i made a promise to myself to start on physics and chem right after i blog (: which are the papers for tmr.and i haven't started at all. oh and 6 days to a month since i last updated.the breaks are getting longer and longer...

so middle of ass week.just 3 more papers to go. the rest weren't so bad. i think, but i do remembering having hand cramps.i figured i haven't exactly been sticking to my regime of studying...quite sad.so much for new years' resolutions.

i have new found care and concern for my tablet now.ever since the bloody harddrive died on me in school at 6.30pm one day[i was being good to stay in school to study and it worked (: ), and my stomach felt in the pits. i lost all my MUSIC , PHOTOS, NOTES (although not really..but ass week was just the week after the next then), VIDEOS WHICH i HAVEN"T WATCHED....AND MANY OTHER THINGS I SHALL NOT MENTION.all gone.poof.just like that.and i didn't have any back up at all.so...when into depression..lost all studying mood until now.which i still haven't recovered the study mood part yet.hm.yes anyway, i realized i shouldn't have sulked and complained so much ( sorry trudy and teresa), because i could get most of the stuff back from my friends or online.it was mostly the hassle i was upset about.and ADOBE PHOTOSHOP.my tablet actually came back in a better comdition..no more creaking hinge.and i got my taskbar back which i lost for a year and a half.ha. so, i found this new appreciation for my tablet, how lucky i am to have it, as compared to my brother's laptop, but still, losing it for those few days made me realise how important it was.(call it cliche, but its true) and yes, the new found appreciation is part of the factor that makes me not go into the study mood.

and i thought i wasn't that dependant on technology as compared to others.well i thought i wasnt.i don't use my phone that much, i do lots of stuff myself, but i still do go on the net everyday..but that's the only part! oh wells.time to change my lifestlye, but it never happens.just like when i wanted to exercise more, be more disciplined, be more healthy by eating fruits, be neater etc. and the list goes on.....

anyone has photos that you think that i think that would concern me even if im not in it, please send it to my email! or send me a link to you photoalbum! thanks. which i doubt this will make any difference since no one comes here except for the occasional passer by.

bloody bugger.just when i resolved to go jogging this evening at 5. it started to RAIN at 5.and for once i actually felt empowered to do something i always thought of doing but never did do. and it couldn't be little drizzle which i could still run in. it was HEAVY rain.with high speed winds.might as well go back to the never-followed-get-abs-in-thirty-days-regime.its at least 3 months now. and no abs here.

anyway, its exactly a week since my parents and my brother left for aussie. there's not much difference at home, all the same amount of independance as when their still in singapore. except that i have to wash, iron, cook..not that bad as my grandmother's staying with me.and she lives next door anyway.and i quite like taking the bus.and having those walks back.well..its one more week to go.

bloody assesment week's coming, and there's no training to burn off fats ):

reply to sheena : didn't you realize i was missing in the middle of is1105 on friday?yes i went home to prepare for colours award.its for the sports people (: and what training? unless you're talking about my trainings on tues and thurs nights.what about them?

5th annual NJC colours award.
i wasn't overdressed despite wearing wedges and a spag top with jeans although it did say smart casual.most of them were in formal wear anyway. food was a great 9 course dinner, which we couldn't finish and a very waste of food.laughing, dancing(more of a failure), throwing face, was all part of the night.too bad the guys weren't around, it would have been so much more enjoyable.i think.overall it was great to see everyone anyway.

