i'll try to correct the person.that person must be irritated by that...everyone will although sometimes it is mixed with sarcasm and humour.i just just can't seem to control it. and even i myself get irritated.ugh.
and then i have another tendancy.to make all my statements to a person whether it is to reply they're question or just to make a comment, it'll all seem very cold hearted and mean.and its like a sign that im barely tolerationg the person...or around there.another time would be when im having fun i like to be mean.somehow.its like nice to be mean.now i see why people turn to evil. more than good.

oh well.the week went past fine.with me having sorethroat, a little flu and bad cough.so my laziness and combined weakness made me stay away from the computer.
and since i am about to fall asleep right now and can't keep my eyes open and thus nodding off at my chair .ta.

i feel obliged to blog when something happens to me.although lesser and lesser details are input.soon it'll just be one blank entry and i'll totally stop.
hockey chalet was tiring.to my body.although we didn't do anything physically exhausting, staying up late for nights in a row can be.i guess i slept quite well last night compared to others.especially with limited resources.loyang was not bad.just a little detached from the redt of singapore.big place, adequate facilities.but the bbq.i think it just wasn't worth my effort just to be able to play with fire.
anyway.my head feels much lighter.literally.went to cut my hair with jing and yj at fareast today.like finally.it still needs a little getting used to.especially the amount of hair that i lost.together with my highlights.i think its approximately a year since i last cut it.and the shortest ever since kindergarten.at least i wont sweat like a pig that easily now.
that's all folks.too lazy to bother to input anything else.

this week is a shit week.from being accisent prone, to lacking sleep for consecutive nights, to favourite shirts being destroyed ,an example - my WHITE baggy shirt turned PINK. this is one hell busy week as well...from sleepovers, to chalet, to another chalet.now i know my body's limit.
no one is superman.

sharon : forget about the comment.i do not think of you as a sadist coz im suppose to be the one and not you.just forget about it and don't think of what i think of you.

today.streaming.my name wasn't there.my amusement was lost.
anyway...hockey training we had to run.and im surprised my 2.4 timing is such horrid.sighs.
but i went out for lunch with the s1 people today.no sijing, you're friends aren't retarted, they're acually quite amusing.and nicole won 50 bucks for a dare...eating and drinking some noodles and soup that the table mixed together.hahah..but i really can't believe anyone that would just give 50 bucks to a stranger like that.oh wells.
next week starting sunday's gonna be packed and so i doubt i'll be blogging.

oh right.harry potter.it was disappointing.it did no honour to the book.and harry potter's getting uglier.cedric wasn't so bad.voldermort was utterly horrible.and so was alastor moody.that's all i have to say.but to acctually include everything in the book, i bet the movie will last 5 hours at least?that would be nice.haha.

and gundam seed destiny was nice.it touched my heart.if i even have one.and tampering with genes is just plain wrong.