4 hours have seen me one paragraph or response for GP.

and this <3

spotted in CLEO mag, and looks blister free (:

i have just spent the last eight hours of the day which has tons of things lined up to be done, reading finish two romance novels. one of course started yesterday. 

but the point is, that the books tend to leave me and my mind incapable of functioning logically and properly to do work. and the result is me blasting my favourite music through the speakers and procrastinating on a already-past-5-hour-due-deadline for my GP articles that i set myself.

happy happy mcdreamy

musics got control....and i'm never letting go...i just wanna play my music..........

wish you would just be here, right here right now.

sleepy sleepy.

pam will be on hold for blogging.

events she missed blogging:

1. val's sleepover

2. lunch with peiqi + dinner with zhen ren

(2.1 not worth mentioning that was in my previous post, social 5aside hockey carnival)

3. sunday's adventure to the library and work

4. monday's double training

ta.

****

was what i felt, wanted to say, thought today's carnival was. the 5aside at hockey village was just disappointing, and dreadful, although we did get into the semis. basically, the people organizing it were HORRIBLE. they can't even get the fixtures done properly, manpower and all the tiny little details aren't taken care of. secondly, i don't like the people we were playing against. it was so bloody messy, i just lost all my recently found passion for hockey in an instant. i just felt like not playing hockey ever again.

may i add in that i was sniffing, sneezing, rubbing my nose like shit the whole day?and i still HAD to play.

adding my injury list:

a sprained thumb, scrapped index finger, bruised middle finger, squashed pinky, and another million places of abrasions from at least 5 dives today.

i'm too pissed off and tired to conitnue.

the tarot cards have spoken. i will retreat and withdraw. 

i needed cards to steel my mind against you?

 i really hope its worth it for you and me.

happy happy new year!

well, its the time again to get used to writing dates for 09 instead of 08. and 365 days more before you can say the above phrase again [exception to the chinese calendar.]

and since it's a new year, i shall not blog about the past today, including yesterday. so this morning, when it really hit the year 2009, i was alone. not that i wanted to be, but circumstances permitted me to only be with loved ones 10 mins after. but i guess 2009 made me feel a little different, like happier. maybe because i did something i thought might be one of my resolutions for this year. i wished happy new year to two couples who were complete strangers as i walked past them on the pavement as the fireworks were blasting away behind the buildings. happy happy (: and then i arrive home tired, but to a whole table full of food [malaysian snacks, but food nonetheless] and wished my parents happy new year after not seeing them for about 4 days?

so..resolutions for 2009, which i really hope i can keep up for more than a week, since some are probably repeated for the past 5 years or so..

1) Be more outgoing/outspoken, have the courage to speak up and not keep silent/speak my mind.

2) Turn my lists into actions as soon as possible! [since i always make lists of things to do, but i don't follow them exactly.]

3) Increase my concentration span by sheer will.

4) Decrease procrastinations and push aside distractions that will cause lazy-procrastinations.

5) Be nice. or at least decrease the number of harsh-sounding words coming out of my mouth even if i'm pissed, joking, or sacarstic.

6) Give my all for hockey, both NJ and Crescent, to improve skills and physical, recruiting team members & igniting passion in the team.

7) Spend money wisely, and think about investments, the recession, & the cost of baking school each time i am about to shop impulsively.

8) Don't speculate/assume things too quickly. Assess and analyze.

9) Don't think  too much/too long. it builds up stress and pimples.

10) Follow the above resolutions to the best of my ability at all costs!

i hope everyone enjoys the new year ahead with loved ones [or go find new ones to love XD ] and try your best to stick to your resolutions!