SAKAE SUSHI.
first time eating and it was GREAT.
that one word described it.

went shopping at marina square with my mom, the shops are really nice too..bought tops for colours award (:

an interesting insight : i talk to my brother online although he's only in the room next door. laziness? or more of convenience. and our parents won't shout at us for shouting across the house (:
and tonight i'll be watching my third movie in the cinema for the week..all with my mom.and my brother for today.tuesday was pirates of the carribean, which i have been longing to watch since the year before, and a 1am show at plaza sing. it was that entertaining to prevent me from falling asleep. considering i had training before/friendly.wed was click with my cousin and mom at around 9.30..very touching at one part, such that i teared, one of the very few movies i do.tonight's my super ex girlfriend cos we're running out of shows to watch.why the sudden movie mania? hsbc has allowed my mom to buy tickets at a dollar.applause.and yay me.

tuesday was also national day celebrations. i ended up being one of the cheerleaders/house affliate which i am, and had quite a bit of fun i presume.but at the end, the emptiness creeps in more..went back to henry park to hear more revelations of exclassmates and dicover that my old form teacher's expecting another baby boy..haha.qutie fun, but i left before lunch to go home and rest[ out of orders] , and go for training/friendly match against the under14 boys. i still wasnt' relieved that they were younger than me. superfast legs and superior skills...sigh.and i have no idea how many times i have made a fool out of myself.thursday was the same thing.oh and im refering to nats under16.

last night i rushed through till early morning for that dang essay.why didn't i just start earlier?that is what i keep asking myself.i can never seem not to do last minute work.CHANGE ME, CHANGE.

i turned 15 yesterday. not a big celebration. its like minute compared to the other years , and caryn thinks so too. but with this little people, i think it can be enjoyable too.and family isn't so bad either.i just wonder why teen angst always make people dislike their family and put them in bad light..its just the family will always be with you forever.till they die at least. but i did once hate my family. i was barely tolerating their behavior. but if i can tolerate some of my worst friends' behaviors, then why can i not put up with more?i guess there's so much to one's tolerance.im just too nice.really.

anyway.trainings have been cut down to twice a week, my knee will seriously ache more.oh and swimming was actually tiring...and i got to bathe and eat(: fundraising for floorball has gone quite well.swedish meatballs and smores and other stuff we cut from the list.hockey fundraising's starting next week selling mini cornettos and mini magnums. homework is starting to come in slowly.

yesterday.received many smsed birthday wishes.how sweet.it was crescent's AAD as well..so went down at noon. gadis, melody, crystal, puisheen, sijing, nanthini, vanitha, bernette, sue wei, rachellau, hockey juniors, nadrah,yu sheng, christine, adilah...the few of the many faces i saw. exchanged presents with christine...played softball with the softballers, made hockey keychains, and be late for my meeting with val.cui was even later than me.lunch of mosburger's ebi rice burger(: went to see the the lakehouse[the ultimate dream house.and only if it would be reality that you could meet a hunk whom is two years in the past] we got front row seats.how wonderful.keanu reeves had two earholes on his left ear when he kissed sandra bullock. was he supposed to have the earholes for the movie?HAH.ben and jerry's after that...even though we were already freezing from the theater.triple scoop XD tessa joined us after that and we went to get CAKE ..from SWENSONS (: what a happy happy ice cream day. too bad my yoga mat was sold out from plaza sing. tessa's getting it another time then. we headed back to my place and cui had to go off...aww. reached home and we watched high school musical ..second half. and sue came! DINNER...wahaha.had tons of food..literally ate till i was stuffed. it was all my favourite foods.except the curry. grilled pork meat, onion duck, chicken wings, veg, noodles, rice.can't remember other dishes if there were anymore. cake just made my stomach bloat up like crap...it was worth it though. mango tango! and they went back.and i went to bathe and sleep. i don't need the presents.although they'll just add on to my joy.but that shall not influence my thoughts on how little kids elsewhere don't even get to celebrate their birthdays like me. and to those who missed my birthday...you missed out.HAH.

woke up with a tummy ache haha.cos i ate too much.consequences....
here's my cake:

envy me (:

i want to thank the nj hockey girls team 2006 for the wonderful after training treat and my lovely rice cooker (: we had a great time didn't we? and well..a person can be quite blur on their birthdays...being oblivious and innocently gullible to everything. well...hope we'll win next year's a divs!